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Amya Green Jan 2017
I'm sorry for telling you my feelings.
I apologize for thinking you could handle me.
I'm sorry for thinking you understood me.
I'm sorry that I don't believe your words you speak.
All I can do now is say I'm sorry!

Because I believed you

I believed that you would truly love me.
I believed I wasn't your burden when I truly was.
I believed all the fake *** love notes.
I believed you wanted my soul, when you just wanted my body.
You saw me as only a prize horse to brag about to your friends.
But I still believed that you wouldn't give up on me.

**I'm sorry I believed...
This was in a fit of rage and sadness all in one so yeah..
  Jan 2017 Amya Green
Ink
You are you.
You care about the little things;
About money and status,
About love and power.
You care about right now.
And about nothing more
     But there is so much more to see.

Take a step back
Now you are human.
Your place in society is precious.
You, just as everyone else, are worth something .
You care about justice,
About the state of your world
And it hurts you
     But you know you suffer less than others.

Take another step back
You are a body.
Your presence is replaceable and unfelt.
Your days are spent seeking pleasure and pain.
You live only to feel alive
Knowing that you’ll soon be dust blowing in the wind
And it makes you feel temporary
     But you last longer than you know.

On your last step back
You are a soul.
You feel no pain nor pity- nothing at all
You live in sickly silent peace
As you float aimlessly through time.
You are a piece of the universe
Hoping that the clocks will stop some day
And you will be called to rest
     But your piece in this universe will never die.

You are so much more than your shell.
You are the past, the present and the future
Embodied in a distracted human being.
You are every fibre of the universe that has created you.
You are eternal yet temporary
And it’s confusingly simple
     But you won’t realize your worth unless you *step back.
Amya Green Jan 2017
You ever have those days?

Where someone just seems to understand how upset you are?

They understand you need someone even for a split second?

They cover your ears just for that moment so you can't hear those demons.

They know that you just need some peace and tranquility even though it wont last long

*My ray of sunshine
Amya Green Jan 2017
I am no longer myself.
I left that poor ******* the shelf.
Everyone wonders why she left.
But when she explains they all seem deaf.

No longer can she express happiness.
These things that's taking over...
She has to let it do its job.
She has no one to run to anymore.
The people she thought she knew so well
Has left her in the dark.
They left her with her heart shattered
And her hands tied behind her back.
I switched up the rhyme scheme for some reason. But I thought I needed to get some things off my chest explaining how I kind of feel helpless. Sorry I could not think of a title..
Amya Green Jan 2017
Why was it me? Why isn't my best not enough? I gave you something I can never get back... But yet its not enough. Time after time I gave you ever piece of me. I give you the last remaining pieces of my heart but that's not enough. Why must I beg you to accept me? Why can't myself be enough?
Its short because I was honestly an emotional wreck ha... But yeah I was running on just my life experiences and how people made me feel.
Amya Green Mar 2016
I can't explain it... This boy... No this man gets to me. He finds his way into the deepest corners of my mind and just sits there. I have no idea how he got there really.... All I know is he's just there learning about what makes me me. What makes me whole... I really don't know if he is going to be my downfall or if he will help me rise..
Amya Green Jan 2016
He makes me feel like being myself is normal. That's it normal for me to come to him when I feel the urge to just take my life. Like he is the one to just calm the voices down in my head. To stop these thoughts of despair.
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