I dance along the edges tempting to crash into you
waiting for that chance to be next to you
When the sun rises, I find pleasure in seeing you glow
sometimes I’m lost within the breeze when the wind blows
I’m the oceans wave & you’re the sand
walking along waiting for me to grab your hand
Bless me with that kiss when I wrap you around my waves
& kiss the moon good night as our love becomes the soundtrack of the night
- Poetic Venom

Things aren’t the same between us, I don’t know what changed
No need to talk about it, this trouble can’t be saved
I’ll be okay, just drifting away from who I loved most
Falling back & taking my love from the one I loved most
You’re a stranger in my eyes now, don’t even look at you the same
Non stop tears & broken hearts, guess we’re the blame
Never thought I’d fall outta love but here I am saying goodbye
Letting go of what my heart became attached to before I let it die
I don’t wanna walk away but it’s best for us both
Feeling like a joke & your laughter played the host
Tried to fix what’s damaged but it made things worst
Don’t wanna see you cry no more when I’m believed to be the reason
Look into the mirror & look at us, that’s the reason I’m leaving
I fell outta love from the love of a lifetime
Deuces to the love I once dreamed of, this is my final farewell this time

What you know about sleepless nights cause you brains have dispersed?
Getting back time & interest that will never be reimbursed
Keep running into roadblocks everywhere I turn
Having interest in these women but never getting the same love in return
What’s the use of trying to find something different when it doesn’t exist?
When every female you meet, there’s no loyalty that consist
She believes she’s special when she ends up in my bed
Feeling on top of the world due to something that I said
Are you still gonna ride even when things get tough?
Are you really about that life? Is your love the one I can trust?
Trying to be a better man but I’m battling bad habits
Hard to be faithful when the loyalty is absent
Back & forth with my emotions, some days I don’t care if you’re mine
The sad reality is that I’m loving you blind
Dealing with a heart that’s mentally unstable
Not ready to love you & I know you feel the betrayal
Who can love you better than me? I won’t lie
Let the gun go baby, I don’t wanna see this love die
Here we go again. Why can’t you let it go? I don’t wanna fight anymore
Why can’t you let it go? Just want this love to be restored

Though I’m all smiles when you’re around me
it’s only a fraud to hide the pain that surrounds me
I can’t deny the fact that I’m one of those souls who’s sheltered
still battling the pain from the past that I still remember
Not too long ago, I was involved in a situation that’ll affect me forever
causing me to be paranoid & failing to put myself back together
There are some things about me that I’ve never shared with you
including how I contemplated on living without you
And I know when you read that last line, you maybe confused
but the fact of it all is that I almost took my life away from being abused
Trapped in a hell hole where every day felt like it could’ve been the end
just the subject of someone’s rage & unable to reach a friend
Didn’t even tell my mom until years later when I moved away
but deep inside, those heart shattering events took pieces of my life away
Thinking about the nights I spend in the bathroom with a razor in my hand
crying my eyes out & asking why I’m being punished by this man
Thought I escaped Hell by moving away from my family
but I moved closer to it which later became my biggest tragedy
Even with you in mind, I still felt like I was in this world so alone
feeling the fire from the evil of a household whose heart was born cold
So I write this letter to you in requesting that you don’t give up on me
& just allow me to paint the picture of the real me
Although I’m still that guy you love, there’s many things behind closed doors
that I try to bring to light but refuse feeling like it’ll be ignored
Just please don’t give up on me if I feel like I’ll never be the man in my reflection
that changes the world through a God given poetic blessing
Don’t give up on me even if I feel the need to hang it all up
if I feel like it’s impossible & I choose to give this all up
I don’t just write for myself or based on myself but for those who express their pain
being that poetic umbrella protecting them for their emotional rain
And I’ve never told you anything before cause you’ll tell me to pray
but that doesn’t work for everyone at the end of the day
I’ve never done self harm, just turned to music & art as a result to cope
with the emotions to which most would take as a joke
So as I attempt to make myself a better person, keep your prayers raining down on me
& no matter how long it takes me, please Don’t Give Up On Me

☆ P e n c a s s o ☆

If I had only one wish for today
It’d be to talk to you & pray
Ask God to guide through your storm
Heal your heart for good so you’ll never again mourn

Take your life back to what it used to be
Where you used to smile & live stress free
Relive those days that mattered the most
Remove your fears of anyone getting close

Cure you from the heartbreaks you’ve obtained
Eliminate the suffering caused from the pain
Show you the Queen you are when you look in the mirror
Paint the perfect picture so the image is clearer

For every tear you’ve shed, I apologize
For those who didn’t love you truly
A rare heart that only one can identify
Those who tore you apart & made you blind to your beauty
Take away the hurt suffered so you no longer have to cry

What started as a hobby 16 years would soon become my passion
The art of telling stories or expressing myself in ways I couldn’t imagine
I went from reading my moms poems to copying poems from english books
to rewriting those poems in my own words to writing raps doing what I saw on TV
but somewhere down the road, I never thought I’d fall in love with this thing we call poetry
I could’ve turned out to be another statistic by hanging out in the streets
instead I stayed in the house watching TV & listening to beats
I had many things running thru my mind but it was nothing I could tell anyone about
even if it was something interesting about me that they could learn about
Fast forward to my senior year of high school when I recited my 1st poem in front of my class
explaining the anger I kept built up for so long & I watched their eyes grasp my wrath
All i could remember was blacking out to let my emotions steer the ride of my heart
as the passion & pain would tear me apart
That one moment of truth made me realize that maybe this dream of mine isn’t a dream
but a way to connect to the intellect & strangely enough boost my self esteem
16 years of perfecting my craft, 16 years of keeping my passion alive
16 years of becoming what I am today & 16 years of that I’ve been able to survive
I’d tell you that you’re crazy if you told me that my poems would save a life
when it’s just me telling the struggles & battles that I’ve faced in my life
I became someone that some consider a hero & developed a fan base that love my pain
& for them, seeing someone brave enough to tell their story is the sunshine of our dark rain

For the 1st time in my life, I'm exciting to announce that I'm officially a published author. I've been working on this book for the past 6yrs & it's finally available for purchase for those who're interested in knowing my story. I appreciate any support that I get & it means the world to me if it inspires someone out there who's going through the same situations as me. Happy to share my story with you all & I hope you enjoy it. Thanks in Advance

- King Pencasso

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It’s crazy how the one thing we used to desire is now something we fear
And every time we get a taste of it, things begin to disappear
Can’t get attached to anything cause it’ll eventually drift away
Trying to see the good in people but everyone’s not who they betray
We fear Happiness due to things going bad after a while
So destroyed from the let downs that we pretend to be cool & fake a smile
Crying became a perfected routine & trying doesn’t work anymore
You just wanna know what can be done so you don’t hurt anymore
Anytime you see the light to a better day, you stray away from it
Happiness caused more pain so you easily fall back from it
High expectations always lead to severe disappointments
Push anything away that gets too close, you don’t wanna risk trying enjoy it
Fearing Happiness the most, who knew it would cause so much pain
Suffering from a shattered heart & coping with the pieces that remain

These past few months have been the most devastating thing to watch
fighting for a legacy that nearly came to a life ending cost
Sometimes I blame myself for allowing this distraction to fool me once
until one conversation filled me in on the blueprints of the upcoming stunts
Buried in silence, I observed as my household was turning into the pits of hell
as a demon was on its rise of his plan with the motivation to see it excel
Went from living in happiness to now fearing the lives of my own as well as the Queen
& the Princess, what’s a man to do to protect the castle
Numbing the pain to try to cure my sleepless nights, I nearly fall into that addiction capsule
that snatches my soul from me while I fall deeper in anger
Contemplating on ****** to risk it all for my loved ones, heading closer to danger
I’ve done a great job of holding in the rage but it’s soon to erupt
as the Queen’s heart falls to the floor & the world around me glows up
into flames as my eyes go from pure blackness to blood shot red, all I see is destruction
throwing me off my focus, unable to concentrate or function
I left my castle only to soon return as I face the Devil for the battle of our well being
asking God to keep me sane when it’s pure evil that’s all I’m seeing

- Poetic Venom

I spend most of my nights staring at my computer screen
Letting my heart write its emotions while my soul screams
Love songs on blast & guess who’s on my mind
Got me thinking about her, desiring her free time
I’ve done enough crying over you, all those tears have dried up
Now it’s all inspiring me to write this much & my thoughts are fired up
Look at what you did to me with all these emotions coming outta me
Still missing your body in my arms & your kisses laying next to me
Cause I know when it comes to that masterpiece
It’s your love that has the perfect recipe
I’m Sleepless because of you, listening to love songs because of you
I guess you still don’t understand how much I love you
You’re inspiring all these poems I’m writing
And all these emotions that I’m constantly fighting
Pacing back & forth, trying my best not to cry
Barely connected with my best friend & I don’t even know why
You bring out the best in me but without you, I’m hopeless
Just vampire during the night time trying to stay focus
Sleepless with a heart that has a thousand things to say
Wishing to come back home & desperately trying to find a way

I know you see me as your hero without a cape, just poetic powers
The one you come to that helps you blossom into that unique flower
Every day you reach out for my hand to be your guidance
Trusting me with your darkest confessions with faith of keeping it private
You could’ve turned to needles, drugs, or even self harm yet you turn to me
With hopes that I’ll be the one that’ll forever set you free

The words my heart writes save you from going off the deep end
Maybe I failed to realize that my art is your only friend
I used art as a way of expression never knowing the impact behind the concepts
It was a substitution to keep me from using that sharp silver object
That makes you bleed when it dances across your skin
When it hears the rainfall of your tears caused by the hurt from false friends
Keeping me from sober so I wouldn’t have to make out with that bottle
That makes me drowsy to the point where I slip into this world
Where I’m looking at myself fall apart unable to shake away my demons
That convince to drown in that pool of substance from my life’s bleeding
So here I am trying to keep you from going to that world where it’s impossible to come back
From knowing that it keeps a hold on you & knows how to knock you off track
Let my pain guide you to the light so you won’t make the same mistakes as me
And you too can seek a better way to peace to which that world doesn’t want you to see

- Poetic Venom

I am Alone, I am Invisible
far from innocent but not a criminal
I stand in the room with everyone else
but I fade to darkness knowing all I have is myself
We’re supposed to be a family but where’s the love
especially when everyone wants to be perfect & quickly to judge
I never come around cause I don’t fit in
I gave up that battle, I’m just not shaped to win
I’m unique from the rest & it’s scary to see
ever since I was born, my family has isolated me
I never speak a word but my presence speaks clear
the love is tainted but the pain is severe
- Poetic Venom

What you know about growing up being a disgrace to your family
What you know about hiding in your bedroom cause you’re scared of the reality
knowing your dad never gave a **** about you & left you behind
but as a youngin’ in this cold world, you’re naive to the signs
So you watch thru the window or checking thru the mail for a letter or birthday card
from the one person who never said goodbye or even gave you his best regards
What you know about feeling like the laughing stock of the high school
trying to act tough like your friends but you do nothing but make yourself look like a fool
being called names everyday so at night, you think about bringing that tool
to school & unleash madness on all of those fools
who made your days hell all because they thought it was cool
to pick on the kid wearing bummy clothes & those same run down shoes
& wanting to stand up for himself but in a fight, he’ll lose
when he stands toe to toe with the bullies only to be knocked out & talked about in the news
What you know about having a razor in the right hand & a gun in the left
looking for that shoulder to lean on but you ain’t got nobody else
who gives a **** about you enough to watch your back
& although God granted you life, you beg him to take it back
so you’re on your knees every night hoping to die in your sleep
just to wake up the next morning mad because you’re able to rise to your feet
confused as to why you’re still here & not deceased
just because the good Lord didn’t end your journey even if you did say please
What you know about depression?
What you know about built aggression?
What you know about looking at your mother to realize you’re her blessing
cause you’ve never been arrested or been out late & had her stressing
not knowing if she’ll get that call to hear you’re locked up or dead
from being in the streets, mixed up with the wrong crowd, & shot in the head
by another brother filled with rage but you weren’t involved
in yet another cold case that’ll probably never be solved
What you know about looking at every other guy & wishing you was him
just because he gets attention from the ladies & they’re attracted to him
then you ask yourself, how can I be like him
dress like him or even get the ladies to like me just like him
how wear my clothes a certain way just make them smile like him
& it makes you even more jealous when you know that you’ll never be like him
What you know about writing your life in these poems
just to see if someone can feel it like they feel those heartfelt songs
to the point where they shed a tear over your words & your voice
then you think about quitting all because you don’t have that voice
to bring your writings to life so they’ll have a deeper meaning
but you know your work to serve so you keep me believing
that one day you’ll be the one to bring change
to the next soul that you’re meant to save
- Poetic Venxm

We don’t live the same life
don’t share the same belief
you feel like I’m living a lie
my lifestyle, you don’t agree
but we both sin every day
& every day we pray
for God’s forgiveness
just in a different way
you live by the book
I live by my own views
just because I don’t follow the same path
doesn’t make me any less than you
I am of no religion
but God is the Greatest
holiness or spiritual
but for the final say so,
we’re all adjacent

As you grow up into a lady, it’s my job to teach you the right lessons
How to carry yourself in a respective direction & grow into perfection
I never had my father around, but you won’t know what that’s like
Cause I’m gonna be there way before you arrive & so those tears I won’t have to wipe
I want you to look at your mother, see what being a Woman really means
How to respect yourself & never let a man treat you like you don’t have any dignity
You’ll always be my baby girl, nothing in this world could ever replace that
Always look to the future, don’t you ever for a second look back
You’re gonna meet guys in your life that’s gonna try to break your heart
Do whatever they can to come around & tear you apart
But I’m gonna teach you how to stand strong when life tries to trip you
You’re amazing beyond measure, don’t let a man treat you like you’re see through
The only acceptance you need is from you, that's true indeed
Never let your crown tilt over & never let a man break what you inspire to be
Baby Girl you’re a blessing & I refuse to let a man treat you any less
You got your whole life ahead of you, don’t let these boys cause you any stress
I’m gonna direct in the right path so you’ll never be misleaded
Teach you how to read the fine print, looks can be very deceiving
Never stoop low & use your body just to get attention
If he can’t see you for what you are then that’s a blessing that he’s missing
You’re a Queen in your own right, don’t tolerate bs from no clown
Cause all you need is yourself, you don’t need a man to hold you down

I’m not sure where things went wrong or how it went sour
I was just simply doing my best to adore this forever abandoned flower
A heart that’s been destroyed for too long & didn’t know what love is
And my only mission was to prove that real love in fact still exists
Just like any other love story, it started out with fireworks & laughter
Beautiful moments shared that a picture could never perfectly capture
Long talks on the phone & long paragraphs to wake up to
Thinking I finally got a love that’s worth looking forward to
Telling me all these things you feared & how you were taking a risk
Falling in love with me but thinking you’re gonna get hurt just as quick
One night things went south after an argument & I said something bad
Thinking nothing of it at the time but it made you incredibly mad
I’m constantly trying to apologize but you refuse to hear me out
Saying it’s gonna be okay & I had nothing to worry about
The next day rolls in but I’m not getting the same attention as before
I see you reading my messages but you only seemed to ignore
Having this big discussion on what I did wrong yet I tried to make it right
Knowing that sometime soon, I’d have to pay a price
Fast forward a year in time & you’re now seeing other men
The same dogs you talked to before but their love is only for pretend
Got me thinking to myself that I’m not even worth your time no more
But a dog came along & make you cherish him more
You feared me walking outta your life yet I stayed just to prove a point
But you walked away from what we had & I bet you even rejoiced
Posting all these love quotes on social media but you set yourself up
Fell for the same types you hated, now you’re all fed up
Had someone to ride for you but you paid them no attention
Looking for love thru the trash & their hearts was missing
I still see the pain in your eyes but I don’t even bother to fix it
Seeing your heart so cold & lonely but I refuse to pay a visit
You did the same thing you asked me not to do yet I’m the villain
Still trying to love your heart no matter its condition
You walked away from us, you did the opposite of what you promised
Torn by you but my heart was still trying to make a deposit

I’ve been tripping for years, that’s been causing you tears
loving me more than yourself just to lose me, that’s a fear
How could I be so foolish to get what I wanted & let it go
got the diamond in a rough but failed to watch it glow
Beautiful distractions & the attention that I’m not used to
meanwhile I’m giving you worries if my love will even choose you
Falling for these minute trailers only to ignore the future presentation
like I don’t even care for the main event, the opening act is the key attraction
How stupid of me to avoid the apple of my eye for that forbidden fruit
& if I lose that love, I think quick of the perfect excuse
Will I regret it or forget it? Win her back or just let her go?
Will I ever change my ways or just remain stuck in my ways?
Always tried to do the right thing until it got old
but someone came along to change a heart that’s been cold
Question is, am I already too far to gone to even come back from lust
to actually let someone love me knowing there’s no one I trust
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

I gotta show you the real me before you rest your presence
Am I a beautiful disaster or just another rare blessing?
See I’m slow to gain interest but I’m quick to lose it
& I see your heart waiting to be caught but I won’t jump up to pursue it
My heart is in the right place, my head just won’t let it settle yet
feeling like this isn’t my dream for life & I can’t settle yet
I’m more focused on getting married than making the mistakes to meet my Queen
so I unintentionally break hearts along with shattering sweet dreams
Like a nightmare of reality that refuses to walk away
but with this irresistible charm, I make it harder for you not to stay
I’m alone but never am I lonely
Real love, I’ve never had anyone show me
& being that I’m already broken, do you think you deserve me?
Why do you even want me?
Save yourself from a heartbreak, you’re much better off on your own
loving someone like me ain’t easy & you’ll sometimes feel alone
It’s hard to focus on one when my head isn’t fully ******* on right
but I still miss the presence of one laying next to me at night
I’m a pro at cutting ties when something just doesn’t feel right
& I’d rather let you go before I break you again all because I can’t love you right
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

Every time I think of you, I feel this thunderstorm in my soul
trying to get move on from this tragedy but unsure where to go
When someone brings up your name, I start to lose it
you’ve had this hold on my heart & I’m struggling trying to lose it
I can’t even let my ego take over when my soul cries
knowing that someone else is enjoying your vibes
I wanted to be your everything & build us a home
but I can’t believe that I got nothing after waiting for so long
A man doesn’t settle down too often & he doesn’t do half the things I did
candle lit showers, rose petals on the floor, or even fathering another man’s child
I know I’m an amazing man but you made me feel worthless
especially after making me feel like what we had was so perfect
Can’t stand the sound of your name & it kills me knowing your face is stuck in my head
crying myself to sleep knowing I wish it was me sharing your bed
This was supposed to be my Meant to Be but I guess I’m meant to be free
free from your love, free from your vibes, free from the thought of you & me
-Poetic Venom

- Instagram @venomwrld

This year I thought of what I wanted for Christmas
a few things came to mind but it’s too important for a list
If I had my way, I’d bring the troops home to spend time with family
Give the homeless something to keep hope alive rather than suffering from tragedy
The things I’ve prayed for, money could never afford
I gift blessings & prosperity to others, I do this in request for no reward
I pray for Peace, I pray for Love, I pray for Unity, I pray for a better society
where everywhere is peace & horror is no longer a part of our reality
All I Want for Christmas is Change, All I Want for Christmas is Joy to All

- Poetic Venom

Let me make love to your mental, I promise to be gentle
Undress the elegance of your intelligence & bless you with a personality beyond suspenseful
You can never guess what I’ll do next but you feel the butterflies in your chest
That moved from your stomach but then you realize that it’s my words that caress
You which may lead you second guessing
Then there’s this sudden feeling of your heartbeat tap dancing
But that’s just me, the poetic metaphoric melody & it’s interesting to see
How I send chills thru your body when it’s just the thought of me
So let me undress your mind & in due time, I’ll read between the lines
Discover a world within a sweet smile that may tend to go over or bypass most minds
Who lack the knowledge of understanding of a presence so elegant yet demanding.
A Queen in her own right, standing on her own 2
Feet with the characteristics of oneself that’s bound to possess you
So let me undress your mind & in due time
I’ll then see why this Queen who’s so divine & at that moment
I’ll find out why she’s indeed one of a kind

- Poetic Venom

It’s complicated to find a Queen of my generation who isn’t caught up in the hype
of getting likes over selfies & pictures
I’m no Martin Luther King but I need a Coretta
that loves me for the man I am & does her best to make me better
I’m not an easy person to love but sometimes I question if it’s worth the patience
that women go through when they want my love but always catch themselves chasing
after just to feel what it’s like to be close to someone like me
or to know how it feel if a man of my value would consider making them wifey
It’s funny how I’ve never had a chance to love before but I always seem to panic
when a woman says she’s into me but that love is hard to manage
when you take none serious due to the same games being played
in exchange the interest being given then I’m left feeling betrayed

Love’s gotten too complicated. It’s either that or maybe I’m looking in the wrong places
Searching for the lady in my dream world in all the wrong faces
I keep ending up with these temporary players who do nothing but cause doubt & stress
which will eventually lead to the right woman coming along but I’ll no longer have a heart to invest
Why would you want a man like myself, I’m damaged goods with an expired interest in love
Tired of the let downs & failed expectations from those who only care to judge
Me cause I’m different from the way I walk & how I talk or how I carry my presence
Yet you see through it all still trying to love me pointing out the essence within this broken heart of mine

- Poetic Venom

I’m praying for a star, no matter how far you are
whether you’re full of tears or skin full of scars
whether you’re drowning thru the music or dreaming in your diary
whether you’re lost in reality, just know you inspire me
whether you’re struggling with addiction or praying to end your days
if you don’t feel loved, I love you but let me explain the ways
You don’t see that you’re fighter cause the pain is overwhelming
but you’re still here to see another day, another chance of prevailing

You’re the Star that I see whenever I look into the sky
lost with inspiration to do what I love but I then hear your cry
listening to your tears when you don’t understand why
why does life have to be this way or why you feel worthless
pressured by the society around you just to be perfect
So I pray for this star, that’s more than what you are

I cry in its arms & vent everything I feel
no doctor but my deepest wounds, it heals
Always there when needed, never turning its back
the greatest thing I’ve ever loved & that’s a fact
I don’t depend or count on much
but one thing’s for sure
this bond we share is beyond pure
Pretty eyes, warming smiles all let me down
but words always find me when I don’t want to be found
Pretty Little Liars with dreams turned into nightmares
don’t have faith in much but Poetry Never Broke My Heart
- Poetic Venxm

You told me I could confide in you
but what’s the use when I can’t get comfort from you
Every time I bring tears your way, you turn your back on me
yet whenever you vent, you can always depend on me
The fact that I’m shut off from the world & you’re the one I chose
to reveal the pain inside that world doesn’t yet know
I’m different from you but maybe that’s the issue
cause you see the hell in me & mad cause I can’t be like you
If you’re your brothers keeper, why make me feel like a burden
why make me feel like the hell I’ve felt, I deserved it
With all the depression that I suffer, what would you do
if you woke up one day & I’m no longer there with you
like I finally decided to call it quits & take matters in my own hands
You see my soul flying away with my blood buried in the sands
So I ask you this, if I’m really your “brother” then why make me feel alone
especially if you told me that your arms is like another home
What are Brothers For? Funny I keep asking myself the same question
when the brotherhood that I honor causes more misery than a blessing
It hurts like hell cause you’re the one I trust more than most
& it’s a shame that when I need to seek comfort, my pain is better off as a death note
- Poetic Venom

They say time heals all wounds, I beg to differ
Especially when you once had a love for someone with a lifetime of memories to remember
And how do you let someone else come around & love you better than the last one
When your heart still hasn't repaired from the last love, still very much in love with your last love
Traumatized from what transpired, not allowing anyone else to love you even if it is true
You just want the one person you gave your all to be the one that truly loves you
Sometimes willing to settle for loneliness, loving someone else will only break their heart
For trying to love you but loving you is going to tear you both apart
Heart is still the same condition from the past but you’re too afraid to love again
Fearing that a new love will never replace the love of a former love interest & best friend

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

It’s been a few years since we spoke but your effect still exist
Cause there’s no way someone could leave me scarred like this
Chasing women for my own pleasure & avoiding like this
Or even living the lie of a ******* & breaking hearts like this
Didn’t ask to be this way or portray myself in such a way
Just wanted a future with you but you decided to walk away
And now I’m attached a memory that I wish I could replay
Seeing your face in various faces of women that I’m trying to date
Look What You Did To Me Turned me from a lover to a player
Becoming a savage that I never saw myself as & the ultimate heart slayer
I wanted it all but after you, I’ve become love’s biggest bipolar hater
Just seeking hit & runs while I’m out here getting this paper
Look What You Did To Me, Can’t look at the sun because it reminds me of you
How you used to be happy & how I brought a different smile out of you
The late night phone conversations that I never wanted to end
But somewhere down the road, you became my enemy rather than my best friend
How’d I manage to become close with your sister while we got departed
Asking her how you’re doing & if you’re okay just to see if it’ll get something started
High school sweetheart crush that never officially my everything
Just another “for the time being” that meant more to me than anything
Missing that smile, missing those eyes, & missing that voice
Thinking of the night we last spoke & I still rejoice
Look What You Made Me Do. Pushing away any love that comes my way
All because I still hope you return & save my day
I don’t have faith in much but I still think you’re a dream come true
And still till this day, my heart will forever be apart of you

You’re trying to love me but don’t know what you’re in for
You don’t understand why I tend to push away before
Things go south & I’m left alone with no one to hear my cry
Or to understand the reasons why I wanna fly away
I tend to push those away if I feel they’re getting too close
Protecting myself of disaster from the heartbreak waiting to be diagnosed
I tend to drink more than I should & test your trust in me
Avoiding the love that you tell me you have for me
I’m lost as to why you still try to gain access to something so disturbing
Still insist on giving your love to someone undeserving
I’m hard to love, it’s a roller coaster of emotions
Causing you frustration just to see your mental explosions
I’m paranoid & I push you away time after time
Yet you see right thru my reasons & still desire to be mine
Love is about compromising & understanding, you define it perfectly
Healing a heart that’s been scarred by the corruptly
Short tempered with a short fuse & no patience
Being adored by an angel possessing a love that’s gracious
I don’t wanna make a million mistakes & take your love for granted
Just a troubled man with a broken heart & having issues trying manage
I couldn’t walk a mile in your shoes, I don’t see how you do it
How can one put up with so much & still not lose it?
I know I’m hard to love but I thank you for still holding on
Still having faith in what we have instead of dropping it & moving on

You’re trying to love me but don’t know what you’re in for
You don’t understand why I tend to push away before
Things go south & I’m left alone with no one to hear my cry
Or to understand the reasons why I wanna fly away
I tend to push those away if I feel they’re getting too close
Protecting myself of disaster from the heartbreak waiting to be diagnosed
I tend to drink more than I should & test your trust in me
Avoiding the love that you tell me you have for me
I’m lost as to why you still try to gain access to something so disturbing
Still insist on giving your love to someone undeserving
I’m hard to love, it’s a roller coaster of emotions
Causing you frustration just to see your mental explosions
I’m paranoid & I push you away time after time
Yet you see right thru my reasons & still desire to be mine
Love is about compromising & understanding, you define it perfectly
Healing a heart that’s been scarred by the corruptly
Short tempered with a short fuse & no patience
Being adored by an angel possessing a love that’s gracious
I don’t wanna make a million mistakes & take your love for granted
Just a troubled man with a broken heart & having issues trying to manage
I couldn’t walk a mile in your shoes, I don’t see how you do it
How can one put up with so much & still not lose it?
I know I’m hard to love but I thank you for still holding on
Still having faith in what we have instead of dropping it & moving on

If you got it all back, what would you do?
If you have the best love you’ve ever wanted, how could you lose?
If my love was your treasure, would you keep it locked away?
If you knew all of my secrets, would it scare your love away?
You loved me but you never were a fool for me
just another broken heart loving me childishly
Sometimes  I don’t believe you miss me, probably just miss using me
I fell deep in love with someone whose love was abusing me
We never made love to each other’s mind, too busy making love instead
Never understood my intellect but more focused on getting in bed
I don’t know if we’re really meant to be but you can’t stay away from me
it’s like you know you have undeniable access to my heart without the key
I know you want those good times & memories back, can’t lie I do too
but it’s the worry of whether or not if I can still trust you
I can’t make you choose between him or me but you know who never hurt you
Who never broke your heart & who’d never desert you
My heart began turning red so I wonder if you’ll speed to get here before I let go
Probably won’t be long until I forever walk out that door
You want it all back & I do too but at what cost will I pay
when you decide to take it for granted before I say goodbye

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

Today has a frown upon its face
due to the world being destroyed by evil & hate
Beliefs from the past have came to present
causing the hell within the adolescent

Today sheds a tear
from a world driven by terror & inspiring fear
No real guidance for the youth except ***, pain, & drugs
& I fear all the destruction the world is bound to become

But if Tomorrow begins to smile
I’ll see a brighter day with all evil dying out
A change for the better & faith for a better tomorrow
no tears to wipe, no scars to heal, & we’ll leave the pain from today’s sorrow

P e n c a s ******>

My deepest fear isn’t succeeding in life & facing defeat

but to gain everything I want, yet still feel incomplete

- Poetic Venom

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When Jae Cries, my heart breaks
I feel the affects when her heart shakes
Face red when she falls to her knees
Open my arms to hold her as she begs me please

When Jae Cries, it’s a sight I can’t bare to watch
And it’s frightening to see how it was caused
I look as she smiles when I wipe away the tears
Feeling secured in my arms & free from all fears

When Jae Cries, I feel her world crashing down
And I try to be her hero, it’s her I can’t live without
She gives me this feeling of being superhuman & complete
From the way she loves me to the way she sweeps me off my feet

But the beauty of Jae’s Cry
Is not the resemblance of a southern morning sky
How it speaks without even saying a word or making a sound
But the art created by nature & the inspiration that it surrounds

I often ask myself if All Women Are the Same
with the games they play
or when you try to give them your time & interest
they become distant but never explain they’re fading away

I often ask myself if All Women are the Same
feed you lies as if they’re truly into you
but it’s bs with excuse after excuse
just to keep from telling the truth
of why they don’t wanna talk to you

I often ask myself if All Women are the Same
when they tell you that they’re not like the rest
how your position is solid although you’re just a guest
occupying her time until her true interest acts right
& the whole time you feel like something isn’t right
but they never speak their truth to save your feelings
even when their intentions aren’t polite

Are All Women the Same?
with the games they play & the fake interest
gassing you up before they become distant
spreading this charm & it’s hard to resist it
looking for that mutual intimacy, only failing to realize
it never existed

- Poetic Venom

I resulted in doing things to cope with the pain
washing away the sorrow
watching my soul break down in the rain
living every day with a heart that’s hollow

I mixed all that anxiety powder with liquor to keep my leveled
listening to the voices within my head
stepping further away from God & closer to the devil
not caring if I live to see tomorrow or if I end up dead

Life took too many turns for the worst & I wasn’t ready
losing myself thru the feeling
looking death in the face & telling it I’m ready
pills & alcohol was my only source for the right healing
I’m only free from pain when I’m intoxicated
can’t cope with what’s killing me, life & emotions never fully cooperated
Never wanted to admit I was an addict until life was almost cut short
but I guess when you back is against the wall, death seems like the only resort

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

She Said;
What if I pulled a you on you?
What if I made you feel just as amazing as you make me do?
What if I made you feel like the King I see?
What if I gave you everything in me just like you do for me?
What if I eliminated all those doubts you had about love
& loved you regardless of the flaws you try to get me to judge
I’ve dealt with the wrong types all my life til' you came along
& made me feel like I’m above the clouds like I can’t do no wrong
When I was crying, you made me feel like your arms is where I belong
& when I thought I was weak, you made me feel like I was strong
So what if I pulled a You on You just to show you what that feeling is like
when you’ve found that One to make your world complete & ignite that light
that’s been faded out for so long to soon become afraid of the light
until something came along to remove that dark moon that provided darkness
which eventually made the sweetest heart go from being lovely to heartless
You need to know what it feels like to be appreciated, because just like me
you’ve given your everything several times but you still feel incomplete
Maybe then you’ll see the man that I see whenever I stare into your eyes
& there’s a beautiful creation within the beautiful disaster that deceives the eyes
- Poetic Venom

Yo Excuse Me Miss but I saw you from across the room
Thinking about all the ways that I’ll be Into You
cause I Need a Girl who’s willing to give me the Difference
of love to which my heart has been missing
Me, Myself, & I   is    All I Have
Even being Foolish & still upset with a heart broken aftermath
I don’t wanna Be Without You when No One else
can make me feel the way you do & it’s All Because of You
for every reason that I’m Still in Love With You
I used to have an Ice Box where my heart used to be
but I got Caught Up being in your Spotlight which is unlike me
& I Can’t Let You Go cause you’ve got me Feenin’
but I won’t start Frontin’ & Blame it on the Alcohol
We Belong Together cause when it comes to love, you give the true meaning

I feel like I’m Stuck on Stupid

whenever I’m With You

& although I’m the birth child of
Cupid

i try to be the Best Man I Can Be

& it’s Simply Amazing

cause All I Want is You my
Sweet Lady

& All My Life I’ve prayed for

that Angel of Mine, my
Cherie Amour  -Pencasso

I’ve been beyond the bottom, I survived every inch of hell
I’ve bled my own blood but still I aim to prevail
Life as you know it can be an emotional journey
I’ve hit rock bottom due to those who’ve hurt me
I’ve been addicted to pills, been addicted to self harm
Watched many that I love walk away when I went thru the storm
Many mistakes made, many struggles faced
Same broken records played, feeling alone in a beloved place
I failed once to be great but what’s progression if you stay down
Heavy is the Head of He who wears the Crown
Life isn’t perfect but neither am I
And I have too much to live for to give up & fly
You didn’t love me when I wanted to give it all up
You didn’t love me when I kept this wall up
So if I have to be perfect for you love me
then I don’t wanna be loved if it means you’ll judge me
At my Best, I will inspire those like me to be Great
no matter the struggles, trials, & tribulations or mistakes
You failed to love me when I was at my worst
so don’t bother loving me when I’m at my best

☆ Poetic Venxm Wrld ☆

I know you suffer more dark days than sunshine
I know things seem to get worse over time
I know your heart seems to get broken all the time
But smile little Miss Sunshine

Smile for the dark days won’t last forever
Smile for the pain will make you better
Smile for you’re remarkable beyond measure
Smile little Miss Sunshine

Smile for those tears will soon stop flowing
Smile for your presence that’ll soon start glowing
Smile for the end is nowhere in sight
Smile for your future is bright
Smile little Miss Sunshine

Smile, you’re worth more than you realize
Smile, wipe those tears from your eyes
Smile, though your heart’s been brutalized
Smile little Miss Sunshine

I see you falling head over heels for a man that’s not me
Feeling my heart shattered to pieces cause your love doesn’t want me
Ring finger glowing & you’re scared to be honest with me
You’re moving on to someone else, I guess you’re done with me
Thinking about it now, I know it’s a waste to say
That I should’ve loved you better but my pride got in the way
I realize this is the end & there’s no fixing what’s broken
Gotta take the high road & deal with these depressing emotions
The truth still remains that I love you more than you’ll ever know
But I hate the fact that I’m forced to let go
Heart’s breaking even more, the one I love no longer loves me
And the thought of you saying I Do to someone else just stuns me
Although our journey has come to an end
I just wanna see you happy & a new life begin
I won’t lie, I’m losing focus knowing you’re comfortable without me
My love made you feel incomplete, quality was very lousy
We used to be inseparable but things have sadly changed
Went from being a fairytale to being overly deranged
Does he hold like he never wants to let you go?
Does he kiss like he’s ready to feel that love flow?
If I had one wish then the old days would be gone
And we’d be in love once more where we originally begun
Miss your kiss, miss your touch, now it belongs to someone else
But I’ll see you around & hopefully there’s still a little love left

Here as I stand;
Feet planted in the evening beach sand
staring at the sunset
face full of tears trying to understand

As I let go;
I flashback to the memories we once created
all the times we’ve spent
& all the feelings that were vacated

As I say goodbye;
to a best friend & someone who shared my heart
I sadly move on
from what I used to be in love with but tore me apart

It was once filled with joy;
    it used to blossom in the sun
    but after being stuck in a few storms
    the rain from its petals continue to run

What was once the highlight of a sunny day;
    became a soaken delight
    only wishing that one day
    it’ll be happy from the roots that its soil writes

This Abandoned Flower;
    defines its own beauty but it only ignores
    the true meaning behind the uniqueness that’s instored
    within the essence of its pistil
    & maybe one day, it’ll grow to love what makes it so blissful

Poetic Venom

I never detail the contemplations to which my mind steers me
Forcing me to see that demon in the mirror that still drives this fear in me
It’s the fear of hitting my breaking point but not sure of how far I’ll go
Just to ease the pain I suffer from & will it cause my blood to flow
I keep having this dream where I’m stuck inside a bathroom, sitting in a bathtub
With a bottle of liquor, a razor blade, & a loaded gun sitting next to me on the floor
Candles lit, music blasting, but here I am shedding tears that everyone else ignores
I’m questioning why I never talk about these issues when i already know the reason
Revealing the dark truth about my suffering while trying stop many from leaving
So should I drink my sorrows away or take a bullet to the brain
Or cut myself to drown in a tub of blood before someone calls me mentally insane
Which poison do I choose? Which evil is worse than the other?
If this inner demon comes outta me, would the pain still be hard to discover?
I remain trapped within the mind as I stare at the ceiling as Monster plays in my head
Knowing that it’s only a matter of time before I either snap out of it or I end up dead
Clock’s ticking, blood’s spilling, liquor’s burning my liver, & my soul starts to shiver
I feel the monster inside of me coming out but I can’t bare to look into the mirror
Do I face the music finally or do I keep running away as it keeps breaking me down?
Pretending to be okay knowing on the inside my death is due to be announced
I’m in the final seconds & I still haven’t made my decision
Blade in my left hand with the gun cocked in my right
Threw the blade on the floor before I put the gun to my head
Saying my last goodbye to those I love but then I get that phone call
It’s my best friend crying hysterically trying to catch my fall
There’s a pound on the door but I’m refusing to open it
Cocking the gun back once more right before the door gets broken
BANG the gun goes off & I black out, waking up on the floor unconscious
Then I open my eyes seeing 3 people standing over me as I become nauseous
They pull me up as I’m looking over at the tub to realize that it was never real
It wasn’t me in the tub that I was trying to ****
No gun, no blade, & no bottle present just my phone face down with the music still playing
I just fell asleep on the floor next to that anxiety bottle that I was taking
But it made me realize how I got lost in that world seeking any way to escape
Even it it meant taking out myself just to get me away from that hell crafted place

I’ve heard rumors about this rose that’s been thru the lighting
Facing all types of let downs & it made life less exciting
This rose doesn’t smile the way it used to & I question
Why no one has ever cared enough to appreciate this blessing
It’s different from every other rose in many different ways
But being blind to it’s own uniqueness, it focuses on the flaws it displays
It’s not as beautiful as the other roses or looks the same
But it has one factor about it that changes everything
It feels hideous due to the cracks that lies between
The petals but it has something unlike anything I’ve ever seen
The tears of this rose tell the story that’s quite inspiring
And no matter how it tries to make itself seem unworthy, it’s still quite desiring
It’s just that one rose resting in the garden that stands out from the rest
Simply by being different in her own ways
Possessing scarred petals & wishing for shorter days
The Beauty of this Heartbroken Rose, you can’t deny it
There’s something rare & God given within so I pray that she finds it

Wake up every day feeling like the end is near
but if God got you then have no fear
Some days are bright, some days are dark
overwhelmed by the bad days but you still possess that spark
get up & look life in the eye
even when you crash, you’re still fly
What’s faith if you give up when times get hard
What’s the point of playing the game if you fold when your favor ain’t in the cards
Look at you, you’re blessed & highly favored
out here trying to make better & get this paper
Don’t worry about the hard times, they come & go
Trouble don’t last always so don’t you fold
Even when all Hope seems gone, God comes thru in the clutch
although people are full of it, in him you can always trust
God got you & you got you, you gone be alright
You’re a solider in the battlefield, don’t give up the fight
Life is a War & i refuse to let you give in during the struggle
I’ll keep you from going over when life got you in trouble
You gone be alright, keep ya head up & keep moving
Your win is soon to come, remain humble regardless if you’re winning or losing
- Poetic Venom