Many have wanted to leave the world by way of their own volition.
And indeed some poor souls do so.
When they feel there's nothing left on earth with nowhere left to go.

Me, myself and I have also suffered the same desire.
I'm a dreadful coward.
Can't pluck up the ***** to go.
At the back of my sometimes stormy head, hereby hangs a coiled tale.
It's been bad, cruelly bad at times.
Also it's been really good.
Times when I wished I had succumbed,
Times I'm glad I didn't.
Generally they are prevalent these days.
Only the good die young, they say.
Thoughts of dying played games with my head.
Years of downward spirals, water treading.
Here and then internally debated.
It may be better if I were dead.
Me, I'm just a chicken, never ever could take my own life.
I'm scared of death, but then I'm not.
Stressors in life just **** me off.
But I'm a coward, never could I curse enough the world to go give up and die.
For those who passed this way, I pray that they do rest in peace.
In the hearts and minds of those left behind, they found their peace.
Strong too long, so sadly.
They just got beat!
(c)Livvi

girls love girls and boys
and love is not a choice

you are so far away
in my heart, you're held closest
i speak to you every day
in my moments of hopeless

i feel you in my bones
in spirit, there's a closeness
someday i am coming home
you are my final focus

Time will say nothing but I told you so,
Time only knows the price we have to pay;
If I could tell you I would let you know.

If we should weep when clowns put on their show,
If we should stumble when musicians play,
Time will say nothing but I told you so.

There are no fortunes to be told, although,
Because I love you more than I can say,
If I could tell you I would let you know.

The winds must come from somewhere when they blow,
There must be reasons why the leaves decay;
Time will say nothing but I told you so.

Perhaps the roses really want to grow,
The vision seriously intends to stay;
If I could tell you I would let you know.

Suppose all the lions get up and go,
And all the brooks and soldiers run away;
Will Time say nothing but I told you so?
If I could tell you I would let you know.