you're right
I don't deserve it
and every always
is a shade for
some uncertain grasp
on why we need other people
why my heart still hurts
and why the good things
can't last

I learn so much
from each time
my heart breaks
from each time
I turn my self off
to keep a straight face
there will probably be more days
but I'm not going to forget
that you ******* walked away

I once met a girl made of flower petals
She was lovely in all her thousand pieces
Colors curling deliciously across her skin
Honey dewdrop tears whispering down her cheeks

She tried to kiss me but her lips were shadows
Cigarette flame breath dripping up my nose
Sweetness traced the corner of my eye
And she prayed, “I am gone, love, I am gone”

I danced with her, molasses slow
Fingertips touching in butterfly kisses
Speaking sign language in shuttered eyelids
Ashy nicotine dripping holes in our feet

Asphodel tickled the webbing of her fingers
Her smile was full of gossamer sunbeams
Papercuts littered the tip of her nose
She laughed to fill up the hole in my lungs

I once met a girl who scraped out my marrow
Kissed my hollow bones with cinnamon lips
Once she could laugh, she sailed away,
Lighter igniting the mist to trace a ribbon back home.

You qot her to like you, and now you're pushinq her away.

You qot her to text you a lot, and now you're slacking on replies.

You qot her to drop her friends for you, and now you're leavinq her hanginq for your friends.

You qot her to call you a lot, and now you're dodqinq all of her calls durinq all of the free time you used to have for her.

You qot her to miss you, and now you're iqnoring her.

You qot her to open up to you, and now you're not there for her.

You qot her to think about you, and now you're actinq like she means nothinq to you.

You qot her to trust you, and now you're abusinq that trust.

You qot her to care about you, and now you're treatinq her like ****.

You qot her to fall in love with you,
and now you're breakinq her heart.

So congratulations, you qot her to be yours, but it seems like you
don't want her anymore and now, she feels stupid for qivinq you a chance.

Out of my mind

They keep telling me I’ll be fine
But what do they know?
They have no idea I’m out of my mind!
My heart can no longer grow.

But what do they know?
Have they ever felt loneliness like this?
My heart can no longer grow.
I really wish I didn’t exist.

I’ll end up in an institution
slicing my wrist
Isn’t always the best solution
But I bet I won’t be missed.

Call me crazy
Slicing my wrist
Has my mind all hazy
But I bet I won’t be missed.

Slicing my wrist
They have no idea I’m out of my mind!
But I bet I won’t be missed
They keep telling me I’ll be fine.