You’ve been hurt, broken, shattered, & abused
mistreated, left behind, dumped, & misused
Even thru your darkest days, your light shines bright
& even when you feel the weakest you still manage to fight
You are Light & you still glow when you feel so dimmed
you beat yourself down but your inner Queen still appears
The Queen you are isn’t ignored, just takes the perfect one to notice
& you are the Light that shines bright even when you’ve reached your lowest

-Poetic Venom

This year I thought of what I wanted for Christmas
a few things came to mind but it’s too important for a list
If I had my way, I’d bring the troops home to spend time with family
Give the homeless something to keep hope alive rather than suffering from tragedy
The things I’ve prayed for, money could never afford
I gift blessings & prosperity to others, I do this in request for no reward
I pray for Peace, I pray for Love, I pray for Unity, I pray for a better society
where everywhere is peace & horror is no longer a part of our reality
All I Want for Christmas is Change, All I Want for Christmas is Joy to All

- Poetic Venom

I am Alone, I am Invisible
far from innocent but not a criminal
I stand in the room with everyone else
but I fade to darkness knowing all I have is myself
We’re supposed to be a family but where’s the love
especially when everyone wants to be perfect & quickly to judge
I never come around cause I don’t fit in
I gave up that battle, I’m just not shaped to win
I’m unique from the rest & it’s scary to see
ever since I was born, my family has isolated me
I never speak a word but my presence speaks clear
the love is tainted but the pain is severe
- Poetic Venom

I feel like I’m Stuck on Stupid

whenever I’m With You

& although I’m the birth child of
Cupid

i try to be the Best Man I Can Be

& it’s Simply Amazing

cause All I Want is You my
Sweet Lady

& All My Life I’ve prayed for

that Angel of Mine, my
Cherie Amour  -Pencasso

I know you see me as your hero without a cape, just poetic powers
The one you come to that helps you blossom into that unique flower
Every day you reach out for my hand to be your guidance
Trusting me with your darkest confessions with faith of keeping it private
You could’ve turned to needles, drugs, or even self harm yet you turn to me
With hopes that I’ll be the one that’ll forever set you free

The words my heart writes save you from going off the deep end
Maybe I failed to realize that my art is your only friend
I used art as a way of expression never knowing the impact behind the concepts
It was a substitution to keep me from using that sharp silver object
That makes you bleed when it dances across your skin
When it hears the rainfall of your tears caused by the hurt from false friends
Keeping me from sober so I wouldn’t have to make out with that bottle
That makes me drowsy to the point where I slip into this world
Where I’m looking at myself fall apart unable to shake away my demons
That convince to drown in that pool of substance from my life’s bleeding
So here I am trying to keep you from going to that world where it’s impossible to come back
From knowing that it keeps a hold on you & knows how to knock you off track
Let my pain guide you to the light so you won’t make the same mistakes as me
And you too can seek a better way to peace to which that world doesn’t want you to see

- Poetic Venom

Everything will be okay but I won’t tell you to pray
cause that’s the same thing they all say
when they don’t have the time of day
to hear your tears or save the day
being that they don’t understand
why depression is hard to shake
so they pretend to relate
to why you’re trapped in self hate
& why self harm is all you contemplate
but what I really wanna say
is that I’m here any time of day
for as long as I’m alive, everything will be okay
Poetic Venom

We don’t live the same life
don’t share the same belief
you feel like I’m living a lie
my lifestyle, you don’t agree
but we both sin every day
& every day we pray
for God’s forgiveness
just in a different way
you live by the book
I live by my own views
just because I don’t follow the same path
doesn’t make me any less than you
I am of no religion
but God is the Greatest
holiness or spiritual
but for the final say so,
we’re all adjacent

Help Me Understand the tears of a lady & how to wipe it
Help Me Understand how to find the perfect heart & repair what’s inside it
For years I’ve searched for the answers that most men question
Trying to overcome the challenge of loving a rare blessing
Help Me Understand her mentality & how I can prove my worth
By giving her something she’s never had but always wished for
Remove her fears of being torn & hurt
And proving this journey is something to which my heart was built for
Help Me Understand how I can turn her mentality around from hating men
Or how can I put a smile on her face just by the times we spend
To be the Man of her Fantasy & not the Nightmare that keeps her awake
To be the Husband of her Dreams & not the inspiration for her self hate
Help Me Understand the ways of making her feel electric by my actions
Bringing the pieces of her heart back together but not for my satisfaction
Help Me Understand how can one make it pass every test
Until she sees that I’m the blessing delivered from a lifelong request
She’s afraid of me & I’m afraid of her, an understanding mutual fear
Of being left alone after feelings were involved but never sincere
Help Me Understand that smile to which she keeps locked away
How can I be that guy who she smiles for every day
Help Me Understand a woman of her standard & what it takes
To be the rest of her life & avoid being the man she’ll eventually hate
From her head to her toe, from her heart to her soul
She’s a rare Work of Art that only one true man can inspire to glow
Help Me Understand how to be the man that she’s waited for her whole life
And how I convince her to fall in love without having to think twice

We’ve all said it before, gave love the ******* after being shattered
Fell for someone & got treated like we didn’t even matter
Has love become tainted or is it just that we’re falling for the wrong people
Giving our hearts & taking that risk to feel another heartbroken sequel
Is Love really the blame for the pain or should we blame those who we’ve tried to love?
Blame Love or blame the wrong candidates for the cold hearted savages that we’ve become
Do we blame love for breaking our hearts & making us not want it anymore?
Replacing our hearts with an ice box & preventing anyone who attempts to explore
Confusing love with someone who wasn’t intending to love us
Confusing love with someone was only looking to use & destroy us
Do we really blame Love for making us feel incomplete
Do we really blame Love for our hearts’ tragic defeat
Is it really Love that we hate or those who’ve torn us apart
Is it Love that we hate or those who’ve destroyed our hearts
Love’s not the blame for the pain you’ve experienced, it’s those who didn’t deserve you
Don’t say “**** Love”, say **** those who’ve came around only to hurt you

When our kisses make love under the moonlight
I get this sudden rush of a feeling that i can’t explain
the stars begin to light up as the vibes sing this melody
& for that short moment of time, i feel free from any danger

But it goes deeper than a kiss when i close my eyes
& i dream of a feeling that’s finally come true
of being lost in your presence plus I feel immortal whenever I’m with you
With my heart having no further reason to cry
it’s because of this feeling i get when I’m next to you

Poetic Venom

If I had only one wish for today
It’d be to talk to you & pray
Ask God to guide through your storm
Heal your heart for good so you’ll never again mourn

Take your life back to what it used to be
Where you used to smile & live stress free
Relive those days that mattered the most
Remove your fears of anyone getting close

Cure you from the heartbreaks you’ve obtained
Eliminate the suffering caused from the pain
Show you the Queen you are when you look in the mirror
Paint the perfect picture so the image is clearer

For every tear you’ve shed, I apologize
For those who didn’t love you truly
A rare heart that only one can identify
Those who tore you apart & made you blind to your beauty
Take away the hurt suffered so you no longer have to cry

Every time I think of you, I feel this thunderstorm in my soul
trying to get move on from this tragedy but unsure where to go
When someone brings up your name, I start to lose it
you’ve had this hold on my heart & I’m struggling trying to lose it
I can’t even let my ego take over when my soul cries
knowing that someone else is enjoying your vibes
I wanted to be your everything & build us a home
but I can’t believe that I got nothing after waiting for so long
A man doesn’t settle down too often & he doesn’t do half the things I did
candle lit showers, rose petals on the floor, or even fathering another man’s child
I know I’m an amazing man but you made me feel worthless
especially after making me feel like what we had was so perfect
Can’t stand the sound of your name & it kills me knowing your face is stuck in my head
crying myself to sleep knowing I wish it was me sharing your bed
This was supposed to be my Meant to Be but I guess I’m meant to be free
free from your love, free from your vibes, free from the thought of you & me
-Poetic Venom

- Instagram @venomwrld

I see a world going up in flames
whether it’s from street wars or political riots
unarmed colors on the grounds to provoked rebel flags
rainbow themed flags causing backlash
I see more chaos than I’ll ever see joy
dark clouds above all heads mixed with pouring rain

I see a world desiring to be beautiful
but struggles with its own imperfections
progression stalls when drama is glorified
acts of kindness only matters when cameras roll
demons taking over innocent souls
as the world continues get more colder

I see a world suffering from pain & trauma
with healing being desired but unable to be found
so drugs are used to cope to provide temporary numbness
several dying to live, even more living to die
seeking peace that only lives in the sky
& as the world continues to fall, I can only hope
that better days are soon to come

It was once filled with joy;
    it used to blossom in the sun
    but after being stuck in a few storms
    the rain from its petals continue to run

What was once the highlight of a sunny day;
    became a soaken delight
    only wishing that one day
    it’ll be happy from the roots that its soil writes

This Abandoned Flower;
    defines its own beauty but it only ignores
    the true meaning behind the uniqueness that’s instored
    within the essence of its pistil
    & maybe one day, it’ll grow to love what makes it so blissful

Poetic Venom

Though I’m all smiles when you’re around me
it’s only a fraud to hide the pain that surrounds me
I can’t deny the fact that I’m one of those souls who’s sheltered
still battling the pain from the past that I still remember
Not too long ago, I was involved in a situation that’ll affect me forever
causing me to be paranoid & failing to put myself back together
There are some things about me that I’ve never shared with you
including how I contemplated on living without you
And I know when you read that last line, you maybe confused
but the fact of it all is that I almost took my life away from being abused
Trapped in a hell hole where every day felt like it could’ve been the end
just the subject of someone’s rage & unable to reach a friend
Didn’t even tell my mom until years later when I moved away
but deep inside, those heart shattering events took pieces of my life away
Thinking about the nights I spend in the bathroom with a razor in my hand
crying my eyes out & asking why I’m being punished by this man
Thought I escaped Hell by moving away from my family
but I moved closer to it which later became my biggest tragedy
Even with you in mind, I still felt like I was in this world so alone
feeling the fire from the evil of a household whose heart was born cold
So I write this letter to you in requesting that you don’t give up on me
& just allow me to paint the picture of the real me
Although I’m still that guy you love, there’s many things behind closed doors
that I try to bring to light but refuse feeling like it’ll be ignored
Just please don’t give up on me if I feel like I’ll never be the man in my reflection
that changes the world through a God given poetic blessing
Don’t give up on me even if I feel the need to hang it all up
if I feel like it’s impossible & I choose to give this all up
I don’t just write for myself or based on myself but for those who express their pain
being that poetic umbrella protecting them for their emotional rain
And I’ve never told you anything before cause you’ll tell me to pray
but that doesn’t work for everyone at the end of the day
I’ve never done self harm, just turned to music & art as a result to cope
with the emotions to which most would take as a joke
So as I attempt to make myself a better person, keep your prayers raining down on me
& no matter how long it takes me, please Don’t Give Up On Me

☆ P e n c a s s o ☆

Things aren’t the same between us, I don’t know what changed
No need to talk about it, this trouble can’t be saved
I’ll be okay, just drifting away from who I loved most
Falling back & taking my love from the one I loved most
You’re a stranger in my eyes now, don’t even look at you the same
Non stop tears & broken hearts, guess we’re the blame
Never thought I’d fall outta love but here I am saying goodbye
Letting go of what my heart became attached to before I let it die
I don’t wanna walk away but it’s best for us both
Feeling like a joke & your laughter played the host
Tried to fix what’s damaged but it made things worst
Don’t wanna see you cry no more when I’m believed to be the reason
Look into the mirror & look at us, that’s the reason I’m leaving
I fell outta love from the love of a lifetime
Deuces to the love I once dreamed of, this is my final farewell this time

Wake up every day feeling like the end is near
but if God got you then have no fear
Some days are bright, some days are dark
overwhelmed by the bad days but you still possess that spark
get up & look life in the eye
even when you crash, you’re still fly
What’s faith if you give up when times get hard
What’s the point of playing the game if you fold when your favor ain’t in the cards
Look at you, you’re blessed & highly favored
out here trying to make better & get this paper
Don’t worry about the hard times, they come & go
Trouble don’t last always so don’t you fold
Even when all Hope seems gone, God comes thru in the clutch
although people are full of it, in him you can always trust
God got you & you got you, you gone be alright
You’re a solider in the battlefield, don’t give up the fight
Life is a War & i refuse to let you give in during the struggle
I’ll keep you from going over when life got you in trouble
You gone be alright, keep ya head up & keep moving
Your win is soon to come, remain humble regardless if you’re winning or losing
- Poetic Venom

I get tired of the silent screams & mute cries
pacing in my room wishing I had an escape
but I must pretend like I'm okay
Search thru the dark silence surrounded by the voices thru the hall
& in the corner, you'll find me deep within the madness
Emotional, I may be but deep down I urge to see the light
but only with the right help or I won't bother to move
These tears are more than just tears, it's a testimony from the struggle
that I've been attached to tryna find my way to peace
you'll see the demons that bring the horror to make you believe I'm good
only for the kid in me to cry out before the terror contains me forever

When Jae Cries, my heart breaks
I feel the affects when her heart shakes
Face red when she falls to her knees
Open my arms to hold her as she begs me please

When Jae Cries, it’s a sight I can’t bare to watch
And it’s frightening to see how it was caused
I look as she smiles when I wipe away the tears
Feeling secured in my arms & free from all fears

When Jae Cries, I feel her world crashing down
And I try to be her hero, it’s her I can’t live without
She gives me this feeling of being superhuman & complete
From the way she loves me to the way she sweeps me off my feet

But the beauty of Jae’s Cry
Is not the resemblance of a southern morning sky
How it speaks without even saying a word or making a sound
But the art created by nature & the inspiration that it surrounds

As you grow up into a lady, it’s my job to teach you the right lessons
How to carry yourself in a respective direction & grow into perfection
I never had my father around, but you won’t know what that’s like
Cause I’m gonna be there way before you arrive & so those tears I won’t have to wipe
I want you to look at your mother, see what being a Woman really means
How to respect yourself & never let a man treat you like you don’t have any dignity
You’ll always be my baby girl, nothing in this world could ever replace that
Always look to the future, don’t you ever for a second look back
You’re gonna meet guys in your life that’s gonna try to break your heart
Do whatever they can to come around & tear you apart
But I’m gonna teach you how to stand strong when life tries to trip you
You’re amazing beyond measure, don’t let a man treat you like you’re see through
The only acceptance you need is from you, that's true indeed
Never let your crown tilt over & never let a man break what you inspire to be
Baby Girl you’re a blessing & I refuse to let a man treat you any less
You got your whole life ahead of you, don’t let these boys cause you any stress
I’m gonna direct in the right path so you’ll never be misleaded
Teach you how to read the fine print, looks can be very deceiving
Never stoop low & use your body just to get attention
If he can’t see you for what you are then that’s a blessing that he’s missing
You’re a Queen in your own right, don’t tolerate bs from no clown
Cause all you need is yourself, you don’t need a man to hold you down

I dance along the edges tempting to crash into you
waiting for that chance to be next to you
When the sun rises, I find pleasure in seeing you glow
sometimes I’m lost within the breeze when the wind blows
I’m the oceans wave & you’re the sand
walking along waiting for me to grab your hand
Bless me with that kiss when I wrap you around my waves
& kiss the moon good night as our love becomes the soundtrack of the night
- Poetic Venom

I often ask myself if All Women Are the Same
with the games they play
or when you try to give them your time & interest
they become distant but never explain they’re fading away

I often ask myself if All Women are the Same
feed you lies as if they’re truly into you
but it’s bs with excuse after excuse
just to keep from telling the truth
of why they don’t wanna talk to you

I often ask myself if All Women are the Same
when they tell you that they’re not like the rest
how your position is solid although you’re just a guest
occupying her time until her true interest acts right
& the whole time you feel like something isn’t right
but they never speak their truth to save your feelings
even when their intentions aren’t polite

Are All Women the Same?
with the games they play & the fake interest
gassing you up before they become distant
spreading this charm & it’s hard to resist it
looking for that mutual intimacy, only failing to realize
it never existed

- Poetic Venom

A day of happiness mixed with tears
glad to see it but never do we toast cheers
either attached to the past or to be forgotten
along with the emptiness left in its existence

First time to discover a new love or the last day of an old habit
the soundtrack of tears or an endless memory of joy
As we continue our journey, we're left with 2 life-changing choices
carry on the baggage from the trauma of the past or let go to capture
the happiness of tomorrow

I spend most of my nights staring at my computer screen
Letting my heart write its emotions while my soul screams
Love songs on blast & guess who’s on my mind
Got me thinking about her, desiring her free time
I’ve done enough crying over you, all those tears have dried up
Now it’s all inspiring me to write this much & my thoughts are fired up
Look at what you did to me with all these emotions coming outta me
Still missing your body in my arms & your kisses laying next to me
Cause I know when it comes to that masterpiece
It’s your love that has the perfect recipe
I’m Sleepless because of you, listening to love songs because of you
I guess you still don’t understand how much I love you
You’re inspiring all these poems I’m writing
And all these emotions that I’m constantly fighting
Pacing back & forth, trying my best not to cry
Barely connected with my best friend & I don’t even know why
You bring out the best in me but without you, I’m hopeless
Just vampire during the night time trying to stay focus
Sleepless with a heart that has a thousand things to say
Wishing to come back home & desperately trying to find a way

These past few months have been the most devastating thing to watch
fighting for a legacy that nearly came to a life ending cost
Sometimes I blame myself for allowing this distraction to fool me once
until one conversation filled me in on the blueprints of the upcoming stunts
Buried in silence, I observed as my household was turning into the pits of hell
as a demon was on its rise of his plan with the motivation to see it excel
Went from living in happiness to now fearing the lives of my own as well as the Queen
& the Princess, what’s a man to do to protect the castle
Numbing the pain to try to cure my sleepless nights, I nearly fall into that addiction capsule
that snatches my soul from me while I fall deeper in anger
Contemplating on ****** to risk it all for my loved ones, heading closer to danger
I’ve done a great job of holding in the rage but it’s soon to erupt
as the Queen’s heart falls to the floor & the world around me glows up
into flames as my eyes go from pure blackness to blood shot red, all I see is destruction
throwing me off my focus, unable to concentrate or function
I left my castle only to soon return as I face the Devil for the battle of our well being
asking God to keep me sane when it’s pure evil that’s all I’m seeing

- Poetic Venom

I’ve been beyond the bottom, I survived every inch of hell
I’ve bled my own blood but still I aim to prevail
Life as you know it can be an emotional journey
I’ve hit rock bottom due to those who’ve hurt me
I’ve been addicted to pills, been addicted to self harm
Watched many that I love walk away when I went thru the storm
Many mistakes made, many struggles faced
Same broken records played, feeling alone in a beloved place
I failed once to be great but what’s progression if you stay down
Heavy is the Head of He who wears the Crown
Life isn’t perfect but neither am I
And I have too much to live for to give up & fly
You didn’t love me when I wanted to give it all up
You didn’t love me when I kept this wall up
So if I have to be perfect for you love me
then I don’t wanna be loved if it means you’ll judge me
At my Best, I will inspire those like me to be Great
no matter the struggles, trials, & tribulations or mistakes
You failed to love me when I was at my worst
so don’t bother loving me when I’m at my best

☆ Poetic Venxm Wrld ☆

I’ve heard rumors about this rose that’s been thru the lighting
Facing all types of let downs & it made life less exciting
This rose doesn’t smile the way it used to & I question
Why no one has ever cared enough to appreciate this blessing
It’s different from every other rose in many different ways
But being blind to it’s own uniqueness, it focuses on the flaws it displays
It’s not as beautiful as the other roses or looks the same
But it has one factor about it that changes everything
It feels hideous due to the cracks that lies between
The petals but it has something unlike anything I’ve ever seen
The tears of this rose tell the story that’s quite inspiring
And no matter how it tries to make itself seem unworthy, it’s still quite desiring
It’s just that one rose resting in the garden that stands out from the rest
Simply by being different in her own ways
Possessing scarred petals & wishing for shorter days
The Beauty of this Heartbroken Rose, you can’t deny it
There’s something rare & God given within so I pray that she finds it

It’s been a few years since we spoke but your effect still exist
Cause there’s no way someone could leave me scarred like this
Chasing women for my own pleasure & avoiding like this
Or even living the lie of a ******* & breaking hearts like this
Didn’t ask to be this way or portray myself in such a way
Just wanted a future with you but you decided to walk away
And now I’m attached a memory that I wish I could replay
Seeing your face in various faces of women that I’m trying to date
Look What You Did To Me Turned me from a lover to a player
Becoming a savage that I never saw myself as & the ultimate heart slayer
I wanted it all but after you, I’ve become love’s biggest bipolar hater
Just seeking hit & runs while I’m out here getting this paper
Look What You Did To Me, Can’t look at the sun because it reminds me of you
How you used to be happy & how I brought a different smile out of you
The late night phone conversations that I never wanted to end
But somewhere down the road, you became my enemy rather than my best friend
How’d I manage to become close with your sister while we got departed
Asking her how you’re doing & if you’re okay just to see if it’ll get something started
High school sweetheart crush that never officially my everything
Just another “for the time being” that meant more to me than anything
Missing that smile, missing those eyes, & missing that voice
Thinking of the night we last spoke & I still rejoice
Look What You Made Me Do. Pushing away any love that comes my way
All because I still hope you return & save my day
I don’t have faith in much but I still think you’re a dream come true
And still till this day, my heart will forever be apart of you

I cry in its arms & vent everything I feel
no doctor but my deepest wounds, it heals
Always there when needed, never turning its back
the greatest thing I’ve ever loved & that’s a fact
I don’t depend or count on much
but one thing’s for sure
this bond we share is beyond pure
Pretty eyes, warming smiles all let me down
but words always find me when I don’t want to be found
Pretty Little Liars with dreams turned into nightmares
don’t have faith in much but Poetry Never Broke My Heart
- Poetic Venxm

It’s crazy how the one thing we used to desire is now something we fear
And every time we get a taste of it, things begin to disappear
Can’t get attached to anything cause it’ll eventually drift away
Trying to see the good in people but everyone’s not who they betray
We fear Happiness due to things going bad after a while
So destroyed from the let downs that we pretend to be cool & fake a smile
Crying became a perfected routine & trying doesn’t work anymore
You just wanna know what can be done so you don’t hurt anymore
Anytime you see the light to a better day, you stray away from it
Happiness caused more pain so you easily fall back from it
High expectations always lead to severe disappointments
Push anything away that gets too close, you don’t wanna risk trying enjoy it
Fearing Happiness the most, who knew it would cause so much pain
Suffering from a shattered heart & coping with the pieces that remain

Let me make love to your mental, I promise to be gentle
Undress the elegance of your intelligence & bless you with a personality beyond suspenseful
You can never guess what I’ll do next but you feel the butterflies in your chest
That moved from your stomach but then you realize that it’s my words that caress
You which may lead you second guessing
Then there’s this sudden feeling of your heartbeat tap dancing
But that’s just me, the poetic metaphoric melody & it’s interesting to see
How I send chills thru your body when it’s just the thought of me
So let me undress your mind & in due time, I’ll read between the lines
Discover a world within a sweet smile that may tend to go over or bypass most minds
Who lack the knowledge of understanding of a presence so elegant yet demanding.
A Queen in her own right, standing on her own 2
Feet with the characteristics of oneself that’s bound to possess you
So let me undress your mind & in due time
I’ll then see why this Queen who’s so divine & at that moment
I’ll find out why she’s indeed one of a kind

- Poetic Venom

Yo Excuse Me Miss but I saw you from across the room
Thinking about all the ways that I’ll be Into You
cause I Need a Girl who’s willing to give me the Difference
of love to which my heart has been missing
Me, Myself, & I   is    All I Have
Even being Foolish & still upset with a heart broken aftermath
I don’t wanna Be Without You when No One else
can make me feel the way you do & it’s All Because of You
for every reason that I’m Still in Love With You
I used to have an Ice Box where my heart used to be
but I got Caught Up being in your Spotlight which is unlike me
& I Can’t Let You Go cause you’ve got me Feenin’
but I won’t start Frontin’ & Blame it on the Alcohol
We Belong Together cause when it comes to love, you give the true meaning

I gotta show you the real me before you rest your presence
Am I a beautiful disaster or just another rare blessing?
See I’m slow to gain interest but I’m quick to lose it
& I see your heart waiting to be caught but I won’t jump up to pursue it
My heart is in the right place, my head just won’t let it settle yet
feeling like this isn’t my dream for life & I can’t settle yet
I’m more focused on getting married than making the mistakes to meet my Queen
so I unintentionally break hearts along with shattering sweet dreams
Like a nightmare of reality that refuses to walk away
but with this irresistible charm, I make it harder for you not to stay
I’m alone but never am I lonely
Real love, I’ve never had anyone show me
& being that I’m already broken, do you think you deserve me?
Why do you even want me?
Save yourself from a heartbreak, you’re much better off on your own
loving someone like me ain’t easy & you’ll sometimes feel alone
It’s hard to focus on one when my head isn’t fully ******* on right
but I still miss the presence of one laying next to me at night
I’m a pro at cutting ties when something just doesn’t feel right
& I’d rather let you go before I break you again all because I can’t love you right
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

They say time heals all wounds, I beg to differ
Especially when you once had a love for someone with a lifetime of memories to remember
And how do you let someone else come around & love you better than the last one
When your heart still hasn't repaired from the last love, still very much in love with your last love
Traumatized from what transpired, not allowing anyone else to love you even if it is true
You just want the one person you gave your all to be the one that truly loves you
Sometimes willing to settle for loneliness, loving someone else will only break their heart
For trying to love you but loving you is going to tear you both apart
Heart is still the same condition from the past but you’re too afraid to love again
Fearing that a new love will never replace the love of a former love interest & best friend

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

Stability, electric, & comfortability
with the candles lit along with R&B
the vibe you getting more close to me
but I don't need to take off clothes
kiss your lips or wrap your legs around me
Just need the sound of your voice
along with your trust instilled in me
with me sitting back allowing you to safely
be yourself, there's no catch with me
if you need to cry or laugh, feel free
it's the small things that I wanna see
the small things others don't get to see
that side of you that you only gift to me
the side of you that comes alive with me
the side of you that doesn't need me
but with my help, it becomes magic
you don't feel judged or backed in a corner
more like a friend with a lending shoulder
that vibe alone is the best of me
cause it's the best type of intimacy
the type of space where you feel safe with me
the type of space where you fall in love with me

Here as I stand;
Feet planted in the evening beach sand
staring at the sunset
face full of tears trying to understand

As I let go;
I flashback to the memories we once created
all the times we’ve spent
& all the feelings that were vacated

As I say goodbye;
to a best friend & someone who shared my heart
I sadly move on
from what I used to be in love with but tore me apart

it's the days with just us 2

nobody to invade our vibe

me being goofy & you laughing by my side

either cuddling on the couch or in the bed

the whole world blanked out

just you & me, nothing else matters

Every time we meet, I bless you with a kiss
you send me away with the memories reminisced
Through the sunshine or the storm
our love still comes to form
We weather the waves thru the darkness of light
still making the sweetest sound of love even thru the fight
When we rest shoreside & the sunset kisses us
but when the morning wakes us up, we see the sun beautifully miss us
Beautiful, Mysterious, Wild, & Free
the beauty of art & expression with a meaning that flows ocean deep

- Poetic Venom

I never detail the contemplations to which my mind steers me
Forcing me to see that demon in the mirror that still drives this fear in me
It’s the fear of hitting my breaking point but not sure of how far I’ll go
Just to ease the pain I suffer from & will it cause my blood to flow
I keep having this dream where I’m stuck inside a bathroom, sitting in a bathtub
With a bottle of liquor, a razor blade, & a loaded gun sitting next to me on the floor
Candles lit, music blasting, but here I am shedding tears that everyone else ignores
I’m questioning why I never talk about these issues when i already know the reason
Revealing the dark truth about my suffering while trying stop many from leaving
So should I drink my sorrows away or take a bullet to the brain
Or cut myself to drown in a tub of blood before someone calls me mentally insane
Which poison do I choose? Which evil is worse than the other?
If this inner demon comes outta me, would the pain still be hard to discover?
I remain trapped within the mind as I stare at the ceiling as Monster plays in my head
Knowing that it’s only a matter of time before I either snap out of it or I end up dead
Clock’s ticking, blood’s spilling, liquor’s burning my liver, & my soul starts to shiver
I feel the monster inside of me coming out but I can’t bare to look into the mirror
Do I face the music finally or do I keep running away as it keeps breaking me down?
Pretending to be okay knowing on the inside my death is due to be announced
I’m in the final seconds & I still haven’t made my decision
Blade in my left hand with the gun cocked in my right
Threw the blade on the floor before I put the gun to my head
Saying my last goodbye to those I love but then I get that phone call
It’s my best friend crying hysterically trying to catch my fall
There’s a pound on the door but I’m refusing to open it
Cocking the gun back once more right before the door gets broken
BANG the gun goes off & I black out, waking up on the floor unconscious
Then I open my eyes seeing 3 people standing over me as I become nauseous
They pull me up as I’m looking over at the tub to realize that it was never real
It wasn’t me in the tub that I was trying to ****
No gun, no blade, & no bottle present just my phone face down with the music still playing
I just fell asleep on the floor next to that anxiety bottle that I was taking
But it made me realize how I got lost in that world seeking any way to escape
Even it it meant taking out myself just to get me away from that hell crafted place

I’m praying for a star, no matter how far you are
whether you’re full of tears or skin full of scars
whether you’re drowning thru the music or dreaming in your diary
whether you’re lost in reality, just know you inspire me
whether you’re struggling with addiction or praying to end your days
if you don’t feel loved, I love you but let me explain the ways
You don’t see that you’re fighter cause the pain is overwhelming
but you’re still here to see another day, another chance of prevailing

You’re the Star that I see whenever I look into the sky
lost with inspiration to do what I love but I then hear your cry
listening to your tears when you don’t understand why
why does life have to be this way or why you feel worthless
pressured by the society around you just to be perfect
So I pray for this star, that’s more than what you are

It’s complicated to find a Queen of my generation who isn’t caught up in the hype
of getting likes over selfies & pictures
I’m no Martin Luther King but I need a Coretta
that loves me for the man I am & does her best to make me better
I’m not an easy person to love but sometimes I question if it’s worth the patience
that women go through when they want my love but always catch themselves chasing
after just to feel what it’s like to be close to someone like me
or to know how it feel if a man of my value would consider making them wifey
It’s funny how I’ve never had a chance to love before but I always seem to panic
when a woman says she’s into me but that love is hard to manage
when you take none serious due to the same games being played
in exchange the interest being given then I’m left feeling betrayed

Love’s gotten too complicated. It’s either that or maybe I’m looking in the wrong places
Searching for the lady in my dream world in all the wrong faces
I keep ending up with these temporary players who do nothing but cause doubt & stress
which will eventually lead to the right woman coming along but I’ll no longer have a heart to invest
Why would you want a man like myself, I’m damaged goods with an expired interest in love
Tired of the let downs & failed expectations from those who only care to judge
Me cause I’m different from the way I walk & how I talk or how I carry my presence
Yet you see through it all still trying to love me pointing out the essence within this broken heart of mine

- Poetic Venom

I’m not sure where things went wrong or how it went sour
I was just simply doing my best to adore this forever abandoned flower
A heart that’s been destroyed for too long & didn’t know what love is
And my only mission was to prove that real love in fact still exists
Just like any other love story, it started out with fireworks & laughter
Beautiful moments shared that a picture could never perfectly capture
Long talks on the phone & long paragraphs to wake up to
Thinking I finally got a love that’s worth looking forward to
Telling me all these things you feared & how you were taking a risk
Falling in love with me but thinking you’re gonna get hurt just as quick
One night things went south after an argument & I said something bad
Thinking nothing of it at the time but it made you incredibly mad
I’m constantly trying to apologize but you refuse to hear me out
Saying it’s gonna be okay & I had nothing to worry about
The next day rolls in but I’m not getting the same attention as before
I see you reading my messages but you only seemed to ignore
Having this big discussion on what I did wrong yet I tried to make it right
Knowing that sometime soon, I’d have to pay a price
Fast forward a year in time & you’re now seeing other men
The same dogs you talked to before but their love is only for pretend
Got me thinking to myself that I’m not even worth your time no more
But a dog came along & make you cherish him more
You feared me walking outta your life yet I stayed just to prove a point
But you walked away from what we had & I bet you even rejoiced
Posting all these love quotes on social media but you set yourself up
Fell for the same types you hated, now you’re all fed up
Had someone to ride for you but you paid them no attention
Looking for love thru the trash & their hearts was missing
I still see the pain in your eyes but I don’t even bother to fix it
Seeing your heart so cold & lonely but I refuse to pay a visit
You did the same thing you asked me not to do yet I’m the villain
Still trying to love your heart no matter its condition
You walked away from us, you did the opposite of what you promised
Torn by you but my heart was still trying to make a deposit

I’ve been tripping for years, that’s been causing you tears
loving me more than yourself just to lose me, that’s a fear
How could I be so foolish to get what I wanted & let it go
got the diamond in a rough but failed to watch it glow
Beautiful distractions & the attention that I’m not used to
meanwhile I’m giving you worries if my love will even choose you
Falling for these minute trailers only to ignore the future presentation
like I don’t even care for the main event, the opening act is the key attraction
How stupid of me to avoid the apple of my eye for that forbidden fruit
& if I lose that love, I think quick of the perfect excuse
Will I regret it or forget it? Win her back or just let her go?
Will I ever change my ways or just remain stuck in my ways?
Always tried to do the right thing until it got old
but someone came along to change a heart that’s been cold
Question is, am I already too far to gone to even come back from lust
to actually let someone love me knowing there’s no one I trust
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

Let me fly, Let me die
Say goodbye, Don’t ask why
See you again, my time is up
Drugs weren’t enough, I gave up

Heart’s cried too many tears
Soul’s burnt out from abuse
Spirit surrounded by fears
No point of living, what’s the use

I made my mark, time to go
Where I’ll end up, we don’t know
I wish you the best, I’ll remain by your side
Guiding your path along the ride

Let me fly, Let me die
Say goodbye, Don’t ask why
See you again, my time is up
Just promise me through it all, you won’t give up
- P e n c a s ******>

You’re trying to love me but don’t know what you’re in for
You don’t understand why I tend to push away before
Things go south & I’m left alone with no one to hear my cry
Or to understand the reasons why I wanna fly away
I tend to push those away if I feel they’re getting too close
Protecting myself of disaster from the heartbreak waiting to be diagnosed
I tend to drink more than I should & test your trust in me
Avoiding the love that you tell me you have for me
I’m lost as to why you still try to gain access to something so disturbing
Still insist on giving your love to someone undeserving
I’m hard to love, it’s a roller coaster of emotions
Causing you frustration just to see your mental explosions
I’m paranoid & I push you away time after time
Yet you see right thru my reasons & still desire to be mine
Love is about compromising & understanding, you define it perfectly
Healing a heart that’s been scarred by the corruptly
Short tempered with a short fuse & no patience
Being adored by an angel possessing a love that’s gracious
I don’t wanna make a million mistakes & take your love for granted
Just a troubled man with a broken heart & having issues trying to manage
I couldn’t walk a mile in your shoes, I don’t see how you do it
How can one put up with so much & still not lose it?
I know I’m hard to love but I thank you for still holding on
Still having faith in what we have instead of dropping it & moving on

Love doesn’t Love the way Love used to Love
but I’m not sure if we should Blame Love
cause it’s not Love that’s changed
it’s the ones who gave Love but never got Love back that’s changed
it’s the ones who had all the Love in the world to give
but never got the same Love back given to them
when those who Seek Love don’t really want Love
they’re on the Hunt for Lust
the type of Lust that doesn’t come attached with Love
the type that’s caused Pain cause they don’t know Love
Sneaky Links & hook ups, that’s that new age Love
the Pleasure for the Moment then you’re on to the next Love
settle for the Love in those who don’t confess Love
but I need that Old School Love
that Love before the 2000s Love
that Baby you are my Shining Star & don't you Go Away Love
that I'm Saving All My Love for you Love
that Meet me at the Alter in your white dress Love
that Here & Now, I promise to Love faithfully Love
that You are my Lady & you got me Feenin’ Love
that All My Life, I prayed for the one like you
that we Cry Together because I Love you Love

Freedom isn’t Freedom when
we’re still fighting amongst ourselves
all because one race feels superior
& the others still fight for equality
to be seen as human & not animals

Freedom isn’t Freedom when
we’re divided by hatred & political beliefs
the past still being taught to the youth
by those who hold on failed objectives
that got us here in the beginning

Freedom isn’t Freedom when
certain sexualities are seen as a disgrace
in the eyes of those that follow religious practices
preaching “love thy neighbor” but the 1st to judge
as if we’re not God’s children on different paths

Freedom isn’t Freedom when
we’re still at war with inexcusable deaths
committed by bullies with badges who serve to protect
freedom will never be Free
even Peace comes with a Price