I know it’s easy to let it go
Just look at everyone you know
They toss it around like play-do
Only to realize there are worst things than being a ***
We are all born with it at zero
A fresh car with no dents
I’m not trying to be a hero
Cuz I know how it torments
To feel left out or still a kid
No matter your stance
Or even if you parents forbid
You will seek out romance like it hid
Give it away fast and
watch you get hooked
On flesh no matter the host
Your body will stayed booked
While they’ll go ghost after the late night toast
If that’s not the case you can feel a roast
Without jokes but it burns the same
Have you regretting at most
That you weren’t a pro at the night game
Why not throw a baby in the mix
That’s what got me picked
Somedays I rather hang from a crucifix
Than bear the fact that I’m an addict
Strung out if I didn’t feel a nut or hear a scream
My life is a psa for the
world reckless *** can breed
The feeling might make you feel supreme
But Diana Ross would say
read before
you speed
into losing
respect all for
Catching or giving a seed

He was my knight
That sweep me off my feet
He was sweet and tall
He would always spoil me at the mall
Well at lest after I fall
He buys me flowers
He walks me to school
He treats my body like his personal tool
He cooks dinner
He cleans the house
He said I wouldn’t be bleeding
If i was quiet like a mouse
He has a good job
His family loves me
Too bad after they leave he will
He will be Jekyll with no where to Hyde
My mom says it’s a part of marriage
My sisters looks in disparage
My father thinks he’s a prince in a carriage
I just hope he doesn’t cause me another miscarriage

The thought hurts so bad
That the game has turned sad
To take away a voice
And replace it with silence
Who let that go
Who let me know
When freedoms are allowed
Only conditional
The insane overseer controls his puppets
And to know that I use to have strings
Tossed twisted pulled and pushed
My career was a slave dream
Filled with a combine built like a auction
A contract like the slaves just with more change involved
Whips are the fines, jails, and blacklist
That you eagerly get assigned
Dare you speak without a sheet
Or with your mind
I kneel for injustice
I kneeled to be free
I kneeled to show my struggle
But to you a unthankful **** is all you see
I raise my hand for help but you rather me melt then disturb your selfish wealth
You must see the whole frame I love starry night but van goh was insane
To only see the vision and fall halfway thru
Football is tied to Jim Crow in the expression view
Owners spread bigotry,and lie on the truth
Expand dollars to shrink everything we do
So since we can’t say no to cops killing,
Wrongful jail dates or the rigid two step back and one half step forward life
I won’t watch the nfl
I won’t partake in a game
I wouldn’t even tag they twitter name
So this is my hurtful goodbye
To something that was so high
I wish you could see it with my eye

He looks so nice and well mannered
But nobody knows his standard
He hates so much color
I think he lives in black and white
Because if your brown
He will erase you out of spite
My next door terrorist
Has a pool and family
Real American dream
However his nightmares
would make you scream
He envisions a world where his people are on top
As if we were the ones taking a shot
To prideful to admit he’s wrong
He gladly **** you
If you sang your own song
My next door terrorist
Is loved by the neighborhood
They say he is sweet
Don’t let the blonde hair fool you
He’d cut me open like meat
His room riddled with posters of trump
And flags of hate
With one mission in mind
To eliminate
My next door terrorist
Is considered shy and shut in
Misunderstood some would say
Would they still call him that
If he used a gun to spray
And exterminate my race away?
My next door terriost
We all know to well
He was bullied or needed a hug
So why am I under his shoe like a bug
My next door terrorist  
Goes to church and sings in the choir
My life and many other like mine
Is all he desires
So to my next door terrorist
I’m sure you will go free
Because no matter what you do
I’m the only threat the world
Will ever see

Stare at me all day
Just poke and click away
You couldn’t make it without me no way
I hold your money and friends
I tell you all the trends
You would never leave me in the end
I could find you love or the plug
Even help to fix your rug
I stay in your hand like a drug
I make you look fleek
Take you to your peak
But if I die you go weak
I control your car, lights, and fridge
Get you over a bridge
You cry if I cracked a smidge
Your kids beg to have me
Will be salty like the sea
If you took away their glee
I’m always bought and sold
I will never get old
Because you can’t break my hold
I was made to call and that’s it
However thanks to some much witt
Now I’m humanity’s only fit

I drive in fear
The roads are cemeteries
Because I know their near
My fate never varies
I don’t have to swerve
Or run a light
I’m on their shooting preserve
And I’m a dear at night
They say I’m dangerous
So they must fire to survive
But when they endanger us
The world takes five
I tremble as I start my car
Buckle my belt to go
I pray their far
Or else become a cnn cameo
Call my wife mom and kid
I pull out the parking lot
I rather get a bid
Then a buckshot
Three lights in
Two miles left
One costly sin
I turned with no signal which is like theft
The chilling cold blue came quick
I pray to god and text goodbye
Because with just a snap
I can die

Here we go again
Another notch on my belt
For a game I can never win
For you it’s the pleasure and sensation
For me freedom is my only destination
Plagued by depression and pain
Held together by insecurities in my brain
Only the feeling of flesh eases everything
No one understands my hunger
they think it’s just my Y chromosome
But here is where I don’t feel alone
No matter the cost or who I lost
I need your body so I know I’m boss
It’s a sickens that I can’t treat
The only prescription I have
Is more of me inside of
Whoever that I seek
At least for that week