I fell in love with you so fast it was insane

we met at that coffee shop you use to work at, that seems so long ago
even though it was only a year ago

it took us so long to even speak to one another, both of us awkward and vacuous to one another's flattery  

you thought I was beautiful from the start, even when I didn't you did

I was so mean to you that first day that I walked in, and you stared at me, later you told me you couldn't look away

it took us months of brief passing, till you finally formally introduced yourself to me, you hate that, it made me ecstatic

we talked constantly for weeks, until we decided to go on a date

it was awkward, I was nervous, and so were you, but its something that can't be touch in its innocence, I still loved it

we fell for on another fast, and then after our third date as we laid looking at thoughts stars and you kissed me, was when we started to date

quickly we fell for one another hand and together

we laid staring into each others eyes when we told each other that we loved one another

I love everything about you, the good the bad every single thing

how could I not, you were everything I wanted, everything I need and more, you changed me, you made me better

we were happy, friends, and lovers

then this is the sad part of our story, there always is one, you were moving across the country in fact

I told you of what I had been like before you came into my life, I had opened up completely to you, I opened my chest exposing my beating heat, and you took care of it and did the same for me

then about a week later was the day that you departed, that morning the dat\y you went and I was leaving I loved you , seeing you lay there one the bed knowing that smile on your sleepy face was mine and that you loved me so made me happy, I cant stop loving you

after all your my first love

I hope someday we'll meet again, maybe when I'm older and your younger wouldn't that be a twist

We thing of it so humble
it is true stability
all we want is for everyone to get along  

But our egos and our beliefs always come first
we are a stubborn kind we are mundane
so for that we are cursed with forever ciaos

looking at the love of her life, her reflection looked back

hard
painful
tiring
long
really hard
annoying
but.
heart beat rises and you feel,
alive.

So many homes in this little ski town, most are empty now sitting awaiting the snow, to once again be full

Sometimes I wish my dream took me away faster than my thoughts make me stay

Slowly I feel myself drifting out to sea, drowning into the deep

No longer knowing who I am slowly I go, day by day I slip further away

Slowly feeling less and less of how I used to be.

You helped me change that but without you near, I see myself drifting deeper into the sea

Sometimes I wish that there wasn't pain
or it would just go right
or they wouldn't have left
or that happiness was forever
I just wish all the loss I've felt would have never been
the people that passed lived forever
but that's the thing with wishes... they never come true

Another year older

A leagal adult

It's funny I thought I'd feel different, but I never change

I'm still the same person, still me

Who ever that may be

Well let's hope this years as good as the last, maybe even better

Words spilled out of his mouth the the water  turned on high, messy loud and all at once and destroys  more than it makes

She spoke like rain drops, quite and sutill but bring more life than it shows

Life's a storm that never clears but instead gets worse till the skies black, then it rains the tears you hold

All of this is crushing me I can not handle all the stress, or life, of school

I need time to think and to destress.

awkward tans, hand stands
a child laughter, memories made forever
these are the best times,
we  laugh, swim, play till dark tucks the light away
family, friends, and lovers
all make these moment in the heat that much better
goals of life are made in these times of heat
  some achieve, some never will succeed
All I know is that this time of the year never fails
not even in the worst times it some how always turns out to be all right

Take me to a place where I might get lost in other people's thoughts instead of my own

1.)I am a terrible person, but I can be incredibly nice in the flip of coin
2.)I listen to what some people would say is weird
3.)I quite a sport cause I didn't feel passionate about it
4.)I have never kissed a boy (refer to #1)
5.)I am absolutely terrible at school
6.)I drink to much caffeine for someone my age
7.)I don't sleep like at all
8.)I have no life
9.)I read books a lot (refer to #8)
10.)I am ******* terrified of the world and what it thinks of me

10.) what have I done that's good this year?
9.)have I changed?
8.)if so for better or worst?
7.)what have I learned?
6.)what have I seen?
5.)who have I meet that changed me?
4.)have I stayed true to me?
3.)where is this journey of mine going to take me?
2.)am I happy?
1.)am I following my dreams?

He looked at her and asked " and who are you to decide the fate of all of thoughts in pain?"
  "I am the one who has felt there pain, how they are more stubborn than a charging bull, or the hole they swear that is there instead of a beating heart.

I feel everything they feel that is why I can decide there fate, because I have felt there pain, there loss, there love, there hope, there anger, because I am them, there mothers, there friends, ever face they have ever seen. I am everything so there fate is mine.

Do you ever catch yourself not writing?
or dreading it?

its scary to think something you love
something you passionate about will be forgotten

that fear of losing that love

So you don't like me or love me or very much see me

No you might have I don't know but you don't like me now that much I know

You like the girl, she's young very young.

I know you don't owe me anything

I just have one question if you will take it

Why not me?

I have never been the first choice for anyone, I'm an after thought in your mind

Pretty, but is there something wrong that I did?

yes I have walls one hundred feet tall, but no one even bothered to try?

Just, why?

I'm not asking for your pitty just give me a reason, that's all I ask

So thank you for the year you invaded my mind even when I thought we could be toghter at last

You don't choice me

So have your fun with your little girl, I just ask for her sake give her space

She's not ready for what you ask of her I know I was on her place at one time

Goodbye for good this time.

Green grass, large trees
The world around nothing but rustling leaves,and a million sounds, but none that honking horns or engine rumbles
Nature is the perfect place

Geometry
French
Earth Science
The thing forced opon me to learn
Thing i will propel never truly coprehend

But somehow they will better me
This I will never understand
Why can't I learn what I want to
Why can't I break free I this prison?

As the winter blows out side, and I sit here inside this cliché café.
I wonder what happen to me back in thoughts old days that made be laugh and play all day.

Trust me I love the cold.
But everyday it seams harder and harder to go out there in the cold.

It maybe the things I have learned,
or the things I've lost.

What ever it  may be I hope the cold winter days will still love me,
and will wait for me to love them the way I did when I was young once again.

love is a fickle thing to hold, ever present ever silent it stand in the back of one's heart
If you think it's gone you're wrong, it is there sitting still in the back of your mind waiting for a memento to spark that quickened  heartbeat  
Love betrays you
Because it is honest, it cannot lie
Because love is the only truth we have no matter how much you might fight it
So be true to it, and with that you will be true to yourself

The fact that the music we listen to defines us
If its country, your a hick
indie, hipster
folk, hippie
heavy metal, ****
why can't music just be free?
why dose it define?
why judge by the thing that brings us pleasure?
I can't stand it

its not a special day
just a day like ever other
but today we decide our fait
today we burn the bridges
today we fight
today we dance
today.
today was certainly a wonderful day

Toghter we laid, chest to chest, our heartbeats a tangled mess

To the girls who sit in coffee shops

That love the feeling they get when they sit in there favorite spot

Browsing the internet, listening to their favorite music

The taste off coffee running through your veins

I know how you feel, and how far you'll reach for the stars

I know who you are, because I'm that girl too

I envy you and all you have given us,
for your politic that gave us the foundation for what is now this great nation
you building styles, thoughts famous columns
thoughts things you though, the problems you solved
you changed the world, your langue create our routes, your style of fight
so thank you, for all you great work

I feel like a lion in a dog cage

I am unseen in a room with many eyes

Its 3:30 on a Wednesday and here I am yet again sitting in a coffee shop questioning my existence and wishing you were here

It's ok to have doubts as long as they do not run your life.
Even the nicest person in the world has bad moments.  
You'll always not like people or hate doing something but you'll have to hold your head up high and do it anyway.
The age of a person can't always be determined by a number but by there soul.

When you look at me with though bright blue eyes what do you think about?

Do you study me, as I do you? Ever muscle you move ever word you speak.

Or want to talk to you ever time your near?

It might just be me, but I hope you see me too.

If you knew you were to die?
The exact time.
What would you change?
How would you tell people, or would you?
Would you totally change your life?
How would you take if  you knew you were going to die?
Would you tell people things you swore to take to the grave?
So my friends, act like you do know when it going to be your time.
Do every crazy stupid thing you ever wanted to do.
Because you don't know when your going to die, and that to me is the scary thing.

Am I going where I want to go, or where I should?

What are you thinking why do you look at me like that now.

I'm sorry but your just a friend.

I feel for the boy who plays football, and dances silly.

Your a great friend who I love, but I'm sorry not that way not now anyway.

I'm sorry to have to tell you this way but that is all I have to say.

Don't get heart broken your like my brother, if I needed you I know you'd be there.

Don't hate me, please don't leave me cause I don't fall head over heel for you.

This is how it has to be cause I want him, I have for a year, why now do you look at me that way?

No, I can't do that to you to our friendship, so I ask you to stop looking at me like that, cause what do I do when I loose you?

You worry me darling

Every second of everyday

I just want to make sure your ok

Thank you for your stare with thoughts stunning killer blues