The Day Ends
Like all others.
We Go back to normal lovers.
Forgetting the insults
thrown At eachother .
Not this time .
I Havnt forgotten.
My feelings still flow the same.
Sickened & saddened.
I need to Leave .

It’s been clear for years
There’s no happiness here for me.

We Are Done.
You & I.
Yes that’s Right.
This Times Forreal .
I cant take Anymore
Anger & tears.

Your always bothered
Irratated or annoyed
At anything I do .
I have no voice
No opinion
Im Tired Of Loving
Someone’s who’s just too ****** selfish & cruel!

*******
Yes I said it.
In a tone filled with so much hatred!
*******
I hate You !
Can’t think of 1 thing to regret it.

Your full Of negativity
Always bringing my spirit down .
I’m my own enemy already!

I’m good with out you !
Yes I mean it !
A life full of smiles
& Laughter once I get away
From you !!

Your too Much !!
It’s all about you !
Only you can set & Break rules!
Your mistakes are never talked !
Explanations never
come out your mouth !!

My entire life
With you I’ve been Blue !
You never attemp to make
me feel Good !

You don’t help me !
You tell me things that
worsen me!
Leave me !!!!
****** leave me !!

I have cried
So many times,
Hidden and silent.

I have stared
At nothingness,
Felt my heart breaking.

I have waited
For so many calls
From you that never came.

I have believed
Everything that you said
I guess some weren't true.

I have been left
By you waiting for
The things you said you'd do

I broke my heart again,
Because I thought, finally,
I'll stop being used by you

"It's okay.
It hurts.

I saw it.
The way your eyes drifted to others.
Never straying to mine.
Never filled with the same spark.
Always dull.
Lifeless.
Loveless.

My heart.

You would say it.
Those three words.
Not to me.
Never to me.
To the others.
They always got your love.
I got your hate.
Your anger.
Always.

“You don’t have to love me.”

You gave me orders.
To stay home
Have no friends
Only you can I conversate with.
While your allowed to do the opposite of everything
I was not to.

I can’t.

I was your puppet.
You pulled the strings.
And I obeyed your commands.
You never loved.
Not me.
Never me.
I was your toy.
Something you could throw away.

Take it.

It’s all a game.
Of feeling.
Of pain.
Of love.
Of hate.
You are the king.
I’m your pawn.
Just a piece on your board.

I’m done.

I loved you.
More than anything.
I let you use me.
Hurt me.
If I got to be with you.
Nothing else mattered.
You didn’t feel the same.

Devil please don’t take me there.
I will get too familiar .
Find it easy , it’s just 1 hit.
Without notice il be tweaking on a full binge .
Without notice,
1 Hit Will Convert to many .
I continuously hit it.
Forgetting theres a limit.
My surroundings
Become unnoticed.
What’s important, Is Forgotten.
I’m careless Over whatever’s
in my circuit.
I’m just focused on the dope & Ingesting more.
To get high but higher than
I’ve ever been.
That High no longer exists.
All My Misery Vanishes
My emotions tie back
Everything I hurt over
, Is no longer In my thoughts.
Just like my negativity?
My Amusement & happiness Disappear too.
Completely numb.
Devil Please stay away .
Il turn cold with a grin.
Il be selfish & Careless.
What I love Will No longer
be important
Il care for nobody But The dope that fools my mind.
I’m another person When I’m ingested with lots of ice.
I lose my state of mind
My mind wanders off
The drug
Removes Your struggles.
Just to make room for the Devils Gifts for choosing to live
easy & quick

Devil please stay away
Il fall quick & forget About sobriety.