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441 · Jul 2011
Would You...
Sara Ackermann Jul 2011
Would you fight...
to protect me?
Would ou cry...
if I were killed?
Would you hold me in the night
while tears cascade from my eyes?
Would you chase after me
if I ran away from you?
Would you visit...
if I were in the hospital?
Would you care...
if I died right now?
Would you notice...
if I disappeared?

Would you?
435 · May 2012
Something Like Emptiness
Sara Ackermann May 2012
The cold rush of water hitting the bottom of your stomach
Knowing nothing but the uncertainty of no emotions
Being frozen in space,
while meaningless images, thoughts, and sounds whirl around you
The verge of depression,
or perhaps the unknown afterwards
The feeling before and after crying
Or before you fall asleep
427 · Apr 2013
Untitled
Sara Ackermann Apr 2013
Razorblades and escapades
bandages and runaways
suicides bled from slashes harmonized
Also don't know what to call this one.  I **** at coming up with titles.
408 · Mar 2016
Regret/Nostalgia
Sara Ackermann Mar 2016
Why does it hurt so much when you're forgotten completely by someone who used to greet you so cheerfully.
Who showed up in a dream and is someone you, since long ago, haven't seen.
One of the few people you hoped would not so easily let the memory of you slip away.
Everybody falls in love, one way or another.
Friendship, romance, nostalgia, feelings long since past,
glimpses of a memory.
Even in this big wide world full of people, we each are stuck alone in our own realities.
No matter what we may try to change that.
Had someone I guess I used to be good friends with show up in my dream, and messaged them on Facebook. Turns out they have no idea who I am, even though we frequently hung out and spoke with each other.
406 · Mar 2016
Things
Sara Ackermann Mar 2016
An empty house
quiet with the whispered shadows of the past
of memories twisting, jumping, laughing, and screaming in the dark.

Alone.

These loud vacancies in time,
that split and shift as though time had never frozen.
Where ghosts of feelings and happenings forget
that they have past.

Disappeared.

Underneath a thick layer of grime and dust,
unmarked for years to come, and years to pass.

Silence.

The overwhelming loneliness of a time,
a space,
a treasure trove of memories,
lost through abandonment and growing up.

Disturbed.

Briefly, quietly, by soft footsteps hiding in the dark;
taking refuge in the peace that comes with being surrounded
by those just like one’s self.
Where muffled tears may go unnoticed,
and quaking shoulders embraced by a sad feeling of nostalgia.

Sleep.

Falling gently sideways while curled up tightly,
hiding from the world a perceived weakness;
slowly,
gradually,
unwinding in a tear-stained weariness brought
upon by the harshness of our species.

Reluctance.

Stirring awake only to realize the inevitability
of going back into that cruel reality,
and wandering through the dust with a slow
shuffle,
avoiding it to the end.

Reality.

Is merely pretending to be alright,
to be perfect,
sane,
unaffected by one’s past or circumstance.
Lying to yourself until the very last moment,
but by then it’s too late.

Death.

What comes to claim us all,
no matter what we wish or who we are.
The only way to be truly free.

End.

Merely the beginning of a new story.
323 · Jul 2011
Untitled
Sara Ackermann Jul 2011
In the end
    All we see
         All we know
                     is death.

And all we feel for
         All we think there is
                     disappears.

For through it all
                     there's life
      there's love, and
            happiness.

Before everything
         All we are
               All we have
                          is peace.

And all we can be
              all we can do
                     is sing.
289 · Mar 2019
I Hate Being on Meds.
Sara Ackermann Mar 2019
For love is not a violent thing, nor disparate in its act.
Anger, pain, and solitude
Are the walls of my protection;
With depression and desperation the depthless pit behind.

Break down these walls with gentleness and grit,
And bridge the gap through kindness and understanding.
Unlock the cage made of golden bars;
Release the love and tenderness within.

Wary be those who try to claim for selfishness and spite
For obstacles rebuild again
With rage and vengeance the guardian spears.
My meds turn me into a dimwitted *** (my perception), and I hate it. But they also let me know and feel love. When I'm off them, negative emotions are about the only thing I'm capable of feeling, and love becomes and thing my mind no longer comprehends. My heart and my body still do though.
105 · May 2014
I Am...
Sara Ackermann May 2014
I am an artist who is lost within the echoes of their thoughts
and wandering in the darkness of their clouded mind.
I often wonder when I'll escape from this black pit
known as my past and present.
This is an assignment for English, and definitely NOT my normal type of writing.

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