I'm sorry for my failers,
I'm sorry for all my imperfections and faults,
I'm sorry for all my tears and caring,
you made my world spin and take off like a lifeline,
I'm not bad and I'm not perfect,
I'm sorry, I'm not fake and don't change like you do,
sorry, I'm to not change and to die inside,
I'm sorry your heartless and immature,
I'm sorry that I really don't like you,
I cant fail and show im a clinically depressed,
no I got to show im not sorry for being a man,
im sorry for listening to my heart,
im sorry for having feelings,
but ill never be sorry for living,
im sorry i cut,
im sorry my attempts of death didnt please you,
im sorry i cant cry like i use to,
you were my drug,
but you like all the drugs do is fail,
as though i feel ashamed to feel sad but thats what our society does,
if you are not perfect or popular you are nothing,
your alone,
it's sad how many people feel of this emotion,
and yet others are happy,
it's sad to be sorry with your pride hurting,
can any of these feelings create a beauty of the arts,
my brain is in racing time spirals that cant stop,
i cant say sorry to you the way i wanted as my sadness and name remember it,
your sorry didnt come,
such sadness...
say sorry.

As she lies bleeding on the floor
I promised I would do no more
Harm to Myself I really tried
But even I knew that I had lied
Now I am dying and no one is home
I has no help I is all alone
I wants to get up and fix it all
But there is no one left for her to call
Now as I dies on the floor
I hears everyone calling I a *****
I hears them calling out cutter-****
Now I wishes I didn't cut
I wishes I could prove them wrong
But now that dream sounds far too long
I made the choice and now I will loose
I wishes that I could choose
If I could I would choose life
If only I didn't grab that knife

I know why we do it
there are all different reasons
for some it is the blood
for some it is the release
for some they just like the pain
it’s the only pain they can control
for others it is the sense of being in control
but for me it is the scars
those are what I crave
for they are permanent
something one can never take away
never
they will always be with me
I will never be alone
they will always tell me stories
stories of my pain
the pain of my life