This feeling i'm familiar with,
It eats you from the inside out,
I'm screaming for it to get out,
But it never leaves,
It lives within me,
I'll never be free,
Cause i'll always be a slave to this feeling within me,
I just can't seem to shake it,
Like a disease that's irreversible,
I'm incurable,
There's no other variable,
It's uncontrollable,
****,
Just go away,
And don't come back,
Stay,
Okay,
Who am I kidding,
My life will never be the same,
This isn't some game you play,
It's real life,
Sadly,
I wish I could end my life,
I'm tired, Stressed, Frustrated, and Sick,
Just end it quick,
These are your thoughts and feelings when you have this unspeakable feeling within yourself,
There's no help,
Nothing left,
The End.

Did I come off to strong,
Did I do it all wrong,
Was it desperation,
or maybe an exasperation,
I ****** it all up,
Contamination,
I need to face it,
Memorize and trace it,
I can't fake it,
Impostor,
I think I lost her,
But did I ever have her,
This is just one big disaster,
That I have yet to master,
Thoughts,
Please leave my mind faster,
I need a pastor,
Whats the factor,
This moment I capture,
So I can look back at it in the future,
And see that i'm such a loser,
I want to be close,
But fall short,
I can't possibly retort,
So I hide in my forbidden fort,
Lost,
fading,
Dreading,
Letting Go,
I let go.