Melissa Taylor

Melissa Taylor Jul 2019

There is no convincing
anyone this time.
Not even myself...
Of course the problems
were and continued to get bigger.
Everything will be "Fine and Dandy"
In my head that is.
I keep struggling to tell myself....
Convince myself....
I can still convince myself....
Can't i?.....

#sad

Melissa Taylor Jul 2019

*FEAR...US*

What am i supposed to do?
When the life i want is just
within my grasp.
When the shadow of me
won't let go of the past.
I can "almost" see
them Leering.......
Taunting.........
Mocking me....
Just as i start to
feel F** near....
See any clear.......?.

"FEAR...US.."
Just follow us down
this rabbit hole...
Right into your comfort zone.
We will show you how disposable
you really are!

It's not that far....."

#sad #anger

Melissa Taylor Jul 2019

****-INE INTERVENTION*

All i know is that it took
only one visit...
Shortly after that all i
could see was myself slitting.....
Not that it was planned
...of course

Was that me cutting without
even knowing the source....?
Of this sudden impulse.....
to hurt myself
Was that me....?
to then hurt myself again some more.

Do you want to know the
reason....Are you really sure?
Ask yourself again...
Because the more and more i dream
my dears
The more memories come back
attached with my fears.

#sad #emotional #anger

Melissa Taylor Jul 2019

*YOU LISTENED*

You listened...to me moan...
whine....talk about nothing,
everything.
my worries...
my hopes....
you DIDNT kick me
when i was down...or
when my smile was upside down.
You could see that i was on
self destruct mode,
but forever i'll remember
the compassion you showed.
You DIDNT judge
like the rest would.
you were just there...
you listened to me share...
The only one infact...

I wrote this about my cousin Antwon x

#sad #emotional #family

Melissa Taylor Jul 2019

*STUCK*

Yet again feeling so...so confused,
as well as my arms being
battered and bruised.
Listening to my music my
mind drifts away.
Trapped playing what is
left of my memories.

Here i live....

Here i stay....

Confusion and hate day after day.
I used to think there
was a way.
I even tried to pray.

More confusion....

Even more hate....

Here i live.
Here i will lay.
until i find that day.
The one that shows me
there is a way.

#anger #hate #sad #emotional

Melissa Taylor Jul 2019

*YOU THOUGHT WRONG*

Yes...i have questions.
Good one's at that.
The kind of questions that
i feel need answering to.
The one's i think about
each and every day.
The one's i would never say.
You thought you understood....
When really you didn't......
Mabey You thought you did
everything you could....
When infact you didn't..

No...!!

When it mattered you
stayed hidden.
Oh sure....you were there....
To kick me when i was down....
you were there.
Maby i'm not being fair.
After all i'm only
seeing it from my
point of view.
I'm not pointing fingers
at you or you.
There's no one to blame here. '
It just hurt that's all.

when i started to see clear....

At the age of 16,
to find that in my hour of need,
there was no body near.

I wrote this with my family in mind when i was younger...and still quite angry as you could probably tell...

#anger #hate #emotional #sad #family

Melissa Taylor Jul 2019

*REALITY CHECK*

All it takes is that one small thing,
that can bring you back down to earth.
To suddenly start thinking what your
life has been worth.
Did you achieve many of your goals?
Any of your plan's in life?
Or don't you think your even
on the right path?
Yet again you hear yourself say...
"WHY ME"
As you hit ******* this world called reality.