She hasn't spoken to me in a while
but that could be just in my mind,
she told me 'love' should be unheard
so I want to show it, the way its preferred.
I can't seem to find the right things to do
I'm pulling on a thin thread hoping that
turning my ribcage that held her
most favourite flowers instead of my heart
could have been a better choice.
My heart, it use to beat the rhythm of her steps,
the tune to her voice,
but now it feels hollow.
I want a bouquet of roses to grow
from my ribcage so that I can show her
that I love her.
I want my blood to be the water
that the roses drink and the shine of my smile
the light that feeds the roses.
I just want her to know I love her,
but she doesn't.
The sad thing is, even if I die,
I know I'll die loving,
no one but her,
wanting,
no one but her,
needing,
no one but her.

I watched the sunflowers grow
in her ribcage and I'm smiling
while pleading
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my mind has become so hazy,
the world is driving me crazy
But please don't give up on me baby

I took this name as a tribute to what we used to do;
I took this name as a tribute to nobody but you,
I remember laying under the cover of the stars,
Under the cover of the night sky that sat so far.
I remember being near you, before everything happened;
We spoke a lot, not really sure what the other was asking,
Just a constant chatter over useless dribble of topics
But under the star's light, our problems were microscopic.

I remember the last days, seeing your smile that hid the pain you'd hide,
I wished so hard for what I heard not to be true, every shooting stars,
Every passing cars, praying that you weren't deep underneath;
And then, for the final time, I started counting stars until I cried.

I imagined your eyes
a million different times;
I remember seeing stars
within each and every stare
But now I can't recant the thought,
Universes may sometimes implode
The same way a hurting heart
keeps the heartbeats on hold;
And sometimes muffled long enough
You'll realise the screaming silence
is a sign that 'you no longer love'.
For some it is sadness, some it is joyous;
But for me, it is closure.

I imagined your eyes
a million different times;
and I'm glad I got to see
all that was stored behind
the blue sky you had for eyes.
Our chapter was never mine,
It had been yours all along
And with memories tarnished and gone,
I can only do so much as to say thank you.

sweet children, pay attention closely
I'm the voice out of the pillow
i've brought something for you
i've ripped and teared it out of my brest,
with this heart i've got the power
to extort the eyelids.
i sing till the day wakes up
a bright glimpse by the firmament
my heart is burning.

they come to you by night
demons, ghosts, black fairies
they crawl out of the shaft of the cellar and basement
and will see you under your bedding.


my heart's burning

they come to you by night,
and steal your small hot tears,
they wait until the moon wakes up
and press them in my cold veins.

death welcomed me,
But didn't let me die yet.