Have you ever been in a state of unknowing?
not just not knowing the answer on a test or the direction to a building but
not knowing who you are in a more physical sense
I guess

Seeing the reflection in a mirror and not fully recognizing the eyes that meet yours
Looking at the hands your body came with and feeling like they are a little too big
Staring at the legs your parents gave you and thinking they are a little to long

But it's more than that

The unknowing bleeds into everything
When you’re in a group you feel like you’re only observing while you're talking
When you’re waiting and lose track of how long its been since you even started waiting
When you’re unknowingness becomes so extreme you don't even know if your real anymore

But don't stress

You didn't know from the start so nothings changed

But how could you know…

I want a device that tells me all the thoughts I forgot in a day.
To revisit all the memories I saw
or to get back to tasks I said I would get to
It would be fun to see the progress of what I thought
and how the environment changes that
I could even revisit all the great thoughts that made me happy

I forget so much
This new device might get more screen time than my phone
It could save you so much time and energy

But maybe its worth it to forget
Maybe it clears room for new thoughts to make me happy
Maybe the thoughts I think are satisfied with their one life
Or maybe my mind is just a pitstop those thoughts make
before heading to the next head

Id love to remember how I wanted to end this poem though