Off the cliff.
Into the open.
Spread your wings.
Let the wind guide you.
Feel the embrace of the sky.
The horizon is the only limit.

I gave you flowers
and jewelry.
I gave you clothes
and new shoes.
I gave you perfume,
and lipstick.
I gave you love
and affection.
I only wanted one thing
in return.

But then
In a moment of loneliness
it dawned on me.

How can you give me
that which you never had?

I cannot find the right adjective.
The best of nouns elude me.
Suddenly, a narrow verb enters my mind.
But what to pair it with?

Articles and pages,
Expansions and contractions.
Pieces and fragments.

The grammar isn't working.
I'm not enamored by such an object.
Nervous, I am, and tense
I've built a prison with these words.

I couldn't pay the rent,
I couldn't save a cent,
I couldn't put a dent,
in my loans.

The paint on the walls is peeling,
The water's leaking through my ceiling,
The family and the pets are reeling,
here at home.

I don't enjoy my time at work.
I don't like my boss much, he's a ****.
I don't like to sit here, being irked,
As it may go.

I'm dealing with these ills,
A society that kills.
Will I ever make these bills?
I just don't know.

There's a place
I like to go.
Where I can be free
and let it show.
My piece of heaven,
My calm plateau.
Where the sunshine beats
a steady glow.

Now life has gone
and closed the door.
Pulled me from that
wondrous shore.
Thrown me into
an endless war.
and that place I like,
is mine no more.

"Nerd!"
"Loser!"
"You ****!"
"Go **** yourself!"

I hear the taunts.
I hear the laughter.
I hear the snickering.

They shove me.
They slap me.
They spit on me.
They chase me everywhere.

I am a ticking time bomb.

And someday
before too long
When they least expect it...
I will go off.

It may be brutal,
It may be ******,
It may be vicious.

But it's the only way
I can save myself.

There are no other options.

I find my place
With the fear you will not forgive
the harms I caused you
I will always regret that night
fatigued and consumed
my eternal sentence
will pass down
the great judge
traps me in this prison
the deep of my loneliness
There are you are.