When I shut down the screen
Raise up and lay on the bed
My mind goes blank
For there is nothing in it
And with this empty head
I often feel this sharp cold shudder
For I find no purpose
And I do not care for a thing
It is indifference
So strong it freezes my heart
Drive me crazy, I know of it
Controlling, subjugating me
Eveeything seems so pointless
I could do something, but what for?
It is all the same in the end
Such a strange sensation
For I seek warmth but too afraid for it
I only deserve nothing
And I would not fool myself
So it is best to be indifferent
But I cannot lie for there is hope in my heart
Undeserved for me but yet there it is
For I mask this hope with indifference
And I will hide it until I forgotten any of it