i woke up everyday and chose him
he woke up one day and abandoned me

with every bit of new information
i shove more gauze into the wound

i don't believe in trust, i believe in chance
everyday someone has the chance to hurt who loves them
and they have to make the choice not to
i choose love everyday

i can't bring myself to believe it
that our love was unrequited
i felt his love, to my very core
a love like that doesn't just come to a screeching halt
he is my person

My mind is spinning like a top
How could he give up on me
On us
Who would have thought Love
Wasn’t enough

Why do I have to beg
If I tried my best
Why do I have to bargain
For love that shouldn’t have left
Why do I feel miserable
How do you feel better
How could this end
If we were so compatible

there is no way i was meant to love someone this much
hurt this deep
all for nothing
its not everyday people get to be in love and feel that love back
like i did

i had to carry the pain alone
so im fine with you carrying the guilt

i feel like there's a serpent in my stomach
& a hole in my chest
will i always feel this way
confused & empty
desperate for conversation
are we there yet

i lost myself in the waves of emotions
they knocked me to the sand at my knees
my lungs filled with bitter salt
i crawl to a *******
to be met by a an undertow
pulling me under the water
scraping my skin on the rocks on the bottom
salt stings my cuts
the undertow pushes me back up on the beach front
the sun is warm
the breeze is subtle

it feels degrading to keep reaching out
to only get silence in return
how am i supposed to convince you that my love is authentic
that my love runs deep enough to work through anything?
you know where i stand but you won't hear me out
the ball in your court
you seemed to take a knife to