I could stare up at the moon all night
Noticing different crevices and caverns
The way it shines so bright in the dark sky
But gentle enough that I could watch forever

I’m mesmerized by the way it glides slowly up
Until it reaches the highest point amid the stars
Like the pupil of your eye between that deep blue iris
And seems to rest above me for quite a long while

And I can’t help but wonder if you’re watching too
If maybe the two are connected, your eyes and the moon
And if you are looking up, thinking about my eyes
And how they cried that night you walked away

*Both my heart and the moon
Full of holes and dull light
Missing human connection
And fading away slowly

You look into her eyes and see the wild,
Almost like you can see into her eternity.
She notices your gaze and quickly looks away
Just as you find yourself wanting to stare infinitely.

Blue and green marbles sneak out from behind
As many strands of golden hair as stars in the sky;
And you are dying to wipe that tear from her cheek,
Knowing very well her pain will multiply if you try.

We all know there is no way to tell someone
How much of their being you want and need
Knowing that they'll never love you back
Which is why you're saying you have to leave

Because you can't force someone to love you back
Or rationalize why you should be together.
So break your gaze and heart and just walk away
If only for today, if not then for forever.

going to bed while I'm full of dread
too many bad thoughts in my head
as I drift off into the deep
I see images of dying sheep
waking up sweating, pain in my chest
it makes it hard for my mind to rest
the only hope that I keep
is gently dying in my sleep

looking back with no anger
just anxiety, feel my life in danger
the soul can only bear so much
I've grown too numb to recognize a touch
can't even tell your love from your disdain
but no one can hurt me, I've been through deeper pain

the feeling flees, fleeting flies
staring up at the ceiling tiles
no way pf telling when they'll leave me be
for once in my life I'd like to not feel so crazy