Sam - Hello Poetry

Sam Feb 2018

I love flowers
They smell nice.
I love showers
They feel kind.

I love anime
It's really worth wild.
I love music
It can last a while.

I don't love sadness
It makes me cry.
I don't love death
Why do people have to die?

I can't stand hatred
It makes me follow suit.
I can't stand darkness
Though I drown in it like a recluse.

But right now I'm happy
Like the Doctor when he said something clever.
I'm so happy
That I gave it a name: Trever

I don't know :p

Sam Feb 2018

Tick Tock

Goes the clock
Said the little girl
Sitting there on a rock
Her hair up in a cute little swirl

She got up and ran down the hill
But the hill was too steep
Enough feathers around to make a dozen quills
The hill was too steep

She cried and cried
But she should have listened to her mummy
Oh, and how her mummy cried
She should have listened to her mummy

Tick tock
Goes the clock
For everyone else, at least

The girl should have listened to her mummy
Then she wouldn't have died

Um yeah this was gonna be funny but I guess not.

Sam Feb 2018

Happy days

I can't lie to you
I'm not happy
I haven't felt happiness
In a very long time

So when I get sick
I tend to overreact
Because it makes my
Depression enhance itself

Isn't it ironic
That the word "influenza"
Is funny yet scary
At the same time?

Isn't it funny to think
That we're all dying
But sickness makes us
Die faster?

Ummm yeah I'm really sick rn and that doesn't help depression soooo ye.

Sam Feb 2018

Black Balloon

My balloon is black
As black as night
Filling me with dread
A horrible feeling
That I'm sadly used to
I can see it now
The future of my black balloon
It is taken ahold of
By an evil being
And popped
I thought I felt bad before
But now it's much worse
Much worse
Much worse
It's so much more than dread
It's temptation
I'm tempted to end it all
But I can't seem to get out of bed
My body doesn't want to move
It's ironic how my depression
Is what saved my life
For another day
Another day
Another day
But it's getting harder
Harder to move
And harder to resist these temptations
I'm about to pop
Like a balloon
A black balloon
My black balloon

Sam Dec 2017

I am ___

The pain and fear
The constant knowing
I'm not who I want to be

People view me differently
They see the old me
The dead me

It hurts
I feel it
I feel all of it

I just want it to stop
I want to be ready
Ready to tell everybody

I'm not who you thought I am
I'm not who you have always known
I'm so, so very different

I can't bring myself to sat it
The very words I want to say the most
The three words that could most definitely change everything

I've always been so confident in myself
My decisions have never been for nothing
They have never been something of regret

But this time is hard
My friends will understand
But will everyone else?

I have to say it
I have to say
I have to
I have
I

I
Am
Trans

Sam Dec 2017

Laugh with me darling!

What happened to the chicken when he tried to cross the road?
He died!

Isn't it funny?
Why aren't you laughing?
Tell me.

Tell me I made you happy with my lovely comedy.
I know I did.
I had to of.

So tell me.

I promise I won't get angry.
Not like last time.
That was scary, wasn't it?
The way I hurt you for making me sad.

Scary for you.
Your poor, defenseless soul.

I remember you laughed so much after that.
Or were you screaming?
I forgot.

This doesn't rhyme.
But frankly my dear, I don't care.

You will laugh with me.
Or face the consequences.

Either will be fun for me.