Put the slides
In front of me

And I can see
History

Each file
A glimpse
Into time

This machine
Can show me
Mongol Hordes

Or the city of Nazareth
During the time
Of Christ the Lord

Put in a file
And you can see
A prior time
Of history

I saw Diogenes
Sleeping On a bed
Of straw

Did you see
Pope Julius II
Gaze upon Michelangelo's
Sistine Chapel ceiling
With awe?

I saw Jackson
Standing like
A stone wall

His left palm
Facing outward
He did raise

And for the victory
God he praised

The South won the battle
Of First Bull Run

But the Civil war
Was not over
It was far from done

To be continued...

It's just another day
Month of April
Or Month of May

June
Now July
Is more

Than halfway through
Time goes by fast

This is true

It's too bad
To finally meet someone to share your life with
And after two years of meeting
Once or twice a week

They leave

Too bad
Ah well

Turn Turn Turn
The earth rotates around the sun
Life is always changing

There is some better place
Where I can relax and play golf in heaven

I'm strong
Because I'm always alone

Never touched or loved
By anyone

My plain earth body
Sitting on the yoga mat

I do not fear
Gone gone gone beyond
Enjoying nature

Enjoying podcasts
All I ever want to do

I find this life incredibly strange

Moving through time
From one time to next time

One choice to next choice

Best not to cling
Or attach oneself

Changes names and faces
Changing places

One time to next time

It's all in incredibly strange
So incredibly strange

I have seen the times

I've hugged the 96 year old man
And carried the two-year old

Best not to invest oneself
In this world

After all
It is all fleeting

Best not to have a partner
After all everyone you love
Will leave in the end

Perhaps I am afraid to love
Afraid to feel loved

I have spent much time alone

Know oneself
And love thyself
Believe in oneself

It scares me to love people
Love is so powerful

Don't mean to be
Too negative sometimes

But I get tired
Of going through
The same motions

My female friend
Does not come

And neither does
The hug that
Would come from her

Earth *****
I'm tired

Tired of being alone
And so I write this poem

I'm not good looking
And I'm poor
I live my life alone

I look for work for months
Months turn into years

Sometimes I have just had enough

I just want to sit on the trail
Away away from here

Tomorrow I will meet a new friend I made
And go on a hike
I look forward to that

This is the kind of tired
That does not cease
With a good night's sleep

Each day becomes a great struggle
I am chronically fatigued

It's okay
On and on I'll go
I don't understand why

I always exercised
Ate right

So tired

Tired Body
Even if I get plenty of exercise and sleep

Still tired
It's the burden of life
On this planet

The emptiness
The keep on keeping on
The wandering and wandering
The endless wandering
At least I have my faith

Poor and jobless
Don't worry

Content to be poor
Rejected by man
Why am I always so tired?
Who knows

Something more
Something more fulfilling
Than this

Keep shoving food into my body
Keep exercising and hiking

Alone in nature
I am content
Nature is all I have

And so I will return again
To the mountain trail

Why do I feel so sapped of energy
What did I do to deserve this?
Nothing
Just keep on keeping on
Keep on walking
Keep on seeing and hearing
Keep on keeping on

This morning I masturbated
To the woman of my dreams
Who is married

Haha how sad
Well oh well
The world is a ****** up place

Keep on keeping on

I'm listening to a podcast
They laugh
Must be fun to be laugh with friends

I don't have many friends
I don't laugh much at all

Just wander around
On a mountain trail

I can't find work
There are no jobs
Day after day
After month, after month

I'm tired of this
This state
Where you go to college
Then you get a credential

And I still can't earn a dime
Oh well
There are always the mountain trails I suppose

Of all the people
On the earth
It's parents
That are most
Obnoxious

Honor your father
And mother

I respect them
And Wish them well

Other than than
They're just like
Anybody else
On the planet

I love strangers more
To be honest

And when they die
They will be cremated
Their ashes scattered

People who are so
Repetitive
Are so obnoxious

The same experiences
Over and over
And over

Just shut up

I am going to have
Them shipped off
To Africa

Let them fend
For themselves

If they survive
They survive
If they don't
They don't

Who cares

i wouldn't share
My last bit of food
I would maybe with one

The other
I'd just let starve

Yes, Im a sinner
And these are terrible
Thoughts

It's not ideal
To have to live
There still

Tired of
These miserable people

What is it
About these Americans
That is so obnoxious

Everything, everything

His false sense
Of self
This person becomes
A caricature
Of himself

Is it wrong
Should I feel guilty
To not care
At all if that guy dies
Tomorrow?

I'm just saying no
Love lost

And it's a shame
I treid

I won't try anymore

You go to school your whole life
And still no decent job
Only part time work

No money for your own apartment

I do not like living here

I won't be here for Thanksgiving
Or Christmas either

Tired Of This Program
Nothing Is Ever Real

I have to go to
The job site
5 days this week

What a ****** deal

Ugly and alone
And nobody cares

Perhaps I'd jump off a mountain
Over a dare

This planet is a bore
And stupid too

I like Ovaltine
How about you

Come on Jesus!
We're tired of waiting
And we aren't going to wait
Another 2,000 years!

That amount of time
May just be a couple
Of weeks to the Father

But to human beings
Its a long **** time

And all the saints
They waited and waited

They cried and prayed

We're tired of waiting!

And I'm no **** saint!
So hurry up!

Let Judgement day come

And I want my female friend!

I'm making demands
And I'm shouting commands

Because I'm tired
Of being alone

Another stupid day

It's quite a thing to live a life on Earth
To work and work and work
I salute all the good human beings
Who try to do what is right
Who are kind, loving and patient
Who are determined and persevere
Love conquers all

Just keep trying
And doing what is right
When you look back at your life
You will feel so satisfied
Cultivate sympathy and sensitivity
Life will come to you

Love conquers all

It's so easy
Don't you know
To try to show
The love
That Jesus shows

I am toasting a piece
Of whole grain plus

Getting your daily amount
Of grains is a must

Would you like me
To put in a piece for you?

So we can have toast for two

Watch over my family Jesus
And watch over the good people of this earth
Who try to do what is right

I was at the gym this morning about 2:20 am
Then I came home for a bit of breakfast
Toast and cereal
An avocado too
Who doesn't love an avocado?

I listened and recorded
A Buddhist talk on tranquility

Then it was off to the golf course
35, 50, and 80 yard pitch shots

This afternoon
In the local park
Meditating
While I listened to the Shurangama mantra

Lying in the grass
I watched bees pollinating small flowers
A mother played with her daughter

As I left I saw a beautiful asian woman in her backyard

I came home and cleaned a few golf clubs
And recorded a lecture given by a speaker
Who spoke at the National WWII musem
About important military decisions
FDR made during the war

I also began a recording of a lecture
About how the Red Army defeated Germany

Then it was off the golf course
I chipped *****

There was a mother and her daughters chipping
And another lady too

I accidentally picked up her yellow ball
Thinking it was mine
She said it was hers

I apologized and told her I have a yellow ball just like that
She didn't say anything in response
I wish she would have chatted with me a bit
And said not to worry
But that's okay
Peace be with her

Then I went to the range
Where I hit 7 irons and gap wedges
3/4 swing
Good extension on the back swing
Follow through to the target
Good crisp shots
Hit off of sandy turf

I came home to my family
I love them very much

Jesus please forgive me
For the hate I have had in my heart
Please forgive me for the evil thoughts that I had

Sometimes it has just been so hard for me
To continue to live here
I love my family so much
I really do

But it's not fair
I've tried so hard to do what I would like to do
Well, I'll just keep trying

And in whatever I do,
I should remember to try to show the love
That Jesus showed to us

Freely given love
It is in giving that we receive

Well, I'm alone again
I wish I had a girlfriend to hold
Maybe one day
Until then I will have to hold my pillow

Went to the dentist today
She forgot to polish my upper teeth (oh well)
Everything looked good though

Except she kind of annoyed me
When she pointed out two trouble spots
Explaining how to floss
Like she does every single time
She's **** though

I just say yes
I want to make her proud
She is my dental mistress
Lol

Playing some WWII game on my Ipad
Eating corn on the cob on the sideyard
A few minutes earlier

The kitchen looks great after being re-painted
Nice to have everything back in it's place

Why should I work?
The government isn't financially responsible
It throws our future away

So, I will retire at 30
Hooray!

I sit on my yoga mat
Above the mountain trail

Forever observing
Forever the watchman
Forever without a companion

America will be a different place
I think fairly soon

I'm happy
And healthy
And a loving guy too

And with my *****
I would like
To pleasure you

I drive around in my car
Searching for tight female bottoms

I needn't drive far
I tried using my IPad, but
It was not meant to be

Far too big, and clumsy

So with my iPhone
I tried my luck

I missed one opportunity
The other phot was blurry
Shucks

Well, I approach
From the back

And with one small tap

An image of a toned ****
On my screen

So strange and sad
This is part
Of my American Dream

When you are poor
Life can be dull
A bit of a bore

Always alone
No loving embrace
From a woman

And no place
That feels like home

7 o'clock is the walking hour
My therapist spoke
Of her higher power

But she cared most
For money

Better not to speak of her
Let things be

Toned tight butts
In suburban neighborhoods
I will try my luck

“Too lazy to be ambitious,
I let the world take care of itself.
Ten days’ worth of rice in my bag;
A bundle of twigs by the fireplace.
Why chatter about delusion and enlightenment?
Listening to the night rain on my roof,
I sit comfortably, with both legs stretched out.”

I tore the college magazine
Tore it to shreds

Thanks for the degree
7 years ago now

And still no job

Haha

I tore the pictures of myself
From earlier times
I tore them to shreds

I was tired of seeing past times
How incredibly stupid

Pictures of ourselves
Put into frames

I ripped the picture
I do not care about the past

I live with a person
Who never lives in the present

A mindless
Stupid Idiot

Watching the news
Talking to the dogs

What a stupid person
Do something constructive

A life of doing nothing
Of being nothing

I tear the pictures
Of myself

These old memories
I forget
I forget these people

And though my body
May exist in this place
My mind does not

And there is no financial future
For Americans my age

Only part time work
Living in this home

I tore the pictures
Every last one

This little Toshiba netbook
Is having some problems functioning

I always took good care of it
I think it's four years old by now

I thought I would be able to afford a regular computer by now
At least I had a few interviews

Still no luck
Oh well

If the powers that be
Won't hire me
Then ***** it

I have a B.A. Plus 16 months for the credential
I still live here at home

I will have lived here 17 years this upcoming October
Looks like it will be another year or so
Before I finally move out
I'm not really sure?

Geeze I'm a living saint for goodness sakes
A ****** and never been drunk too

I sit in my room watching history documentaries
And reading philosophy too

I don't expect to fall in love
I just want to make a small salary
Enough to have my own small apartment

I wish I had some more good friends
Hmm well I guess I'll go chip golf ***** now
And listen to the golden sayings of Epictetus

You have to love yourself
You have to believe in yourself
Because everything is so hard

Ayn Rand said,

"You Can Ignore Reality
But You cannot ignore the consequences
Of Ignoring reality."

The total collapse of the dollar will come.

It's okay
If you don't have a man

Just use your vibrators and *****
The best you can!

Ben wa *****
And your fingers too

Will make you exclaim, "Phew"
Tired you may be
When your ****** **** so

Orgasmically!

You're in for a mean ***** fight

There is no more food
Some people have lost their humanity

They will do whatever they can
Just to survive

It's chaos
Our society has broken down

I flee
I flee to the mountains
With my backpack and the food I have

I never trusted most people anyway
People aren't basically good
Or basically evil

When under pressure
Some only care for themselves
They will do anything to survive

I will flee to the mountains
Away from the chaos
There is peace there

I don't care if I can't ever come down

There are others like me
We were always good
Onto eternity

Always cared about others
We just want to live in peace
And be left alone

But the government ruined our country
Ruined our way of life
F*!

I'm happy to sit alone in the mountains
Hoping to meet a kind person like me
Maybe we can share some food and water together

TPP is passed
Another victory for the globalists

Our national sovereignty threatened

Congress serving the interests
Of the large multinational corporations

The president, dictator like

Trapped in this Home
A full grown eagle
Since 1997 I have lived here

My talons are sharp
My patience is wearing thin

And these dachsunds
Bark too much

Haha
Oh well
I don't suppose it matters

And who is this Rachelle?
She came to the door selling something
I didn't see what

I never know who will stop by
It is truly a strange world
Some friend of mother

I offered her a glass of water
Asking her name
I said, "I think we met before some time ago."

Thank goodness mother came home
I think I made Rachelle feel akward
With my akwardness, haha

Goodbye Rachelle
I go now
To the golf course

See you in a few years maybe
When you stop by again
On a Thursday afternoon

Haha!

Trash Cans Are
Travelling
Down the street

I looked for them
With mum
Isn't life neat?

Lol

I looked with
The led light
But looked
In the wrong bins

They had gone two houses
Down the street

We laughed
With a grin

36,000 NATO troops
Prepare for Trident Juncture 2015
What does it all mean?

So many of these military
Exercises these days it seems

I have a bad feeling
A difficult time may be coming

For the world
And for U.S.A.

No I don't things
Will continue to be okay

Military forces building up
Your free time is almost up

The time is almost here
When we will lose our American values
We hold dear

No more driving here and there
Now there are checkpoints everywhere

A standing military force we should fear
These days of trouble are now near

Listen, listen
All who have ears to hear
Yes, I may shed a tear

What will happen to our American life?
Soon there maybe only strife

U.N. troops come crashing in
Demanding to see what lies within

Our private property
No longer ours they say

They will try to seize your assets
On that fateful day

But not my property
I'm a man
I may not be that big and strong
But I'll fight this globalist **** all day long

I know the 4th Amendment and my rights
I may not be armed
But stand I will
On that terrible night

All Employees
Of The Russian embassy in London
Have left the UK

High ranking Russians
Are being taken to underground command centers

Putin has not been seen in the last week
It is likely he is in the Yamantau moutain complex

I hope
There isn't a big war

And everything was hunky dory
And everyone was feeling A-okay

America is so prosperous
And wealthy
In the good old U.S.A.

And nothing difficult
Or trying
Could ever happen here

America is invincible
They think

But I find it all so queer
So strange

America teeters
On the brink

And our corrupt government
Does really stink

Just one event
And America this ship
Will sink

Now there is chaos everywhere
And if you drive a C class

Well no one really cares

John the plummer is hungry
And so is family too

It's a martial law lock down
Now everyone is *******

When the systems that
Hold our society in place
Are completely overstressed

This society will turn
Into one great big mess

America no longer a sovereign nation
It's debts it cannot pay

Then they'll bring in the New World Order
To rule the day

Massive military vehicles
Roaming the streets

Now the middle class
Has barely enough to eat

A terrible time is coming
I don't know when

Keep your wits about you
And don't be afraid my friends

I just want to make a decent living
And lead a regular life

But in this new America
There may be nothing but strife

The New York Federal Reserve is moving
A lot of its operations to Chicago

The federal government is buying 62 million rounds of ammo
Commonly used in AR-15 semi-automatic rifles for training purposes

NORAD is moving back into Cheyenne Mountain
Because it is hardened against an EMP attack

Jade Helm training exercises

America is doomed
America will burn
Burn Burn Burn
When the atomic bombs are dropped

I will hide my true self from you
Some won't understand
I will show myself
If you are good
If you are true

Because I am good
I am true

Prepare your heart
Prepare your mind

It's a beautiful Easter Sunday
Do you understand
Can you comprehend?

The love of Jesus endures forever
Show your fellow human love
Forgive and do not keep hatred in your heart

Hard Times
They are coming
They are coming
For this country

I can see
I can feel
Trying times are coming

You are always capable of more
Than you think you are

The Holy Spirit will be poured out onto believers
The angels will watch over us
I will go to the high place
I will not fear

It's hard to work
More than one
Or two days a week

I'm trying to keep track
Of the world

And I'm a good guy

But here in America
That's not good enough

No
I don't have the money
And I think it's quite funny

When I'm trying to keep track of the world

There are some people
Who shine through
All the way through

I won't let this world hurt me
Forgive me Lord
When I have not shown the love I was supposed to show
When I was mean
Or hurtful

It's only because I wanted to be loved
I wanted a good friend
To confide in

Yes we have all felt great pain here
But don't give up

Just keep trying to do what is right
Try to show love to others

My sins are great and piled high
Lord have mercy on me

I'm just so lonely
And my therapist won't even give me a hug!

For three to four hours
Each night

The dim glow of the television
Can be seen through my bedroom window

The body decays
More glasses of wine

It will be the same thing
Tomorrow

Off to the salt mines
For another 9 to 5

You know
I feel no guilt
For being poor

For doing as I please
For working part time

Everything is fine
Everything is how
It always is

America will never
Face a difficult time
Americans will never
Face something difficult

Just ask the guy

I'd like to smash
That television most times

Why is the television always on at night
Old Americans can't break old habits
Do something different for a change

I close the hall door, and my door
It's too loud

The man of Tao
Seems dull
And confused

Floating from time to time
He is without desire

I must live
In some type of computer program

A part of a large system

And isn't life strange
Events just happen

And there is all this extra stuff
Like the noise
And loud shouting
By the instructors
At the gym

Can't they just do
The movements
In silence?

Turn off the loud music
It is not necessary

At a certain time of day
She will turn on the news
In the afternoon

Why did she never work
Or contribute to society?

Content to sit in a home
For thirty years

Her mother was this way
Why won't she change

We only live once
The time given to us is sufficient
It must not be wasted!

It's a tragedy
Now the pattern of her life
Becomes habitual

She was not made for this

Loud obnoxious
Annoying t.v.

He is almost two years
Past 63

Relax, or read

Just do something please
Besides fall asleep in front
Of that stupid t.v.

(He won't though)

One day I want to live in an apartment
Or home
Without a t.v.

A man wastes too much of his life
In front of the television
Probably about 20 hrs a week
This person I know

Nothing educational or interesting
Just movies, lol

Can't these 60 somethings
That I live with
Do something
During the weekend besides watch television?

I mean if it was educational
Or informative
Or enlightening
I would understand

But it is always some cliche movie
Ahh

Like moths to the flame
They are drawn to the television

Wasted hours
They will never get back...

You wonder
How many hours
He spends
In front of that t.v

Probably about 20 to 25 hours
A week

And the guy just doesn't get it
That America is doomed

He is a baby boomer
And his mind is controlled
By the tube

I find myself wanting
Some type of different experience

Friendship
And maybe hugging
A female friend

But I doubt that will come

Are society is so isolating

I am paid twice the minimum wage
Kind of lame
To spend all that money on college
And a credential

Just to barely make enough
To pay my bills

Hopefully when I get full time
I can make enough for my own
Small apartment

I'm content
I'm not complaining

I didn't become
A teacher for the money

I just think
That I should be paid
More than twice the minimum wage

It is in fact not even
Twice the minimum wage

This country
Doesn't have a future anyhow

Just store food
And get ready for a collapse I guess

Maybe it is not wise
To have four or five children
Our planet is overpopulated as it is

Two children per family
Is plenty

I love powerful quotes.
Here are three I found
In Pamela Rae's profile

I found them to be
Quite true in my own life

“We are each of us angels with only one wing. We can only fly by embracing one another.” ~ Luciano de Crescenzo

“Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.”― Martin Luther King, Jr.

“Leave the past behind,
Cast it out of mind,
Relish what you see
For it soon will shape,
who you aim to be.”—Joe Adomavicia