I am a fool
To think the present would last
I have taken you for granted
God, how stupid I am

Nobody could have foreseen
The time we had,
The unfortunate circumstances,
And the feeling that sprung

I couldn't bare the thought
It pains me
Realizing what you are
For I hold you so dear

But it is too late
No-one to be blamed
Farewell to you
Your memories are kept

When I shut down the screen
Raise up and lay on the bed
My mind goes blank
For there is nothing in it

And with this empty head
I often feel this sharp cold shudder
For I find no purpose
And I do not care for a thing

It is indifference
So strong it freezes my heart
Drive me crazy, I know of it
Controlling, subjugating me

Eveeything seems so pointless
I could do something, but what for?
It is all the same in the end
Such a strange sensation

For I seek warmth but too afraid for it
I only deserve nothing
And I would not fool myself
So it is best to be indifferent

But I cannot lie for there is hope in my heart
Undeserved for me but yet there it is
For I mask this hope with indifference
And I will hide it until I forgotten any of it