Today was a day filled with more of the same
Struggling alone with the hurt and the pain
In love with you I still remain
Hoping to return to your life's campaign

The conflict within, playing a mental game
The heat of my love a never ending flame
And the rain of this pain as it tries to contain
My hopes and prayers to return to your domain

To let you go, the flame must go out
But for now the inferno remains ever stout
And from the ash my hope is a blossom will sprout
And grow into a tree of love throughout

With bark a strong as a diamond shell
To protect us from this current hell
Of being apart and feeling unwell
But will grow with our lives and our love to propel

No matter the distance or time apart
Nothing will remove this mark from my heart
A combination of letters, that to me, looks like art
Your name, my love, will never depart

The needle and ink that spells out your name
And love that will burn like an eternal flame
Just grows each day without any shame
And I only hope that you could feel the same

The place you hold inside of me
Its permanent for all to see
Look into my eyes, they won't disagree
But my love for you, they will decree

Love that has stayed and always remained
Over time has sustained and steadily its gained
Power and strength not to be restrained
Because deep to my core, my love for you is ingrained

No matter what you need, the time or place
I will always be there for your embrace
But for now I will try to give you your space
With hopes that one day you want to see my face

And on that day I promise to be there
No matter the problem, I simply won't care
Even if its only a moment we share
It will have been the answer to my single prayer

Hey baby, I hope you are doing well
Better than me as I go through hell
I wanted to reach out, to say a couple of things
And perhaps pull a little on your heart strings

As we stand now, I continue to struggle
The grief, regret, depression I juggle
A day at a time, I keep moving along
But life without you, still just feels so wrong

I want you to smile and to know that you're happy
And I apologize if this gets a bit sappy
But its true that I love you and miss you more than ever
Searching for your love, like a pirate for treasure

I would love to talk and to hear from you
To hear about your life and everything that is new
And to tell you that I sought out some therapy
For my thoughts I needed some clarity

As I continue to focus and work on my health
I do it for us not only for myself
If you ever decide that you want to come back
I want to be ready with love to attack

But still I sit and try to respect your space
Because I don't know your thoughts and your place
But I do know now more than ever before
That the only thing I desire is the love that is yours

I struggle now and every day
And I wish I didn't feel this way
A part of me is gone and dead
Filled with sadness and grief instead

The spiral down has not been slow
Deeper and deeper into depression I flow
Without your love and presence here
My mental state grows more severe

But yet I hope more than ever before
That eventually our love will restore
And when I reach out to say hello
You will still care and your love will show

A month today since we had last spoke
Nothing has changed, my heart is still broke
I reached out today just say hello
So that my love for you can continue to show

But you left me hanging here, all alone
While I spent the day staring at my phone
Hoping to hear that you're doing well
Praying that last talk wasn't a final farewell

But it seems it might be the end of the road
Though I won't lose hope that again we may glow
But the future looks bleak there's no denying
Despite my love for you and all the crying

So for now I will say, I'm sorry we're here
This truly has been the worst ******* year
But perhaps the future may have some love left in store
Even more than we ever experienced before

How can I find the words to say to you?
After all the ups and downs we’ve been through
Together apart like a true work of art
Our love tells the story from the deepest part of the heart

It hasn’t been perfect, I’ll admit that
Not void of challenges we’ve had to combat
But as I sit and think for another day
There’s no one’s love for which I’d rather pray

As I did today and the day before
And will tomorrow from my floor
I’ll thank god for introducing us, first
And the next part I have rehearsed

I tell him how much you mean to me
And everything I love about your personality
And talk about how amazing you are
And how none of my feelings change from afar

I thank him for the last 5 years
The laughter, the kisses, and even the tears
I acknowledge how much you’ve helped me grow
And that you’ve been the most important person I’ve known

And then I pivot from all the blessings
And address the thing that is far more pressing
As my voice will crack and lip will quiver
I ask for your love could he please deliver
I explain again you are my soulmate
And what I would do for one more date
And once I finish professing my love
I kiss my hands and look to the heavens above

And ask he deliver a message to you
Of course, it something you already knew
I ask that he tell you I miss you so
I love you more than you may ever know

But I know there’s a plan, for us to unite
You may soon agree that I was right
And that’s what I pray for and try to foresee
That day that you remember it’s always been me

And when you come back, I’ll be lying in wait
Nervous and excited for our last first date
But as soon as our eyes lock and our gaze is sustained
We will remember that our has always remained

Did you know that I still dream of you?
And every day pray its not true
Hoping that there has been some mistake
That every night I stay awake

Thinking of you and if you're well
Hoping this wasn't a final farewell
But rather just a "see you soon"
That one day you may change your tune

That you will say you want me back
And while our relationship has a lot to unpack
You see a future for you and I
And I agree as a tear falls from my eye

You will always be my number one
Until the end when life is done
There will never be another to capture my love
The way that you have, so far and above

Hello my love, my angel, my queen
Two years ago, tonight, was the greatest night I’ve seen
So beautiful and perfect, it could have been a dream
I have never been happier, my joy was supreme

The look in your eyes, the glare, the gleam
Thinking about it now makes me want to scream
How happy we were October Nineteen
During the year of Twenty Eighteen

Do you remember the night, do you have a clue?
Do you remember the beauty as we took in the view?
The sparkle of the Eiffel Tower at the top of the hour
More beautiful than the freshest flower

I remember than night like it was yesterday
I remember wishing, in that moment to stay
I remember the peace as the world went away
As we looked out over Paris and took in the display

That night as we cuddled and fell asleep
I couldn’t help but gently weep
For the feeling I had was so supremely deep
Your love, I knew then, I desired to keep

And how far I did stray from that moment in time
To let you go, I consider a crime
To be with someone who makes you feel sublime
Which is why I must write and continue to rhyme

In the hopes that one day we can return to the Arc
And again look out at Paris in the dark
On a new adventure we would embark
And this time, forever, we’d leave our mark

I would wait at least a year or two
Or even more to be with you
Give you the time and space you need
To do all that you need to do

I hope you don’t forget my love
My care, my support, you’re far and above
The most important person that exists in my life
And even now when I dream, you become my wife

If you only knew how I felt today
What I tell to God every time I pray
How my poetry explains that I’m distraught
Maybe you would give it a second thought

And then I could show you for the rest of time
How happy and thankful I am that you’re mine
And I’d show it in a different way each day
For this opportunity, is all that I pray

The chance to show you my love again
No matter the place, just say where and when
And I’ll be there full of love for you
That’s how I know that my love is true

Today’s one of those days, that just feels so numb
In so many ways, just down in the dumps.

I’m missing you  and what you would say
How you’d make me laugh. How you’d make my day.

If I could see your face or even just talk
Maybe share a meal or go for a walk

I’m sure it would help to get me to smile
And maybe laugh a little for the first time in a while.

Instead we’re apart, no contact at all
What I would do, to receive your call.

That you miss me too and this isn't working out
That we should be together, without a doubt.

And that will be the happiest day I’ve had
The joy will outweigh all of the recent bad.

Moving on, a little bit more each day
And as time goes on, my heart continues to decay
But part of this growth, I keep holding on
To a small part of you, that I can't let be gone

This one little part. This minuscule bit
This attachment to you from how we fit
I will never let it go. That I'll admit
And hope that one day, my love, you'll permit

And the part of you that I take with me
Replaces the piece that that used to be "we"
The part of my heart that I gave to you
That I hope, forever, you will hang on to

Forever incomplete, forever connected
Two parts of our hearts, exchanged, and infected
Infected with the love that two soulmates can share
The way that only best friends and lovers can care

The point of these words is not to get you right back
I know that right now, it would feel like an attack
But simply to tell you from the bottom of my heart
That I'll be ready to love you when you're ready to restart

If there is life that you want to live
I would wait forever and still forgive

I don’t care if I’m plan B, or C, or after Z
If there are people you want to see
As long as you eventually get to me
I’d be happy to be patient, indefinitely

To me, there is only one path I see
It starts and ends with you and me
So if I need to wait for you
Until you you recognize it too
Then wait, I shall, as long as it takes
Despite each days endless heartbreaks
It will all be worth it, hopefully, soon
When our love reunites in harmonic tune

Today feels like a better day to me
Not that I’ve moved on, or let go, or given up hope
In fact it’s the opposite…
Weird, I know.

I woke up today, with this feeling inside
A hunch, no other way to describe
That you were coming ‘round, thinking about me
And for some reason I felt it, you wanted to see:

See how I am, and how I’m adapting?
Have I taken this in stride, how am I reacting?
Am I happy and strong, going on without you?
We both know, any joy I show, I’m completely acting.

I’m empty without you, completely hollow
And trust me, alone in my sadness I wallow.
And most of the day, my tears I swallow
Because my love and loyalty for you, I follow.

So there’s the answer to your question, I hope
I’ve not moved on, I continue to mope.
So please, if you are wondering if you should reach out
Yes, please do it, without a doubt.

My heart would jump and skip a beat
The shock and awe would knock me out of my seat
My joy and happiness would not be so discrete
Hearing from you would be the sweetest treat.

So hopefully it comes but maybe it won’t.
If you have reservations, I urge you please don’t.
Nothing has changed, I still love you the most
And still dream of adventures from coast to coast.

Do you love me? Do you miss me?

Do you spend your days dreaming
Of a time when life had meaning
Do you spend your nights thinking
About how it could have been
Does food have any flavor
Or is it simply bland nutrition
Does music have a melody
Or is it a constant din

Does sunshine bring you any warmth
Or does your skin stay cold
Does the night sky bring you peace of mind
Or do you reflect on times of old
And do you feel some happiness
smiling from ear to ear
Or do you wear a mask and say
“Everything is good here”

Because I love you and I miss you
and those things, I do
I’m lost at sea without a course
No captain; that is you

I try to keep on moving
but there’s one thing that I know
There no one I’d rather be with,
no place I’d rather go

With you is where my soul belongs
I know that in my Heart
Not seeing you is killing me
I can’t bear to be apart
You’ve been my one since early on
if I knew it or not
I love you and I miss you and
you’ll always have my heart

Sleep doesn’t seem to want to find me tonight
Instead my thoughts keep going to that special night
Maybe my favorite night we spent together
One that I will always remember forever

October nineteenth, twenty-eighteen
I’ll remind you of the romantic scene
The most beautiful night
I may have ever seen

Beneath the Arc De Triomphe we stood
Watching cars circle ‘round the neighborhood
The air was cool and the sky was dark
And up the arc we began to embark

Climbing up the stairs, you didn’t feel well
I saw in your eyes, you wanted the leave
But on the way up I tripped and fell
And somehow it knocked you out of that spell

And so we got to the top and what did we see
The Eiffel Tower, the skyline and the rest of Paris
The city of love all surrounding us
The feeling was palpable, we didn’t need to discuss

And on I could go, for hour and hours
Describing that night and the feeling it empowers
That’s why I take it wherever I go
A photo in my wallet that I never show

Which helps to remind me of the greatest night
With the greatest person, my shining light
Your hands in mine as we embraced in the chill
For that moment, life was completely fulfilled

What to do when your soulmate is gone
Give up, lay down, and cry 'till dawn?

At was all my fault ~ That I'll admit
All she wanted was for me to commit

Having a bad week I said, "I don't know"
No wonder she said, "Okay, I'll go"

What to do now, all alone
Sadness; no chance to atone

"But please baby, just give me one more chance?"
"Not happening, buddy, you took your stance"

Now over it is and likely for good
was there something to learn ~ I wish I understood
I pictured us together; saw the neighborhood
Man and wife, in parenthood

Another week has come and gone
And more and more I feel withdrawn
But not from you or how I feel
Withdrawn from life and what is real

I spend all day looking at my phone
Hoping hoping to hear from you alone
Daydreaming of you and what the future could hold
What our lives would be like after we grow old

That call or text, it hasn’t come
As I spiral down in gloom and glum
But without hope, I am not
Because I believe you haven’t forgot

About our love and chemistry
And you know just what you mean to me
So when you’re ready to come on home
My mind will no longer roam

In thoughts of what could have been
And instead will focus on the life we’re in
And how we love deep down, within
So that our forever can begin