It is always difficult to describe depression,
There are so many interpretations
That people hold,
This is my own.

You're standing on the cliffs edge,
Looking out towards the horizon of life,
Then you see the storm clouds rolling in,
The thunderous roars of trepidation
And the lightning bolts of painful reminiscence
Mirroring the silver scars on your skin,
Then the mighty winds of worthlessness
Hauls you over the edge.
The cool air brushes against your face
As you descend towards the black water below,
Every inch of you is screaming for you to stop
But you can't,
You have lost complete control and you are weak,
Defenceless,
Vulnerable,
Amidst the whistling winds in your ears
You hear the names, the bullying,
The cries of disappointment,
The reminiscent sound of ***** against porcelain,
You hit the water and shatter the surface
And you pray that you have stopped,
Things will bet better ,
But instead you continue to sink,
Numb, cold, aching,
You want to cry but you feel so empty,
Like the bitter sting of the salty ocean
Has clinged to your skin and draws out
The last ounce of feeling you had left to hold on to,
You stare at the surface,
Wide eyes desperately searching for rescue,
The fractured refraction of a flare in the stormy sky,
A hand to plunge into the water and pull you out
And revive you.

I have been fortunate enough to be pulled from
The ocean,
Revived countless times
After feeling like I will spend eternity
Living in the shipwreck of my insecurities.
It is my duty to scour the world and throw a life ring
To every lost soul who deserves to be atop the
Cliffs edge where they can once again watch
Another hopeful sunrise of hope break on the
Mundane horizon.

Don't spill your guts for those you thought you could trust,
There is so much deceit behind their lying eyes,
So much deception and cruelty behind their lips
As they whisper
You can trust me. I promise.
Broken promises are scattered on the floor
And I have stepped on the razor shards,
I caught myself in the bear-trap
And I'm stuck in this quick sand
of repetitive regret and resentment.
It seems inevitable that I will open myself
Up to people,
But it is their own fault that I have closed my doors to them.
Trust takes months to build and only seconds to destroy.

Verse One
Through the wind and the rain,
I will carry all your pain
And drag it to the bottom of the ocean,
Through the thunder and the wind
We will wash away our sins
And we will be pure like an angel tonight.
Take one more step,
No need to hold your breath

Chorus
Running up the mountain side,
We can always run 'cause we don't need to hide,
Chasing our tails through the darkened sky,
Tiptoe across the silver lining,
We won't fall we'll keep on flying,
Catch the stars and we'll be shining bright,
40,000 feet above paradise

Verse Two
Taking chances taking risks,
Because we have time for this,
Facing far too many dangers,
Taking bullets from their lips,
Breaking boundaries with our kiss,
Banish all the eyes of strangers,
Take one more fall,
Just hold on to your soul

Chorus
Running up the mountain side,
We can always run 'cause we don't need to hide,
Chasing our tails through the darkened sky,
Tiptoe across the silver lining,
We won't fall we'll keep on flying,
Catch the stars and we'll be shining bright,
40,000 feet above paradise.

Bridge
Vertigo and a fear for heights,
Running wild but we're scared for our lives,
Intoxicated by the stars tonight,
Falling 40,000 feet from paradise.

Chorus**
Running up the mountain side,
We can always run 'cause we don't need to hide,
Chasing our tails through the darkened sky,
Tiptoe across the silver lining,
We won't fall we'll keep on flying,
Catch the stars and we'll be shining bright,
40,000 feet above paradise.

Hit the ground hard,
Rosary beads hit the dust,
Praying on your knees
That you have seen the last of us,
Heaven's gates are far from calling,
And your graces are still falling,
Repent and confess your darkest sins,
The Devil is coming, don't let him in,
Do not embrace his smouldering charm,
Or let him take you by the arm,
Or ****** your soul and accept his kiss,
That burns like acid and tastes like bliss,
Don't fall for his lust or burning desire,
Or for eternity you will be trapped within the fire.

These orange feathers wither
Beneath the scorching heat of the sun,
I am weak, dying,
Life slipping from my body
Until I am an empty shell,
A desolate carcass,
And finally I drown beneath the ashes
Of my own weakness.
But inside my lifeless heart
The embers are still smouldering
Until they breathe smoke into my veins
And I come alive,
Rising from the ashes,
The feathers aflame with radiant
And glorious beauty,
My wings spread wide
Like a sublime inferno.
I am captivated by my beauty,
Perplexed by my ferocity
And perfection.