Through my life I’ve gathered stones
I wear them round my neck
The burden of weight gets heavier
When my shadow reflects
I’m not complaining
I don’t shed tears
For I strung those stones throughout the years
Thinking how when I was young
Collecting stones just for fun
But how I’ve grown to realise
The wrong choices and words can chastise
I look around but cannot see
Other people just like me
You see
Everyone must have the same
Some more some less but we all have shame
I wait for the rain to erode them away
But doing so they seem to stay
So I guess someday maybe one day
I’ll loose a few
But not all of them
For I deserve to wear my stones
Reminding me of wrongful tones
So here we are with past regrets
Little stones that never forget

Chains that bind and bite into the weathered skin
Beneath the throne of Askona the Queen of sin
Her rise to the calling as old Egypt fell
Rivers of crimson run from hell
As gods of time play their hands
What once was golden now lay ******
Slaves to the rhythm of pounding drums
Build her a world demised of fun
Blackened are the souls beating away
For the Queen of hell rules this day
With sharpened serpents at her will
They bite and stab at the heart so ill
Foolish eyes betrayed by lust
And promises of gold now just dust
How the land weeps away
Beneath the shadows of yesterday

When asked should a gentleman
Ever eat eggs and ham
Upon the back of a baby lamb
I guess the answer is no

And should my lace be untied
What a hoot when a fall precedes pride
When all that is required
Is a quick knot to be shired

So as you can see with me
All is not sweet heavenly
When pondering thoughts
Of mindless dribble

Is everything okay tonight
When
Love and hate can’t see eye to eye so right
And she cries out for love
And in the stillness of time
Where nothing seems fine
The shadows play on her mind

And then

Whispers of forgotten dreams play
Like some old memory machine
And the call of a lost heart echoes

Inside

Desperation holds tight and beneath the dull evening light
Her tears sting like never before
And then

Her hand now reaches out to the call of the wild shout
And memories fade into the grey night air

Ever since I was little
I was belittled
By others
But there was one other
That cared for me
That is my Mom you see
She would always give me care
She would always not treat me like air
She would always give me affection
Like I was her first motivation
She would always spoil me rotten
Even before I was ten
She taught me how to be respectful
Even if I was already respectful
She would pay attention to me
She would try to give everything to me
She would even risk her own life
Just for me
She took away the knife
When the knife was cutting me
She'd be there when I was hurt by others
She had always wished she could shield me from others

I love my Mom so much
I care for her so much
The only reason why I'm living is for her
I had been trying to pay her back
But she won't let me pay her back
I had made a business for her
To try to earn money for her
Yet, she wants me to keep it
I try and try to give it
Yet, she won't take it
Unless it's an emergency
You see

If you're reading this, Mom
If you're snooping through my notebook again, Mom
Just note that I love you so much
I care about you so much
I'm very grateful to you
Thank you for whatever you do
Even if I don't show it,
I love you

I love her skin soft like petals of the sweetest rose
Her tears like rain drops bathing the flower
How I want to touch her more
But fear my hatred will once more
Raise the monster that now lives
Inside this parasite
I cannot turn away
Excited by her naked form
Beaded sweat begins to form
Like little drops of morning dew
Upon her skin turning to
A grey dull sunless sky
Now my mind cannot sate
The hunger that now anticipates
Her skin on mine

Hatred spreads with gilded ease
When those around decide to tease
For wrath and pain will be the call
And death will follow all
Into the abyss of hell
To live eternal in fire so bright
Watch how the flames punish
The fools just right
Forevermore unto me they will owe everything

Dancing round screaming out
Is this the heaven they thought right
Greed and power brought them here
Lies and fear blind eyes once so bright
Now the demons dance in plain sight

No more prayers or forgive me please
You choose this path with so much ease
Wanted everything so sour
Time to pay in the burning tower

Maggot’s writhe in thighs so soft
Devour the heart now beating slow
Bathed in blood of foolish dreams
Here is your nightmare as it seems