Go out and search for yourself.
Find small pieces of you in the veins of a friend
Or inside the forest.
Find your soul sprinkled in some foreign city
Miles away from home
Or in your backyard
Mingling among the flowers.
Search for the bakeries
That call your name from within
Or the stranger that smiles at you as you pass.
Search yourself out;
There, you will find, is the purest reflection of you.

Something a shower cannot even cure

I am stuck between two deaths,
and then there is me,
I am countless
Where
R
The
Ravens?
Oh yes...Feasting on my flesh
Happy thanks giving

I write with broken lips and bleeding cuticles but I write and I write and I write

I felt my heart beat today
The evidence of life felt unfamiliar
As I felt the beat in my palm
I begin to feel estranged from my body

it is in Gravity
It is in the pavement that supports each step
It has no reason or direction
It is the blood that feeds my heart

White dress
Black heels
I pretended I did not live in the gutter
Company
I smiled on cue
I am someone I told myself
10:27- my life as an actor ended
I hoped I'd receive gifts of a brand new person
10:27 my eyes start to scream
"I am lying"
"I am a beast"
"I cannot laugh"
"I am sour and full of hate"
My eyes are strong and honest
The time was up
Everyone sees me
I am ignored
The  lie that I am festers inside of me
She comes out to play on nights like these
When my body craves companionship
I fall asleep promising myself I will never pretend not to be a gutter