An aching heart
a longing within
for a home
which I've never
known

What could have been
is not what
you think it
is
for if it was meant
to it would have

I aimed
for heaven
yet fell
into the depths
of hell
I fell deep down
with a wicked
frown
dirt & blood
on my satin
party gown

Foggy glass-stained window
church upon a hill of abundance
Transcending space & time
A light slowly flickers on
Eternal shine
Love is never lost,
maybe just hidden

Dark iris
veins tainted
and seaside dreams
guide me into
your nights

When my veil
is thin, and the truth
is floating in the
elusive wind

I follow the noise
and seek the storm
for my youth evades me
with each passing sigh

Dark iris
and burning pupils of desire,
I follow you to the unknown
place of worship

I pray to the dark moon
in awe of the sight
and dream of him
in black and white

Dizzied eyes
turbulent waves
My heart is harbored
by the seaside

I long to escape
into a world of my own
where we can be alone
together

The road ahead
calls my name
theres a divided
line between my heart
and my head
between the past
and the present

I cross the threshold

stars dizzy my
melting mind as
the ground fails
to tether me
to the earth

Half in the earth
half in the ethers
never quite
here nor there
nor anywhere

blood trickles
down my leg
like dripping juice
from rotten peaches

Black & blue thighs
Heavy  sighs
I didn't make a sound
Silent in the sunrise

A master
mind
masters
their mind

If it comes
let it
if it goes
bid it goodbye
if it flows
follow the current
if it slows
be careful
not to drown

I prance on your wooden
bed like a fawn in
the forrest of ephemeral desire

You sing to me a lullaby
in the distant landscape
where time melts
and ceases to exist

I heard heaven
is on earth
and the angels are
all around

For without your love,
I was once lost

Now I am Found

Awoke
in a field
of lilacs
dire
dreams
he unraveled
me slowly
at my seams
a man whom
believed
in
do by
any means
and I pranced
in the field
with
nomadic
fiends

What is golden
can stay
that
which is gilded
will stray

The lone
wolf
howls
in
the dead
of night
loneliness
embraced
by strangers
delight

I'm looking
back
while
facing
forward
it's all
so clear
as it
drifts
away
fogged up
mirror
clearer
visions

Those people
whom aren't
for everyone
those
are
my people

Lost in the eyes
which tread upon the heavy
gates of heavens

If I keep my gaze
level to the earth
and this plane,
I may never
reach what they call
nirvana

I'm lost in the eyes which
tread upon the heavy gates
of heaven

Tethered to his mad laughter
as it rings into the night

Blessed and cursed
all at once
for invocations
of the broken
rosary bloom
in my minds
eye

There lies heaven
right beneath
the seaside abyss
I won't reach it
unless I dive in deep

Blessed
and cursed
intertwined

He spins
elaborate tales
tips my libran
scales
imbalanced madness
prevails
in the house
of sin
I roll the dice
never win
lights flicker
in the utter
dim

Infernal  intent
mind was twisted
& bent
he calls out
Where art thou?
silence
as
I fell deep down
with a wicked
frown
dirt
& blood
on my party gown

Living in your head
that's a nice place to be
but the present
allows
you to see
the beauty around
the gold
to be found
the frown
on the stranger
you can help
turn around

Black tar
Daydream
China white
Fiend
Gold in
His veins
Soft touch
to
take away
his pains
Gal of the night
I do what you like
Far out my mind
he's
Still in my sight

I fell deep down
with a wicked
frown
dirt
& blood
on my party gown

What isn't meant for you
will never truly be yours
It will slip through
the fingers
of a grasp
much too tight
for darling don't you
see
there is something
else in store

Potential
is like a butterfly
it floats around
beautiful
enigmatic
& full of hope
yet it fleets
away
Grasp
that butterfly
with warm palms
& embrace
it fully
then watch
it fly

A stable
mind
may lack
the gold
mine
of inspiration
that
the
madness
dervives
from

black ocean
yearns for
commotion
abyss
of trouble
summons me
calls my name
echoes
dreary syllables
roll off
his
tongue
the moon howls
for me
once
drowned me
darling
I now
bathe
in the
sun

Gentle daydreams
set on fire
by fiends
flames engulfed
as I
tied my
own
noose
set myself
loose
caused
harm
as I
shot
poison
into
my arm

Any road
will take you there
when the destination
is unknown
but the yearning
burning
for freedom
exists
within

Casting spells
ringing church bells
boots of leather & diamond shells

Turn a rosy cheek
dismiss me softly
when I dance
with the devil
in the dusk
of night

Fret
no more
Lovely hours
are in store
for the dark
times
turn
into
gold mines
of inspiration

Between
who you
have been
and
whom you are
lies
eternal
possibilities
what if's
must be left
in the dusk

I pull myself apart,
I put myself back together

I let you tear me down,
I put myself back together

I let you consume me,
feel you consume me

You’re neither good nor pure,
I want it, all of it

Days pass, you have broke me
I put myself back together

I pranced
around
the revolving
sun
danced with
devils
who
watched
as
I came undone
I loved him
while he
held the
gun
lived
a million
times
in one

Salty tears
drip on a night stand
of gold
for dreams of decades
past
I did sold
He was tall, rough, and
bold
I loved him more
he loved me
less
I shiver with memories
& from
the cold

There is
one universal
truth
that truth
is that
the truth
and only
the truth
will
set
your soul,
heart,
and mind
free