Her eyes
The smile
the dumb conversations that lasted a long while
I sit there looking up and think once in a while
Can I go back

To the times that we had
the times that expelled the sad
the cheesy corny moments like this
were moments that made me bliss
I miss her kiss

Her voice a calm in a storm
even while kicked out forced to stay in the dorm
being with her was my norm

it made me complete
to strive and compete
to be the best person I wanted to be
it is kind of sad that she won't be beside me

I know i can climb
I know I can ascend
to those great heights we both had in mind
it just ***** she wont be there in the end
she was my best friend

I was good enough
even when it was tough
and I did not at times believe in our love

I kept it in
for I did not the possible conformation
to give those thoughts a win
But being with her kept me locked in

In a way that it gave me hope
that was more than cope
yes it was a slippery *****
that i mainly caused by my moments ope

Well
it was swell
to hear the alarm bells
to see the negative thoughts and troubles felled
to wake and
to have someone by my side
who was my light

Ready to be by her side day and night
these words are a failure
for they can not describe the ways that I felt with her

So when the time to go apart
we got ready for our last part
the last song and dance
of a failed romance
not out of a faded love
but of two weeping hearts
knowing they had to go   apart


The mourning of
we gave our last exchanges of love
and embraced the moment
while we braced for the soon approaching time

this relationship had to die



then we departed

left broken hearted

Coping with a love that had just started

Now to get over being broken
hearted

Louis saw skies of blue
Skies of white

But here I see skies of red
Clouds of grey

I wish I could see the world from Louis's point of view
I truly would love to see some unfiltered sunlight.

I would love to see the flames not assist souls to the land of the dead.
I would love to hear, once this is over, all the yays.

From people who were once blue
to have a chance to show their colors that are true.

Where my west coast can see clouds of white
and people going outside to fly a kite.

I proudly salute the brave souls who arrive in trucks of red
for without them a lot more would be lost and/or dead.

I proudly with everyone else will scream and shout yay
Truly grateful I get to see another day.

Tis was a nice day,
where everything happened to fall my way.
I did not even have to worry about allergies that come with May.

Till change did that day
like a fork on a highway.
Then I struggled to find my way

All the sudden I was trapped in my mind
trying not to mind
All the landmines, that are negative thoughts, in my mind

I tried to unwind
but I was quite in a bind.
Sometimes I truly felt like I was wondering blind.

I feel what I am saying can make many eyes roll
But that struggle for me, took a toll
To be quite honest I was quite full.

Like a marble ball in a funnel, I began to spiral.
I thought that I should not have to go through this bull
considering the weight I constantly pull

Close I felt to being lost,
Life then would be all but lost.
Anytime I try to build myself up, it came at a steep cost.

Right until she showed up.
I thought it was too good to be true, like something I made up

She told me never give up.
She also said to keep my hopes up
After a while things truly did go up

So if You ever read this thank you
I could not be where I am without you
So this is my sincere and true thank you.

Sometimes people say
smile more say less.
True that is a line from Hamilton
though I believe that line applies to people today

Ignorance is bliss
if you don't care the amount of stress removed would weigh a ton.
I won't ever conform to that not today

I truly am sorry but I will always hope for the hopeless
I will say what I want to say till done
Is that truly a good quality, I can't say

When people tell me to talk less
My inner voice turns into a monster like Loch Ness
My inner anger generates enough heat to cook a Honey-bun
The bun turned out to be quite well done

At this point you might be shaking your head and saying you don't say.
But when people tell me to change I say, "No way, not today"

We have all heard that these are some tough times
especially right now when we all witnessed certain hate crimes.
I think it is important for everyone to understand that not all People of Color have committed crimes
nor need to serve time.
But also that most of the time the man in blue is just trying to do his job.
We all have families to go to at the end of the day.

We can’t go and punish everyone
or else we as a nation are all but done

The point I want you to think about is…
We all have to rely on each other at some point
and stop holding each other at gunpoint.

Like with anything there is a good and a bad
But if we all focus on the bad
we will all become mad.

Then eventually a country and a world that stood as one
will become divided and conquered
By two sides of a coin whom fail to meet in the brim
our future then would be especially grim.

I see the good all the time
I have seen where ends meet
Where people in the hood and cops shoot buckets in the street
for those brief moments we as a species are complete.

The last time this go to a nationwide
Was a time before I was conceived back 19 years to date
when we were attacked.
At that moment we stood under one flag and were truly indivisible by any god
in the pursuit of liberty and justice for all.

How many wars need to be fought
How much good will become all but forgot

How many lives will have to be lost to the other side
To truly see each other’s side

For it takes 2 not 1 mirrors to see our reflection that is true
We all bleed red and bruise black and blue

And with that I will stop
and step back and let your thoughts and actions reflect the true you
While I will hope for the best for the country who flies red, white, and blue
May you ever be true