You are up to something eternal while I dream of getting wasted every time I see you in my peripheral.

You shake lives by following God's call. Me? A day at work occupies my soul.

You are loved by everybody.
Even my friends hate me.

I see you and I can tell your future is set. I worry everyday for what tomorrow may bring ahead.

Everyday I wish for a chance to see you.
Every night I pray that my dreams will be filled of you.


Am I too crazy for looking at you that much?
On the inside I just want to get to know you and feel your touch.

But no matter how I try to look at it, we will never fit.

The world has judged and so did you.
And the truth is, I will never be good enough for you.

The breeze were cool tonight.
I was tempted to walk home all night.
This season reminds me of so much love once felt now lost.
And as I walk those roads I walked beside your ghost.

I'm not sure how long I can still bear this season.

Tonight I learned a great lesson and dealt with the pain.*

The thing is this:
Be true, love and respect yourself.
Because at the end of every day, people will be people.
No one will give a **** about what you're going through.
And that it will always be you who's always left hanging at the queue.

I have a ton of things in my head which I think will help me forget you.
But someone told me I must deal with the pain.
So I said I have.
And so far it's been really hard.

I do crazy things all day
and at night I wish the cold shower will change my ways.

I am so **** patched up on the inside.
Getting through the dailies aint really that easy.

So I run.

I run and throw the crazies beside the roads.
I run until I gasp for breath and feel alive for five seconds.

getting out of your own pity party,
and saying "hello" to everybody.