The picture is clear
but the essence breaks me
to admire the concept
yet the idea hates me

To feel appealing
but lack the origins
or the praise from within
to accept the
beauty within the ugliness

They say pictures are worth
a million words
but sometimes, the art
can’t get over the curbs
fearing what lies
on the other side of life

To most, it may seem pointless
but to certain eyes
it’s a work of expression
afraid of indulging in its
own blessing   - Pencasso

I resulted in doing things to cope with the pain
washing away the sorrow
watching my soul break down in the rain
living every day with a heart that’s hollow

I mixed all that anxiety powder with liquor to keep my leveled
listening to the voices within my head
stepping further away from God & closer to the devil
not caring if I live to see tomorrow or if I end up dead

Life took too many turns for the worst & I wasn’t ready
losing myself thru the feeling
looking death in the face & telling it I’m ready
pills & alcohol was my only source for the right healing
I’m only free from pain when I’m intoxicated
can’t cope with what’s killing me, life & emotions never fully cooperated
Never wanted to admit I was an addict until life was almost cut short
but I guess when you back is against the wall, death seems like the only resort

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

I’ve hurt you more than once, you’ve hurt me more than once
We’ve had our ups & downs, our good days & our bad days
I really loved you so I let you go hoping you’d come back to me
while dealing with the sad truth to my reality
That man you met no longer exist & the new me catches you by surprise
breaking my heart with every tear that I see falling from your eyes
For every day I pray that it’s you laying next to me when I wake
holding each other in arms just to ensure the feeling of being safe
We’ve tried to love other people but coincidentally, it never worked out
making me feel as though it’s our love that we can’t do without
That heart you wanted is waiting here for you to grasp it
cause you & I both know that this love of ours is beyond fantastic
But it’s hurting me when I realize that I struck out only once
& I may not ever get the chance to prove that it’s YOU that I only see my future with
So I cry my eyes out every chance I get knowing I’ll never get the heart I’m so attached to
but nothing is more painful knowing that you’ll never understand just how much I loved you
- Poetic Venom

You told me I could confide in you
but what’s the use when I can’t get comfort from you
Every time I bring tears your way, you turn your back on me
yet whenever you vent, you can always depend on me
The fact that I’m shut off from the world & you’re the one I chose
to reveal the pain inside that world doesn’t yet know
I’m different from you but maybe that’s the issue
cause you see the hell in me & mad cause I can’t be like you
If you’re your brothers keeper, why make me feel like a burden
why make me feel like the hell I’ve felt, I deserved it
With all the depression that I suffer, what would you do
if you woke up one day & I’m no longer there with you
like I finally decided to call it quits & take matters in my own hands
You see my soul flying away with my blood buried in the sands
So I ask you this, if I’m really your “brother” then why make me feel alone
especially if you told me that your arms is like another home
What are Brothers For? Funny I keep asking myself the same question
when the brotherhood that I honor causes more misery than a blessing
It hurts like hell cause you’re the one I trust more than most
& it’s a shame that when I need to seek comfort, my pain is better off as a death note
- Poetic Venom

You’re trying to love me but don’t know what you’re in for
You don’t understand why I tend to push away before
Things go south & I’m left alone with no one to hear my cry
Or to understand the reasons why I wanna fly away
I tend to push those away if I feel they’re getting too close
Protecting myself of disaster from the heartbreak waiting to be diagnosed
I tend to drink more than I should & test your trust in me
Avoiding the love that you tell me you have for me
I’m lost as to why you still try to gain access to something so disturbing
Still insist on giving your love to someone undeserving
I’m hard to love, it’s a roller coaster of emotions
Causing you frustration just to see your mental explosions
I’m paranoid & I push you away time after time
Yet you see right thru my reasons & still desire to be mine
Love is about compromising & understanding, you define it perfectly
Healing a heart that’s been scarred by the corruptly
Short tempered with a short fuse & no patience
Being adored by an angel possessing a love that’s gracious
I don’t wanna make a million mistakes & take your love for granted
Just a troubled man with a broken heart & having issues trying manage
I couldn’t walk a mile in your shoes, I don’t see how you do it
How can one put up with so much & still not lose it?
I know I’m hard to love but I thank you for still holding on
Still having faith in what we have instead of dropping it & moving on

found freedom within the cage

found relief within the rage

born again in the worst way

the old me I tried to save

found peace within the madness

poetic with razors using my skin as a canvas

in the mirror, I no longer see me

but the monster that became me

It’s hard for me to say it but you inspire me
Thoughts of you constantly ignite the fire in me
Looking at my best friend’s daughter then I get *******
Cause her dad’s like you, another deadbeat who had a kid & ran off
I admit that I was wilding when I was younger & living
Aiming for one night stands just to see what I was missing
Talking women out of their clothes just for the lust
Ain’t thinking about love especially when there’s no trust
But I grew up, got older, wiser, & I see things clear
There’s no fun in looking for pleasure just to later disappear
But I can’t be like you & make the same mistakes
Get my wife pregnant, cheat on her, & bring the side chick to where my wife resides
Start a new life then leave my child behind
For them to grow up in self hate wondering what they did wrong
Questioning if it’s their fault cause their father left em alone
I don’t know how you can live with yourself leaving your 1st born
While he’s looking for the love that was forever gone
Pure example of a **** boy living without regrets
Ignoring the heart you broke, lacking respect
I was ******* for years thinking of possible solutions
Like you needed a better son, just looking for the perfect substitution
Seeing all my friends with their fathers & deep down I feel bad
Not having my creator around to prevent me from doing bad
Just can’t imagine having my kids growing up in a broken home
Leaving their mother to raise them all alone
Putting pressure on her back to protect the throne
If I don’t do anything else, I wanna make sure I never become another you
Just become the man that my mom raised me into
Be the man of the house that you could never amount to
And be the man you never taught me how to
I don’t wanna be just like you, having kids but don’t raise em
Look into the eyes of my blessings & embrace em
Don’t wanna be just like you, a poor excuse for a father
Provide my kids with the best life so they’ll never stress about support or a dollar

From the second I saw her, I knew things were about to get brighter
from the way you felt in my arms
to the fireworks within your eyes
to the way we talked for hours
it wasn’t long before I realized
you’d be the key to helping me fly

That one minute we spent with a kiss;
I heard my heart shed it’s 1st happy tear
joyful that you wouldn’t bring it any fear
caught in a daze as if we were both dreaming
falling for the melodies that our hearts were singing

An Aquarius Kiss;
you made me look at myself in a way like never before
made me feel these emotions to which I’ve never felt before
opened my eyes to make me realize just how charming I am
although from the 1st introduction, I was worried about a scam
but here we are still hanging on by a thread as I pray we grow stronger
because I’m afraid to lose you to someone else & what we have is no longer
present but I’m working to ensure this last for a while

I know you suffer more dark days than sunshine
I know things seem to get worse over time
I know your heart seems to get broken all the time
But smile little Miss Sunshine

Smile for the dark days won’t last forever
Smile for the pain will make you better
Smile for you’re remarkable beyond measure
Smile little Miss Sunshine

Smile for those tears will soon stop flowing
Smile for your presence that’ll soon start glowing
Smile for the end is nowhere in sight
Smile for your future is bright
Smile little Miss Sunshine

Smile, you’re worth more than you realize
Smile, wipe those tears from your eyes
Smile, though your heart’s been brutalized
Smile little Miss Sunshine

My deepest fear isn’t succeeding in life & facing defeat

but to gain everything I want, yet still feel incomplete

- Poetic Venom

There’s this world within mind
that I roam in from time to time
searching for any sign
that you’ll be mine

As I Make This Wish

Here you stand right before me
tears falling within my palm
as my heart writes the song
the perfect love story for me

As I Make This Wish

I pray to God above
that this woman to be
is just for me
& forever I’ll be
loyal to thee

- Poetic Venom

In the beginning, they ask you the same thing
all these empty promises that don’t mean a thing
Conversations about everybody that left them
but hope that you will accept them
heard the words “I love you” more than enough
confide in them because they’re the ones I can trust
but here’s the craziest part of all
they all left with me standing alone after helping them crawl
there was never any love, I was a stepping stool
investing real love like I always do cause I’m a fool
everybody isn’t the same, that’s what they say
but I see no differences just the same games they play
Granted, I’ve had my fair share of breaking hearts
situationships ending with me walking away, I played my part
but when I chose to love I was met with the same outcome
& people question why I always tend to doubt them
Love was always given out, way more than I gave myself
with my only regret being the lack of love for myself

For years they’ve ignored the mental challenges that people like me face
The struggles we go thru protecting ourselves from a mind driven by self hate
Most consider us “mentally ill” or simply place judgment
Advising us to seek professional help from these highly trained consultants
Or if we go to our family member just for them to tell us to pray
And ask God for the guidance to living a better day
Suicidal contemplations on a daily basis
Hoping to end it all to seek peace to avoid anyone from being courageous
Knocking on the door to death, waiting to see what awaits us
Cause if they make a certain phone call, they’ll send an institution to detain us
They question why we’re never positive but always ignore the negativity in life
Which makes us feel outta place or like living has this dangerous price
Never allowing anyone to get close enough to read the tears that flow
Or understand the scars on our hearts that obviously glows
Yes we need help but not the help being recommended
Cause deep down, we know it’s the feeling of being sorry that’s intended
You feeling sorry for us because we’re overwhelmed by this feeling inside
Of being a burden to those we love & how we’re dying inside
We try our best to be strong but even that gets old
When all hope dies finally being that this world is so cold
You can’t relate to the struggles we face cause you don’t understand our world
Or the pain within is too much at times so we seek an exit instead of waiting for it all to end

I’ve been looking for love in temporary places where it can’t be found
Looking for that loyalty with one night stands that couldn’t hold me down
Love making all over the bedroom except the one place where it should be
Falling for the same temptation that I hoped wouldn’t catch me
Charming whoever falls for it knowing what we have won’t last long
Walking away after making love knowing it’s not where my heart belongs
Making love to you vs them is different when it’s passionate between us
I’m doing all this casual hookups knowing your heart breaking is my weakness
For the longest, I’ve been blind by the temptations of love that I ignored
The main one that my heart became attached to adored
*** Ain’t Better Than Love but I needed to feel the void of being alone
Knowing that I was out there by myself & wasn’t ready to establish a home
A boy can’t be a man when he’s too busy still trying to live immaturely
Seeking something pleasuring yet short lived cause he hasn’t learned to love fully
Not sure what the objective was but no source of happiness was discovered
Thought I was looking out for myself when in reality, my heart’s the one that suffered
I guess one must be foolish before he realizes when a true love isn’t present
Making all the right mistakes before he starts to truly miss the perfect blessing
I’ve been sexually attached to a few but there’s nothing like falling for what’s yours
Knowing that the greatest feeling in the world is the love that’s made to be just for you

                                               - Pencasso

Love doesn’t Love the way Love used to Love
but I’m not sure if we should Blame Love
cause it’s not Love that’s changed
it’s the ones who gave Love but never got Love back that’s changed
it’s the ones who had all the Love in the world to give
but never got the same Love back given to them
when those who Seek Love don’t really want Love
they’re on the Hunt for the Lust
the type of Lust that doesn’t come attached with Love
the type that’s caused Pain cause they don’t know Love
Sneaky Links & hook ups, that’s that new age Love
the Pleasure for the Moment then you’re on to the next Love
settle for the Love in those who don’t confess Love
I need that Old School Love, that Love before the 2000s Love
that Get dressed & be ready by the time I pull up Love
that Love me so much but I don’t get enough of Love
that Meet me at the Alter in your white dress Love
that Here & Now, I promise to Love faithfully Love
that You are my Lady, you got me Feenin’ Love
that All My Life, we Cry Together because I Love you Love

I promise myself I wouldn’t do this again
allow someone who let me down to break me again
but deep inside my heart, I can’t see myself without them
I think we’re meant to be but maybe I’m happier without them
Fooled me more than once but I somehow feel incomplete without them
& although terms ain’t the best, who’s to say my future is brighter without them
I’d be smart to walk away before it gets worst but a fool if I decided one more to try
to see if the wings that control this love will either fall flat on its face or actually built to fly
- Poetic Venom

I’m sorry I can’t be your man baby although you think of me daily
Sending messages to my phone saying how much you love me crazy
We used to speak every day but now I call you sporadically
Just to see how you’ve been doing or to create love cinematically
I tell you not to fall for me when a part of me only wants to lay with you
Kiss you from head to toe right before I get up & proceed to leaving you
I’m expecting you to tell me that you’re done with the mind games
Done with the ***** calling & acting like I have no shame
You always tell me to live my life but to keep my privates on a leash
Cause to you, it’s all yours & you’d rather not share the heat
You tell me that deep down, I only wanna hit it when I’m lonely but I agree
Cause I’m not ready to settle for love which is why I can’t let you love me
*** became easier to find but only when the bond is strong
And sexing you is what I’ll never leave cause it’s where my temporary attachment belongs
I keep telling myself that it’s not all about the *** between us but what else is there?
For us to conquer when it’s clear that the love we want isn’t meant to be shared?
I know I’m wrong for loving you this way but my ego won’t let me let go
Knowing that once I find what I need, I’ll be forced to let you go
The truth within it all is that I can’t be your man & I can’t be seen with you
I’m only supposed to come through whenever we miss each other to make love to you
No strings attached but someway somehow, you’ve grown to fall in love with me
Ignoring the fact that you’ll never be the one to be with me
My only objective was to please you like I’m supposed to then pull off
But here we mixed in confusion of mixed signals but still I can’t even cut you off

I see you falling head over heels for a man that’s not me
Feeling my heart shattered to pieces cause your love doesn’t want me
Ring finger glowing & you’re scared to be honest with me
You’re moving on to someone else, I guess you’re done with me
Thinking about it now, I know it’s a waste to say
That I should’ve loved you better but my pride got in the way
I realize this is the end & there’s no fixing what’s broken
Gotta take the high road & deal with these depressing emotions
The truth still remains that I love you more than you’ll ever know
But I hate the fact that I’m forced to let go
Heart’s breaking even more, the one I love no longer loves me
And the thought of you saying I Do to someone else just stuns me
Although our journey has come to an end
I just wanna see you happy & a new life begin
I won’t lie, I’m losing focus knowing you’re comfortable without me
My love made you feel incomplete, quality was very lousy
We used to be inseparable but things have sadly changed
Went from being a fairytale to being overly deranged
Does he hold like he never wants to let you go?
Does he kiss like he’s ready to feel that love flow?
If I had one wish then the old days would be gone
And we’d be in love once more where we originally begun
Miss your kiss, miss your touch, now it belongs to someone else
But I’ll see you around & hopefully there’s still a little love left

the butterflies
in your stomach

the rhythm in your
blues

the key to your
heart

i promise

until we’re no
more

forever your
cherie amour

Like a night sky without the moon
Like a symphony without a tune
Like a heart that doesn’t skip a beat
Like true love that isn’t complete
Like a kiss without a K
Like writing poetry without anything to say
Like enjoying a vibe without intimacy
Like being excited without a fantasy
Like grasping for love with nothing there
Like trying to breathe without air
Like trying to fly without wings
Like trying to hit the perfect note but unable to sing
Like believing in real love without faith
Like without having a plan to escape
Like me getting married but I’m no groom
Like being in love but not in love with you
Like wanting to feel love except it’s not you
And like all these things, the main thing I’m missing is you

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

When I say Make Love, you may think ****** energy but I define Making Love as an experience between 2 presences who create something precious thru emotion & within mind

The understanding of ones mindset as well as their way of life that better describes who they are, what they’ve been thru, & what they’ve become based on past experiences

When you truly Make Love, you create something that can never be copied but admired by each other & those who see the glow as a result of indescribable events

And when Love is Made, you then see everything from a new point of view that causes Happiness in a new light giving it a source that turns the dimmest room into light

Focus on the past & you'll miss out on what you're missing
it's back there for a reason so let them stay there reminiscing
some people throw away gems when they don't see it's worth
easier said than done but move on, I know it hurts
but it's something better waiting for you in the days to come
you'll miss it if you're still looking back at what you're departing from
hurt people hurt people & most people don't heal from the hurt
they move from heart to heart only making wounds worse
PTSD from relationships & memories of the past play in a loop
causing you to punish the innocent for things your ex did to you
You can say you moved on but your mind has yet to depart
clouding your days so even your brightest days feel dark

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What happened to us? How did we get here?
All this fighting & I’m feeling like the ending is near
I’ve stuck around more than I needed to
& waited around because I thought I needed you
I’m a man of little faith but I believed in you
I guess 1+1 just doesn’t make 2
but what am I to do when all I wanted was you
only to be left behind while he falls for you
Death race for love but somehow we made the wrong turn
you’re close to the finish line while I’ve crashed & burned
All is fair in Love & War, I’m the only one without an armor on
willing to die for you, the pain I wasn’t running from
You ask what are we fighting for but here’s what you don’t understand
I can’t just sit back to watch you love another man
justifying your lies trying to get me to understand
that sometimes things happen & this love wasn’t planned
so you put on this act as if you can feel me dying inside
but the truth of the matter is, you drug me right thru all your lies
And in case you failed to see the memo or maybe I’m misunderstood
this becomes strike 3, which means we’re done for good
- Poetic Venom

A relationship that began 4 years ago, lead to many stops
even seeing someone else love you & I cried as my heart dropped
There was something in me that kept holding on to you
like I was missing something or maybe felt incomplete without you
I strongly believe you’re one of the branches that can easily break
but you keep holding on no matter how hard our relationships shakes
I don’t know where we went wrong & I don’t know if we’re meant to last
but what was hurting me was seeing you back there in my past
Above all the toxicness & the heartache, you provided light to my life
& without you here sharing life with me, it doesn’t feel right
Watching you leave would be like watching the sunset in the South
it’s beautiful yet painful when the most beautiful creation goes down
We’ve been on & off but I must be honest, I don’t love you the same
I love you from a distance, so far that you’re nowhere near my heart & it’s a shame
because you meant the world to me but sometimes, some people aren’t to
remain forever or always stay attached to you
- Poetic Venom

Today has a frown upon its face
due to the world being destroyed by evil & hate
Beliefs from the past have came to present
causing the hell within the adolescent

Today sheds a tear
from a world driven by terror & inspiring fear
No real guidance for the youth except ***, pain, & drugs
& I fear all the destruction the world is bound to become

But if Tomorrow begins to smile
I’ll see a brighter day with all evil dying out
A change for the better & faith for a better tomorrow
no tears to wipe, no scars to heal, & we’ll leave the pain from today’s sorrow

P e n c a s ******>

I've been writing 3 books back to back & I'm happy to announce that my 2nd book 'Coming of Age: The Journey from a Boy to Man' will be releasing very soon in both digital & audio version & my 3rd book 'The Eulogy: A Final Farewell' will be dropping around my birthday (Feb. 14th). For those who're interested in reading it, i'll post the link when it's out & also provide the audio version thru email for those who wanna listen to it on the go. Thanks in advance for the support & sorry for the absence.

In the midst of Darkness, I've become attached to the forces that's lured me in

to show me the wonders of this world where the rules don't apply & freedom becomes one

I can't escape this rage & the feeling it gives but I don't think I truly want to

although when I transform into this beast, the heart still remains see through

cause even with the aggression, you still see the kid trapped inside being held captive

knowing the pain will begin to explode & the aftermath will be massive

We used to be very close but somewhere down the road, we parted ways
You fell for someone & the day he came around, things haven’t been the same
Haven’t been happy in a long time but you started showing me it doesn’t matter
Tried talking about it but the discussion we had only made me sadder
I faked a smile until I couldn’t fake it anymore so now I exist in silence
We’ll never be a happy family if there’s no sign for an alliance
You always tell me to speak how I feel but in the end, what’s the use?
When you’re just gonna give me that “I’m living my life” excuse?
You don’t understand the heartbreak I feel within
It’s deja vu & here you are walking away from me all over again
Although I’m all grown up, I’m still your baby boy struggling to share the love
That I used to have growing up & it gave me the faith to never give up
I get it that you wanna be happy but you forgot about your family
I thought it was all a dream until I woke up & saw it was true reality
You don’t know the tears I’ve cried knowing that my mom is no longer present
It’s the same pain I felt when I was living as an adolescent
I lost my dad when I was younger & the last thing I needed was to lose you
And I can’t talk to God being so angry that it won’t bring peace or get thru to you
I lost my best friend, the Queen of the Kingdom, & my Dear Mother
It feels like you know I’m not happy but it’s my pain you won’t bother to discover
It’s pure jealousy of my part because I still can’t accept someone else being around
To take away all of your time leaving me feeling like maybe I let you down
Never thought it would come to this but I can no longer carry these tears
I can no longer live in this home knowing that I’m fading away due to the fears
Fearing that the day will come & you’ve completed forgotten about me
Leaving me alone for you to live forever after without me
This wasn’t my idea for a Mother’s Day gift but this is my poem’s cry
As I cry thru this confession asking myself why
Why did I have to lose my mom? Why am I feeling like I don’t have anything left inside?
Telling myself & you that I’m okay knowing that I’m lying
I’m sorry if I’m feeling like I’m losing you but things are truly changing
Maybe I’m stopping us from being a family but maybe there’s still time for saving
Every rose needs the rain sometimes but this rose is dying out
Struggling to stay alive a bit longer but the petals have officially cried out
                                                   - Pencasso

She Said;
What if I pulled a you on you?
What if I made you feel just as amazing as you make me do?
What if I made you feel like the King I see?
What if I gave you everything in me just like you do for me?
What if I eliminated all those doubts you had about love
& loved you regardless of the flaws you try to get me to judge
I’ve dealt with the wrong types all my life til' you came along
& made me feel like I’m above the clouds like I can’t do no wrong
When I was crying, you made me feel like your arms is where I belong
& when I thought I was weak, you made me feel like I was strong
So what if I pulled a You on You just to show you what that feeling is like
when you’ve found that One to make your world complete & ignite that light
that’s been faded out for so long to soon become afraid of the light
until something came along to remove that dark moon that provided darkness
which eventually made the sweetest heart go from being lovely to heartless
You need to know what it feels like to be appreciated, because just like me
you’ve given your everything several times but you still feel incomplete
Maybe then you’ll see the man that I see whenever I stare into your eyes
& there’s a beautiful creation within the beautiful disaster that deceives the eyes
- Poetic Venom

You’re expecting me to chase your love
    put in more effort into this love than you do
    but when you think about it
    how can love be love when I’m the only one working to love you
    
You’re looking for me to do the most;
    blow up your phone when you barely respond
    steady getting pushed back
    & I question why it’s worth fighting for my spot

I can’t chase your love;
    I won’t allow you to make me out to be the fool
    when I’m getting nothing in return
    but a waste of time & for this phase to conclude

I’m that struggle trying not to cut my wrist from the pain of life
trying not to blow my brains away so I think twice
I’m that struggle you face when you contemplate on a pill overdose
after being shattered from being let down by those you love most
I’m that struggle looking at you in the mirror when your tears dance on your face
falling from the cracks of your heart that could never be replaced
I’m that struggle waiting along with you in the night when sleep won’t arrive
so you sit thinking about life thru the music that assist with the terror you hide
I’m that struggle you face when you awake another day, healthy & alive so I pray
that he guides you thru the current stages of hell that taunts your every day
Life as we know it can be a roller coaster & we’re bound to fall
but if the landing doesn’t **** us then we’re granted another chance to crawl
I’m that struggle within that convinces you that you’re worthless
teaching you to settle for whatever or that you deserve it
I’m that struggle when you wanna give up but you know you can’t surrender
looking for the motivation for happiness but happiness is something you don’t remember
The struggle of being your own worst enemy, tearing yourself down with the lack of self love
loving others more than you’ll ever love yourself
I’m that struggle but I’m also that hand of guidance trying to be the source towards the light
letting you know that this war isn’t being fought alone, I’ll guide you thru every fight
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

I remember it so vividly me
the rage inside killing me
going to school every day
& at the end of each day, I would pray
ask God for the guidance
don’t have patience but I tried it
let everything go, enough is enough
everybody must die or ima give up
got home in the pm right around 3
before I hit the back door, found my uncles key
walked into his room looked in the closet
there goes the gun hiding in the darkness
I took it to my room & loaded it up
put it under my bed used my shoes to cover it up
next morning I wake up, wash up & head out
with the gun in my bag & the bus enroute
but 10mins before it pull up, I stopped & think
ima take my future then throw it down the sink
all I wanna do is ****, my fist hurts from the wall
punching it nonstop, guess I'm angry by default
on second thought I threw the gun in the ditch
before word gets out & my mom gets the switch
got ****** on my mind but couldn't fulfill it
blood painting the walls when I spill it
4 main targets that won't live to see 18
living out grand theft auto outside of my dreams
got to school but remained quiet while screaming
inside my head with the demon side scheming
on making a move to make them regret
messing with me with I dump led in their chest
waiting for a moment so I black out
destroy everything in sight, ima show you what this pain bout
alive or dead at the time it was worth the risk
but before either one, they'll remember me for this

I’m travelling thru this journey to escape the mind that used to be
shaped around the terror of life & what’s been mentally abusing me
People think I’m weird because my poems are based on the depression within
but it’s hard to fake happiness when sadness has been my only friend
The Mind of Terror only contains the constant thought of paranoia
so I’m fighting to escape the only source that’s been my life’s destroyer
I can’t go out in public alone without the feeling of people staring at me
as if they can see that I’m a sad individual who’s afraid to be happy
I still dance with the tears that I’ve hidden from my past
thought I left em all behind but the experiences forever last
Even the bruises on my fist from the rage punching the walls
& the long dark nights I’ve cried to God yet he doesn’t answer my call
I know there’s light at the end of the tunnel so I’m running towards that day
when I’m finally happy with who I am watching all my sorrows go away
But until that day arrives, I’m just a poetic mental explorer
existing within the mind of a mental horror

☆ Poetic Venom ☆

Left alone on her own since she arrived in this world
tears tell the story of a heart broken & forsaken girl
No one ever cared for her, everyone left after a while
never knew her real family, she was an abandoned child
It brings me to tears whenever I look into her eyes
to be left in a world so cold & yet, She Rise

Her story inspires me to be all I can be
with my back against the wall & nobody rooting for me
You can’t ignore the strength of a Queen who did it all by herself
fallen angel but slowly building an empire with every shattering step
She Rise

Her tears maybe invisible to some but her struggle is remarkable
to overcome so much to become a force that’s unstoppable
Yea her life maybe a stormy night of rhythm & blues
but her statement of dominance, not many could walk a mile in her shoes
She Rise

☆ Poetic Venom ☆

in a world full of people

a circle of those i love

close to those i care for

somehow i still feel alone

- pencasso

When reading my poems, always keep in mind
That I have a gift with words to tell stories & motivate
Those who’ve lost hope as well as those who drown in self hate
All of my writings aren’t about me, some are confessions or stories
From those who can’t speak for themselves but want to share their story
The ability to connect with many just with words is beyond amazing
To save someone from their own personal demons that they’re facing
My mission isn’t to only tell stories but to educate & inspire strength
Just to prevent another young blessing from seeking an early death
For those who cry at night, afraid of life, or even those who feel underappreciated
I create art of perfection & their inspiration of life is my most beautiful dedication
Sometimes I take trips to different minds to get a glimpse from their perspective
Of the pain they’re dealing with & creating happiness is my only objective
I’m just a poet & motivator using a gift to bring together the lost ones
Giving up on themselves feeling as though life is over & they’ve ran outta options
So if you read a few writings & it’s based around depression or sadness
I’m only writing from what I see every day in the midst of all the madness
Doing my best to bring peace to such a cold hearted world of savages
And heartless pretenders who bring down the innocent with huge hearts but unable to manage
it. Traveling thru various journeys as I learn about a world that I’ve been apart of for so long
Being the glue that holds together my fellow torn hearts who lost inspiration to be strong

- Poetic Venom

Falling in love took everything outta me
only to see the love of my life move on without me
I loved you with everything in me
& it’s unfortunate we went from best friends to enemies

- Poetic Venom

The grass is greener on the side, let’s compare the two

I bring Life to you while he takes the life outta you

but you ain’t the only female he’s giving pleasure to

while you ignore me whenever he’s in the mood for you

With me, you feel complete without crying when you feel defeat

wanting love from someone who steals your peace

Love is complicated enough & I’ve enabled you to use me

when you need to feel alive cause his love makes you feel lonely

so yea the grass is greener & I won’t be upset if you leave

You seek Peace but settle for Chaos combined with Toxicity

but who knew the best love I’ve never had would become my biggest enemy

The Power of Your Happiness
you underestimate its effect
for the power of its essence
could uplift of a heart depressed

The Power of Your Love
you nevermind its abilities
for it could turn a dark world to light
making the belief felt of its realities

The Power of Your Joy
you overlook its undying light
to outshine the darkness of fright
to which excites the flame of hearts that it ignites

☆ P e n c a s s o ☆

The tears of lost souls usually get overlooked or ignored by most which leads to the wandered travel dark paths that result in death or being empty

And they're further pushed to the edge when their pain becomes a comedy until they're gone then all rise the apologies which is only given to cover the negligence of those they're loved by

I see the carnage from a birds eye view hence why I write the way I do especially if it means there's light for a greater hope

I stand in the midst of cried rivers falling from the eyes of the misery that details the terror inherently within the world they were brought up in with the most of them losing friends & some seek the path of no return just waiting for their souls to burn in the war amongst ourselves

As a Man;
My main objective is make you happy in any way possible
but there are things you request of me that I shouldn’t been held responsible
I understand that your heart has been broken several times
& almost every man has made your soul cry
however, I do ask that you don’t demand for me to fix the cracks
of your shattered heart or place that undeserved pressure on my back
for I’m trying you in the best way possible, flaws & all
but I’m not obligated for punishment when I’m not the cause
cause happiness can’t be created when pain hasn’t cease to exist
it only causes more havoc with potential blessings being missed
I’m not the 1st to love you but I strive to be the last
but in order for me to do so, it’s imperative to forgive the past

As a Woman;
I desire to be your King, best friend, & partner
with the need to bring light when your world gets darker
You’re not my child, my prisoner, or my property
I don’t control your well being, that's not how to love properly
You have everything you already need but you request my presence
& that alone, in my eyes, is an overwhelming blessing
help me love you so I can love you to my best ability
never take you for granted or conduct in clownery
I’m a force alone but with you, I’m a statement
I’m capable of being the best but show me how to be the Greatest

It’s not about the *** or the love making but about the connection
when we share our love & get lost within the expression
just the idea of alone of sitting down without any interruptions
understanding one another to avoid any future dysfunction
we both want the same thing & both share the same passion
of bonding thru vibes, sharing tears of feelings, or even laughing
the closer I get to you, the more you make me feel
shocked with excitement with the peace that you don’t conceal
like I’m on top of the world with nothing else mattering much
with the electricity in the air lighting up the room even without a touch
it’s the smallest gestures that make the biggest impact
something that can’t be explained & can surely never be matched
for whether we talk throughout the night or just sit within the silence
with you, I can never feel like I’m off course cause you are my balance
Love, Peace, Comfortability, & butterflies is what we feel inside
but that’s what happens when 2 rare & unique souls collide

I know y’all idolize your dad like he can do no wrong
but it takes a lot of strength & faith to survive for this long
Take a look back at the life I’ve lived, I don’t want that for y’all
struggling to make a penny or every Saturday window shopping in the mall
You’re a King in the making son, don’t let these females toy with your mind
to make you think you’re not good enough to share their time
Your dad was on the prowl when he was younger, don’t you make that same mistake
avoid breaking a woman’s heart & falling for temptation trying to find a replacement
If you learn anything from me, be a better man with morals & characteristics
don’t throw your reel in the ocean until you’re absolutely ready to go fishing
Baby girl, you’re my whole world & your heart is something beyond precious
that I’ll give my life for if someone tries to tarnish such a blessing
Whatever route you take in life, run away from guys like the old me
looking for temporary pleasure to cure the raging hormones of being lonely
When you decide to fall in love, make sure he’s the perfect guy
who inspires you to be the best woman possible & helps you fly
Let no woman or no man treat you any less than what you know you are
your heart can only endure so much pain, let no one create one too many scars
Be the man that took me years to evolve into, don’t ever meet a man like the younger me
don’t fall for looks, let their love cherish you
Be a King & Queen of Oneself, walk your own path but always be better than me

PoeticVenom

You say you’re fine but deep inside
your scars is where your truth hides
Beneath your tears, the pain resides
confused with many choices tho you can’t decide
When you look into the mirror, what do you see inside?
a dark angel with faith or a lost soul struggling to survive
You’re surrounded by many yet you feel like no one resides
right next to you & your wings won’t let you fly
When the scars reveal themselves, what story will it reveal?
& if there’s a way to make it happen, how can you be healed?
You’re all smiles but I see that dark road to which you roam
where you’re disguised in the light but you still feel alone
- Poetic Venom

You’re constantly used to disguise the truth
behind the inspiration of something that’s often the result of abuse
& although some see you to think you’re true
your true colors are only noticed by a few
who’ve done the same so your fraud becomes see thru
with the realness behind it all dancing on ones face
that’ll eventually worship the current grounds being walked upon

Sadly enough, the more you’re falsely portrayed
the more the need for your departure is delayed
but saying goodbye for now causes them to be afraid
thanks to the broken record of hurt that continuously plays
so you’re used as a form of emotional expression
that’s revealed in ones reflection showing a true sign of depression

☆ P e n c a s s o ☆

It can hurt you, it can break you
Abandon & Forsake you
Feeling like a dream before you get departed
leaving you frustrated & cold hearted

Love is just a word that comes & goes
but who really knows
what it means to love truly
thru the madness & the beauty

It’ll make you laugh, it’ll make you cry
leave you always asking why
Why must I have to always kiss love goodbye
it only brings pain so why even try

It can make you or break you
make you feel whole or like you’re not good enough
That’s the Thing About Love
- Poetic Venxm

I’ve been doing laps in my head trying to figure out this mystery
Trying to figure out the meaning behind the misery
I’m lost as to what women want or what they desire
What makes them happy & what their hearts require
Most would say that they want a real man but is that the case?
Some get the heart of a real man & still get it misplaced
Help me understand the logic. Women wanting something real is kinda ironic
Ignoring a real man but fall in the arms of the male ******
You hear it all the time, “All Guys are the Same”
Blaming us all for their mistakes falling for different players of the same game
What Do Women Want? Is it happiness or heartbreak?
Will they truly appreciate a King or forever preach how love is fake
They say we all hunt for *** & I ask myself how is that true
When there’s tons of Kings that are willing to marry you
Some dig thru the same trash hoping for a different conclusion
Fighting for something that won’t bring a real solution
What Do Women Want? To be loved or just used for the time being
Fall for the same fool or exist within a fantasy world dreaming
What Do Women Want? To be treated like a Queen or look like a fool
Try telling them about their poor taste in men & they choose to dispute
What Do Women Want? An unsolved mystery that’ll never see a solution
Just many women making poor decisions & stating the same claim that can never be proven

if i should fly before i dream
in the clouds, my silent screams
on bending knees still i pray
take care of sis, make sure mom is okay
making her proud was a must
the only lady I’ll ever trust
may not have lived right
but i always tried my best
whether it made her smile
or caused her unintentional stress
& in the night when she’s wide awake
wrap arms around her
ensure her it’ll be okay
her side I’ll never leave
her back I’ll always have
& even if all my days are rainy
she’ll always be the sun
shining in
to hide the dark clouds that
surrounds me
life will be eternal
my spirit lives on forever
thru my words to make better
in the midst of hell where we exist
& it’s imperative that i proceed
I’m full of joy & peace, at last
& to you, i owe you that dance