It’s hard for me to say it but you inspire me
Thoughts of you constantly ignite the fire in me
Looking at my best friend’s daughter then I get *******
Cause her dad’s like you, another deadbeat who had a kid & ran off
I admit that I was wilding when I was younger & living
Aiming for one night stands just to see what I was missing
Talking women out of their clothes just for the lust
Ain’t thinking about love especially when there’s no trust
But I grew up, got older, wiser, & I see things clear
There’s no fun in looking for pleasure just to later disappear
But I can’t be like you & make the same mistakes
Get my wife pregnant, cheat on her, & bring the side chick to where my wife resides
Start a new life then leave my child behind
For them to grow up in self hate wondering what they did wrong
Questioning if it’s their fault cause their father left em alone
I don’t know how you can live with yourself leaving your 1st born
While he’s looking for the love that was forever gone
Pure example of a **** boy living without regrets
Ignoring the heart you broke, lacking respect
I was ******* for years thinking of possible solutions
Like you needed a better son, just looking for the perfect substitution
Seeing all my friends with their fathers & deep down I feel bad
Not having my creator around to prevent me from doing bad
Just can’t imagine having my kids growing up in a broken home
Leaving their mother to raise them all alone
Putting pressure on her back to protect the throne
If I don’t do anything else, I wanna make sure I never become another you
Just become the man that my mom raised me into
Be the man of the house that you could never amount to
And be the man you never taught me how to
I don’t wanna be just like you, having kids but don’t raise em
Look into the eyes of my blessings & embrace em
Don’t wanna be just like you, a poor excuse for a father
Provide my kids with the best life so they’ll never stress about support or a dollar

Let me fly, Let me die
Say goodbye, Don’t ask why
See you again, my time is up
Drugs weren’t enough, I gave up

Heart’s cried too many tears
Soul’s burnt out from abuse
Spirit surrounded by fears
No point of living, what’s the use

I made my mark, time to go
Where I’ll end up, we don’t know
I wish you the best, I’ll remain by your side
Guiding your path along the ride

Let me fly, Let me die
Say goodbye, Don’t ask why
See you again, my time is up
Just promise me through it all, you won’t give up
- P e n c a s ******>

You’re constantly used to disguise the truth
behind the inspiration of something that’s often the result of abuse
& although some see you to think you’re true
your true colors are only noticed by a few
who’ve done the same so your fraud becomes see thru
with the realness behind it all dancing on ones face
that’ll eventually worship the current grounds being walked upon

Sadly enough, the more you’re falsely portrayed
the more the need for your departure is delayed
but saying goodbye for now causes them to be afraid
thanks to the broken record of hurt that continuously plays
so you’re used as a form of emotional expression
that’s revealed in ones reflection showing a true sign of depression

☆ P e n c a s s o ☆

Falling in love took everything outta me
only to see the love of my life move on without me
I loved you with everything in me
& it’s unfortunate we went from best friends to enemies

- Poetic Venom

I’m that struggle trying not to cut my wrist from the pain of life
trying not to blow my brains away so I think twice
I’m that struggle you face when you contemplate on a pill overdose
after being shattered from being let down by those you love most
I’m that struggle looking at you in the mirror when your tears dance on your face
falling from the cracks of your heart that could never be replaced
I’m that struggle waiting along with you in the night when sleep won’t arrive
so you sit thinking about life thru the music that assist with the terror you hide
I’m that struggle you face when you awake another day, healthy & alive so I pray
that he guides you thru the current stages of hell that taunts your every day
Life as we know it can be a roller coaster & we’re bound to fall
but if the landing doesn’t **** us then we’re granted another chance to crawl
I’m that struggle within that convinces you that you’re worthless
teaching you to settle for whatever or that you deserve it
I’m that struggle when you wanna give up but you know you can’t surrender
looking for the motivation for happiness but happiness is something you don’t remember
The struggle of being your own worst enemy, tearing yourself down with the lack of self love
loving others more than you’ll ever love yourself
I’m that struggle but I’m also that hand of guidance trying to be the source towards the light
letting you know that this war isn’t being fought alone, I’ll guide you thru every fight
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

I’ve been looking for love in temporary places where it can’t be found
Looking for that loyalty with one night stands that couldn’t hold me down
Love making all over the bedroom except the one place where it should be
Falling for the same temptation that I hoped wouldn’t catch me
Charming whoever falls for it knowing what we have won’t last long
Walking away after making love knowing it’s not where my heart belongs
Making love to you vs them is different when it’s passionate between us
I’m doing all this casual hookups knowing your heart breaking is my weakness
For the longest, I’ve been blind by the temptations of love that I ignored
The main one that my heart became attached to adored
*** Ain’t Better Than Love but I needed to feel the void of being alone
Knowing that I was out there by myself & wasn’t ready to establish a home
A boy can’t be a man when he’s too busy still trying to live immaturely
Seeking something pleasuring yet short lived cause he hasn’t learned to love fully
Not sure what the objective was but no source of happiness was discovered
Thought I was looking out for myself when in reality, my heart’s the one that suffered
I guess one must be foolish before he realizes when a true love isn’t present
Making all the right mistakes before he starts to truly miss the perfect blessing
I’ve been sexually attached to a few but there’s nothing like falling for what’s yours
Knowing that the greatest feeling in the world is the love that’s made to be just for you

                                               - Pencasso

I get tired of the silent screams & mute cries
pacing in my room wishing I had an escape
but I must pretend like I'm okay
Search thru the dark silence surrounded by the voices thru the hall
& in the corner, you'll find me deep within the madness
Emotional, I may be but deep down I urge to see the light
but only with the right help or I won't bother to move
These tears are more than just tears, it's a testimony from the struggle
that I've been attached to tryna find my way to peace
you'll see the demons that bring the horror to make you believe I'm good
only for the kid in me to cry out before the terror contains me forever

A day of happiness mixed with tears
glad to see it but never do we toast cheers
either attached to the past or to be forgotten
along with the emptiness left in its existence

First time to discover a new love or the last day of an old habit
the soundtrack of tears or an endless memory of joy
As we continue our journey, we're left with 2 life-changing choices
carry on the baggage from the trauma of the past or let go to capture
the happiness of tomorrow

When reading my poems, always keep in mind
That I have a gift with words to tell stories & motivate
Those who’ve lost hope as well as those who drown in self hate
All of my writings aren’t about me, some are confessions or stories
From those who can’t speak for themselves but want to share their story
The ability to connect with many just with words is beyond amazing
To save someone from their own personal demons that they’re facing
My mission isn’t to only tell stories but to educate & inspire strength
Just to prevent another young blessing from seeking an early death
For those who cry at night, afraid of life, or even those who feel underappreciated
I create art of perfection & their inspiration of life is my most beautiful dedication
Sometimes I take trips to different minds to get a glimpse from their perspective
Of the pain they’re dealing with & creating happiness is my only objective
I’m just a poet & motivator using a gift to bring together the lost ones
Giving up on themselves feeling as though life is over & they’ve ran outta options
So if you read a few writings & it’s based around depression or sadness
I’m only writing from what I see every day in the midst of all the madness
Doing my best to bring peace to such a cold hearted world of savages
And heartless pretenders who bring down the innocent with huge hearts but unable to manage
it. Traveling thru various journeys as I learn about a world that I’ve been apart of for so long
Being the glue that holds together my fellow torn hearts who lost inspiration to be strong

- Poetic Venom

I had this dream where I met this woman whose smile told me a tale
of someone who’s out of my league & if I tried to pursue her soul then I was most likely to fail
It’s something about her that made me want to explore her inner essence
to understand the uprising of a Queen from the beginning of her adolescent

Now in my dream, she loves my poetry, in fact I’ve inspired her to smile sometimes
but still I’m desiring one dance to possibly commit the perfect crime.
What’s that crime, you ask? Well, she has a heart like no other that I’d like to discover
& even if I fail, I can move on with my day knowing that I did my best to love her

This Woman; she possesses this presence so strong. a demeanor of independence
a heart of pure gold, & a soul of many treasures whose quality of love is endless.
Who am I? I’m just a guy who never requires a reply from the confessions of my heart
that doesn’t mind expressing itself yet still confused on where to start.
I’m that smile on your face, trying to become the rhythm & blues within your soul
to share the sweet symphony of romance & I pray your collaborations won’t behold

I've been writing 3 books back to back & I'm happy to announce that my 2nd book 'Coming of Age: The Journey from a Boy to Man' will be releasing very soon in both digital & audio version & my 3rd book 'The Eulogy: A Final Farewell' will be dropping around my birthday (Feb. 14th). For those who're interested in reading it, i'll post the link when it's out & also provide the audio version thru email for those who wanna listen to it on the go. Thanks in advance for the support & sorry for the absence.

Every time we meet, I bless you with a kiss
you send me away with the memories reminisced
Through the sunshine or the storm
our love still comes to form
We weather the waves thru the darkness of light
still making the sweetest sound of love even thru the fight
When we rest shoreside & the sunset kisses us
but when the morning wakes us up, we see the sun beautifully miss us
Beautiful, Mysterious, Wild, & Free
the beauty of art & expression with a meaning that flows ocean deep

- Poetic Venom

Left alone on her own since she arrived in this world
tears tell the story of a heart broken & forsaken girl
No one ever cared for her, everyone left after a while
never knew her real family, she was an abandoned child
It brings me to tears whenever I look into her eyes
to be left in a world so cold & yet, She Rise

Her story inspires me to be all I can be
with my back against the wall & nobody rooting for me
You can’t ignore the strength of a Queen who did it all by herself
fallen angel but slowly building an empire with every shattering step
She Rise

Her tears maybe invisible to some but her struggle is remarkable
to overcome so much to become a force that’s unstoppable
Yea her life maybe a stormy night of rhythm & blues
but her statement of dominance, not many could walk a mile in her shoes
She Rise

☆ Poetic Venom ☆

it's the days with just us 2

nobody to invade our vibe

me being goofy & you laughing by my side

either cuddling on the couch or in the bed

the whole world blanked out

just you & me, nothing else matters

Our separation still has a huge impact on my heart
Looking for you in other places but still not sure where to start

I know you’ll probably question why I’m looking for you in someone else
or why I’m trying to love someone like I love you as if your love ever left

I don’t think you realize how much an impact you made in my life
or in the many ways I wanted to start over but there was too much to sacrifice
like trying to love someone else when I’m still head over heels for you
or even trying to crown them my Queen when my heart never stopped adoring you

I’m looking for that smile in someone else but I always come up short
Looking for your comfort but fail to get that same type of support

I’m looking for your type of love in various places & I get mad when I keep losing
Travelling that same highway in a different ride but I’m not moving
Looking for your happiness in another fairytale but it ends in a nightmare
because I realize that I won’t find you anywhere else & to you, it’s not fair
to find another you in someone else when you’re one in a million, once in a lifetime
so I guess I’ll have your love back in my heart all in due time.

- Poetic Venom

For years they’ve ignored the mental challenges that people like me face
The struggles we go thru protecting ourselves from a mind driven by self hate
Most consider us “mentally ill” or simply place judgment
Advising us to seek professional help from these highly trained consultants
Or if we go to our family member just for them to tell us to pray
And ask God for the guidance to living a better day
Suicidal contemplations on a daily basis
Hoping to end it all to seek peace to avoid anyone from being courageous
Knocking on the door to death, waiting to see what awaits us
Cause if they make a certain phone call, they’ll send an institution to detain us
They question why we’re never positive but always ignore the negativity in life
Which makes us feel outta place or like living has this dangerous price
Never allowing anyone to get close enough to read the tears that flow
Or understand the scars on our hearts that obviously glows
Yes we need help but not the help being recommended
Cause deep down, we know it’s the feeling of being sorry that’s intended
You feeling sorry for us because we’re overwhelmed by this feeling inside
Of being a burden to those we love & how we’re dying inside
We try our best to be strong but even that gets old
When all hope dies finally being that this world is so cold
You can’t relate to the struggles we face cause you don’t understand our world
Or the pain within is too much at times so we seek an exit instead of waiting for it all to end

I’ve been doing laps in my head trying to figure out this mystery
Trying to figure out the meaning behind the misery
I’m lost as to what women want or what they desire
What makes them happy & what their hearts require
Most would say that they want a real man but is that the case?
Some get the heart of a real man & still get it misplaced
Help me understand the logic. Women wanting something real is kinda ironic
Ignoring a real man but fall in the arms of the male ******
You hear it all the time, “All Guys are the Same”
Blaming us all for their mistakes falling for different players of the same game
What Do Women Want? Is it happiness or heartbreak?
Will they truly appreciate a King or forever preach how love is fake
They say we all hunt for *** & I ask myself how is that true
When there’s tons of Kings that are willing to marry you
Some dig thru the same trash hoping for a different conclusion
Fighting for something that won’t bring a real solution
What Do Women Want? To be loved or just used for the time being
Fall for the same fool or exist within a fantasy world dreaming
What Do Women Want? To be treated like a Queen or look like a fool
Try telling them about their poor taste in men & they choose to dispute
What Do Women Want? An unsolved mystery that’ll never see a solution
Just many women making poor decisions & stating the same claim that can never be proven

A relationship that began 4 years ago, lead to many stops
even seeing someone else love you & I cried as my heart dropped
There was something in me that kept holding on to you
like I was missing something or maybe felt incomplete without you
I strongly believe you’re one of the branches that can easily break
but you keep holding on no matter how hard our relationships shakes
I don’t know where we went wrong & I don’t know if we’re meant to last
but what was hurting me was seeing you back there in my past
Above all the toxicness & the heartache, you provided light to my life
& without you here sharing life with me, it doesn’t feel right
Watching you leave would be like watching the sunset in the South
it’s beautiful yet painful when the most beautiful creation goes down
We’ve been on & off but I must be honest, I don’t love you the same
I love you from a distance, so far that you’re nowhere near my heart & it’s a shame
because you meant the world to me but sometimes, some people aren’t to
remain forever or always stay attached to you
- Poetic Venom

I see a world going up in flames
whether it’s from street wars or political riots
unarmed colors on the grounds to provoked rebel flags
rainbow themed flags causing backlash
I see more chaos than I’ll ever see joy
dark clouds above all heads mixed with pouring rain

I see a world desiring to be beautiful
but struggles with its own imperfections
progression stalls when drama is glorified
acts of kindness only matters when cameras roll
demons taking over innocent souls
as the world continues get more colder

I see a world suffering from pain & trauma
with healing being desired but unable to be found
so drugs are used to cope to provide temporary numbness
several dying to live, even more living to die
seeking peace that only lives in the sky
& as the world continues to fall, I can only hope
that better days are soon to come

Our separation still has a huge impact on my heart
Looking for you in other places but still not sure where to start

I know you’ll probably question why I’m looking for you in someone else
or why I’m trying to love someone like I love you as if your love ever left

I don’t think you realize how much an impact you made in my life
or in the many ways I wanted to start over but there was too much to sacrifice
like trying to love someone else when I’m still head over heels for you
or even trying to crown them my Queen when my heart never stopped adoring you

I’m looking for that smile in someone else but I always come up short
Looking for your comfort but fail to get that same type of support

I’m looking for your type of love in various places & I get mad when I keep losing
Travelling that same highway in a different ride but I’m not moving
Looking for your happiness in another fairytale but it ends in a nightmare
because I realize that I won’t find you anywhere else & to you, it’s not fair
to find another you in someone else when you’re one in a million, once in a lifetime
so I guess I’ll have your love back in my heart all in due time.

- Poetic Venom

You’re expecting me to chase your love
    put in more effort into this love than you do
    but when you think about it
    how can love be love when I’m the only one working to love you
    
You’re looking for me to do the most;
    blow up your phone when you barely respond
    steady getting pushed back
    & I question why it’s worth fighting for my spot

I can’t chase your love;
    I won’t allow you to make me out to be the fool
    when I’m getting nothing in return
    but a waste of time & for this phase to conclude

The Power of Your Happiness
you underestimate its effect
for the power of its essence
could uplift of a heart depressed

The Power of Your Love
you nevermind its abilities
for it could turn a dark world to light
making the belief felt of its realities

The Power of Your Joy
you overlook its undying light
to outshine the darkness of fright
to which excites the flame of hearts that it ignites

☆ P e n c a s s o ☆

I’m travelling thru this journey to escape the mind that used to be
shaped around the terror of life & what’s been mentally abusing me
People think I’m weird because my poems are based on the depression within
but it’s hard to fake happiness when sadness has been my only friend
The Mind of Terror only contains the constant thought of paranoia
so I’m fighting to escape the only source that’s been my life’s destroyer
I can’t go out in public alone without the feeling of people staring at me
as if they can see that I’m a sad individual who’s afraid to be happy
I still dance with the tears that I’ve hidden from my past
thought I left em all behind but the experiences forever last
Even the bruises on my fist from the rage punching the walls
& the long dark nights I’ve cried to God yet he doesn’t answer my call
I know there’s light at the end of the tunnel so I’m running towards that day
when I’m finally happy with who I am watching all my sorrows go away
But until that day arrives, I’m just a poetic mental explorer
existing within the mind of a mental horror

☆ Poetic Venom ☆

when the sun goes to sleep
& day turns to night
you lay back to kick up your feet
once more, I make you feel high

all the right vibes
intimacy & romance
the excitement in your eyes
as we slow dance

make this last forever
everlasting pleasure
one dance meant for you & me
perfect symmetry when love collides
Love & Poetry

found freedom within the cage

found relief within the rage

born again in the worst way

the old me I tried to save

found peace within the madness

poetic with razors using my skin as a canvas

in the mirror, I no longer see me

but the monster that became me

Like a night sky without the moon
Like a symphony without a tune
Like a heart that doesn’t skip a beat
Like true love that isn’t complete
Like a kiss without a K
Like writing poetry without anything to say
Like enjoying a vibe without intimacy
Like being excited without a fantasy
Like grasping for love with nothing there
Like trying to breathe without air
Like trying to fly without wings
Like trying to hit the perfect note but unable to sing
Like believing in real love without faith
Like without having a plan to escape
Like me getting married but I’m no groom
Like being in love but not in love with you
Like wanting to feel love except it’s not you
And like all these things, the main thing I’m missing is you

☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

I’ve been enjoying this single life for quite some time now
but I’m still lonely, yearning for one to hold me down
I admit that I’m not perfect, I’ve been creeping on the prowl
a few one night stands but it’s no fun to me now
It used to be fun wit me but my feelings have gotten a hold to me
got me wishing one was there to love & spoil me
Just a simple man wanting love without the games or mixed signals
just wanna be corny around the right one just to make her giggle
This ******* lifestyle was cool but there’s still something missing
the love of a woman that wants all of my love & attention
I tried living the life as other men but I found no excitement
but when a woman request the love of my heart, it’s all silence
Don’t know if I’ve been hurt too much or rather not waste my time
cause I keep meeting girls with different zodiac signs
So tell me what’s a man to do when he’s ready to settle down
tired of missing a Queen’s love & falling for the lust waiting to be found
You live & your learn, my old ways taught me that pleasure can’t fill the void
of real love that my heart is waiting to enjoy

We used to be very close but somewhere down the road, we parted ways
You fell for someone & the day he came around, things haven’t been the same
Haven’t been happy in a long time but you started showing me it doesn’t matter
Tried talking about it but the discussion we had only made me sadder
I faked a smile until I couldn’t fake it anymore so now I exist in silence
We’ll never be a happy family if there’s no sign for an alliance
You always tell me to speak how I feel but in the end, what’s the use?
When you’re just gonna give me that “I’m living my life” excuse?
You don’t understand the heartbreak I feel within
It’s deja vu & here you are walking away from me all over again
Although I’m all grown up, I’m still your baby boy struggling to share the love
That I used to have growing up & it gave me the faith to never give up
I get it that you wanna be happy but you forgot about your family
I thought it was all a dream until I woke up & saw it was true reality
You don’t know the tears I’ve cried knowing that my mom is no longer present
It’s the same pain I felt when I was living as an adolescent
I lost my dad when I was younger & the last thing I needed was to lose you
And I can’t talk to God being so angry that it won’t bring peace or get thru to you
I lost my best friend, the Queen of the Kingdom, & my Dear Mother
It feels like you know I’m not happy but it’s my pain you won’t bother to discover
It’s pure jealousy of my part because I still can’t accept someone else being around
To take away all of your time leaving me feeling like maybe I let you down
Never thought it would come to this but I can no longer carry these tears
I can no longer live in this home knowing that I’m fading away due to the fears
Fearing that the day will come & you’ve completed forgotten about me
Leaving me alone for you to live forever after without me
This wasn’t my idea for a Mother’s Day gift but this is my poem’s cry
As I cry thru this confession asking myself why
Why did I have to lose my mom? Why am I feeling like I don’t have anything left inside?
Telling myself & you that I’m okay knowing that I’m lying
I’m sorry if I’m feeling like I’m losing you but things are truly changing
Maybe I’m stopping us from being a family but maybe there’s still time for saving
Every rose needs the rain sometimes but this rose is dying out
Struggling to stay alive a bit longer but the petals have officially cried out
                                                   - Pencasso

“Us”was over when it became three
“Us” was over when you chose another love over me
“Us” was supposed to be my Dream turned Reality
“Us” was meant to be the better half of me
“Us” is no more, nothing more of a memory
“Us” is what I believed in, silly me
Poetic Venom

I’ve hurt you more than once, you’ve hurt me more than once
We’ve had our ups & downs, our good days & our bad days
I really loved you so I let you go hoping you’d come back to me
while dealing with the sad truth to my reality
That man you met no longer exist & the new me catches you by surprise
breaking my heart with every tear that I see falling from your eyes
For every day I pray that it’s you laying next to me when I wake
holding each other in arms just to ensure the feeling of being safe
We’ve tried to love other people but coincidentally, it never worked out
making me feel as though it’s our love that we can’t do without
That heart you wanted is waiting here for you to grasp it
cause you & I both know that this love of ours is beyond fantastic
But it’s hurting me when I realize that I struck out only once
& I may not ever get the chance to prove that it’s YOU that I only see my future with
So I cry my eyes out every chance I get knowing I’ll never get the heart I’m so attached to
but nothing is more painful knowing that you’ll never understand just how much I loved you
- Poetic Venom

Stability, electric, & comfortability
with the candles lit along with R&B
the vibe you getting more close to me
but I don't need to take off clothes
kiss your lips or wrap your legs around me
Just need the sound of your voice
along with your trust instilled in me
with me sitting back allowing you to safely
be yourself, there's no catch with me
if you need to cry or laugh, feel free
it's the small things that I wanna see
the small things others don't get to see
that side of you that you only gift to me
the side of you that comes alive with me
the side of you that doesn't need me
but with my help, it becomes magic
you don't feel judged or backed in a corner
more like a friend with a lending shoulder
that vibe alone is the best of me
cause it's the best type of intimacy
the type of space where you feel safe with me
the type of space where you fall in love with me

When I say Make Love, you may think ****** energy but I define Making Love as an experience between 2 presences who create something precious thru emotion & within mind

The understanding of ones mindset as well as their way of life that better describes who they are, what they’ve been thru, & what they’ve become based on past experiences

When you truly Make Love, you create something that can never be copied but admired by each other & those who see the glow as a result of indescribable events

And when Love is Made, you then see everything from a new point of view that causes Happiness in a new light giving it a source that turns the dimmest room into light

I came a long way to let the negativity stop me
I gotta keep pushing no matter how many may doubt me
I’ve been counted out since the day I was born
now here I am telling the story of a young man scorn
Never had a father figure, just me & my mom
& watched her struggled for us to eat with these dead end jobs
Been going strong for 14 years although I took it for granted
doubted myself & fell for the evil vibes I attracted
I’m saving lives with my words but the world ain’t heard of me
from Canada, the UK, China, Japan, & even Germany
You ain’t promised to be big when you come from my home
you either settle for fast food, construction, or wasting life at home
If I gave it all up, I give up on those that look up to me
the self harmed burdened angels who quit cutting because of me
To many I’m worthless, but to a few I’m referred to as a hero
the one they ran to when their tears needed a pillow
It’s a blessing to be a blessing & it’s amazing to see
how I’ve achieved my main dream without being famous, God’s just using me
- Poetic Venom

If you love me, then let it be beautiful
I don’t wanna be scared or paranoid
but filled with joy & happiness
like the feeling I get when I’m fast asleep
in a dream but I wanna never wake up
or when I’m flying & the clouds cover my feet
So if you really love me
let the joy bring us closer without fears departing us
Poetic Venom

I’m sorry I can’t be your man baby although you think of me daily
Sending messages to my phone saying how much you love me crazy
We used to speak every day but now I call you sporadically
Just to see how you’ve been doing or to create love cinematically
I tell you not to fall for me when a part of me only wants to lay with you
Kiss you from head to toe right before I get up & proceed to leaving you
I’m expecting you to tell me that you’re done with the mind games
Done with the ***** calling & acting like I have no shame
You always tell me to live my life but to keep my privates on a leash
Cause to you, it’s all yours & you’d rather not share the heat
You tell me that deep down, I only wanna hit it when I’m lonely but I agree
Cause I’m not ready to settle for love which is why I can’t let you love me
*** became easier to find but only when the bond is strong
And sexing you is what I’ll never leave cause it’s where my temporary attachment belongs
I keep telling myself that it’s not all about the *** between us but what else is there?
For us to conquer when it’s clear that the love we want isn’t meant to be shared?
I know I’m wrong for loving you this way but my ego won’t let me let go
Knowing that once I find what I need, I’ll be forced to let you go
The truth within it all is that I can’t be your man & I can’t be seen with you
I’m only supposed to come through whenever we miss each other to make love to you
No strings attached but someway somehow, you’ve grown to fall in love with me
Ignoring the fact that you’ll never be the one to be with me
My only objective was to please you like I’m supposed to then pull off
But here we mixed in confusion of mixed signals but still I can’t even cut you off

There’s this world within mind
that I roam in from time to time
searching for any sign
that you’ll be mine

As I Make This Wish

Here you stand right before me
tears falling within my palm
as my heart writes the song
the perfect love story for me

As I Make This Wish

I pray to God above
that this woman to be
is just for me
& forever I’ll be
loyal to thee

- Poetic Venom

Love doesn’t Love the way Love used to Love
but I’m not sure if we should Blame Love
cause it’s not Love that’s changed
it’s the ones who gave Love but never got Love back that’s changed
it’s the ones who had all the Love in the world to give
but never got the same Love back given to them
when those who Seek Love don’t really want Love
they’re on the Hunt for Lust
the type of Lust that doesn’t come attached with Love
the type that’s caused Pain cause they don’t know Love
Sneaky Links & hook ups, that’s that new age Love
the Pleasure for the Moment then you’re on to the next Love
settle for the Love in those who don’t confess Love
but I need that Old School Love
that Love before the 2000s Love
that Baby you are my Shining Star & don't you Go Away Love
that I'm Saving All My Love for you Love
that Meet me at the Alter in your white dress Love
that Here & Now, I promise to Love faithfully Love
that You are my Lady & you got me Feenin’ Love
that All My Life, I prayed for the one like you
that we Cry Together because I Love you Love

Nor them or you could understand the Love
I gave to an angel sent to me from above
I blame myself for getting Attached so easily so quickly
figured if I did such a thing then you wouldn’t Leave me
Never have we had the chance to see this love take off
but I didn’t think something so Precious would come with a Cost

So my last Dying Wish is to see you for once, one Last time
to hold you as we go our separate ways
saying Goodbye as we reminisce on our past days
to hear your Voice right before you hang up the phone
leaving me in existence all alone
But nevertheless, you’re Forever in my Heart even from afar
as I wish for our final visit with that once in a lifetime shooting star

☆ P e n c a s s o ☆

I got anger, anxiety, & depression sitting right next to me
reaching out to an old love but she refuses to text me
I could never let someone know exactly what I’m thinking
take a trip thru my mind just to see how it’s depressing
Loneliness, heartbreak, pain, & depression mixed with alcohol
fading in & out of anxiety just waiting until the day I fall
It’s been almost a lifetime since I remember being happy
always full of tears, can’t recall a moment of me truly smiling
Can’t let a woman into my heart without pushing her away
cause I’m afraid that if I love her for real then she won’t bother to stay
Flying thru my thoughts & can’t seem to find a place to land
but there’s no need for you love me cause my mind you won’t understand
Family telling me to cool out before I lose my mind & go insane
feeling like it won’t be long before I take a gun to blow my brains
Side note, I think I found someone who really wants to see my smile
& I’m too afraid to let her love me cause that real love hasn’t been felt in a while

☆ Poetic Venom ☆

the butterflies
in your stomach

the rhythm in your
blues

the key to your
heart

i promise

until we’re no
more

forever your
cherie amour

The picture is clear
but the essence breaks me
to admire the concept
yet the idea hates me

To feel appealing
but lack the origins
or the praise from within
to accept the
beauty within the ugliness

They say pictures are worth
a million words
but sometimes, the art
can’t get over the curbs
fearing what lies
on the other side of life

To most, it may seem pointless
but to certain eyes
it’s a work of expression
afraid of indulging in its
own blessing   - Pencasso

Lady with the Glass Heart;

I see right through the savage act
saying that you don’t want love
but you still wish that the one you love
will one day love you back

Lady with the Glass Heart;

I’m reaching out for you but you reject me
fearing that I’m gonna love you incorrectly
don’t want love but you still dream
for that one day to come
when someone loves you but won’t leave

Lady with the Glass Heart;

with all the savage impersonations
you’re used to being alone & you hate it
yet you still dream for that one moment in time
when you can finally love again
& your dreams come true of being his bride

Poetic Venom

It’s something about her presence, better yet her in general that gets me every time
Making me do laps in my head, thinking of ways to make her smile all the time
The way she kisses me makes me feel like I’m flying within a dream that doesn’t exist
Cause there’s no way anything so unique could make me feel so **** good like this
I’m usually not thinking of one person 24/7 but here I am thinking of her non stop
Hoping I don’t **** up what I really want & I see that perfect picture but it’s me cropped
Out thanks to the paranoia thoughts that never seem to go away
And she’s never met a man like me before but I pray she won’t go away
It was supposed to be friends with benefits but some way somehow, my charm got in the way
That made her smile way too much because of me & it became the highlight of her day
I tend to have my fantasy thoughts of her ever since she ****** the soul out of me
Not ready for her level of kinkiness, her experience is way ahead of me
Then one day I shed a tear when I realized things were changing
Felt like I was losing her grip but this was something worth saving
It wasn’t the *** on my mind but the vibe we shared that kept my mind racing
And although she’s a busy woman, it’s her time I keep chasing
Just for another day to hold her in my arms & stare her in the eyes
Without saying a word but my heart never hesitates to reply
Jessica’s Tear was one of the most beautiful melodies I ever heard
As it detailed the presence of someone to which I feel like I don’t deserve
But in the end, she’s a best friend that I hope I can gain over time
So I can happily say that I was a smooth criminal of the most romantic crime

- Poetic Venom

Changes in your ways;

    we don’t chill like we used to
    talk like we used to
    already have a bond established
    & you allowed him to pursue you

Who do you love?
    is it me or someone that you just met
    why the sudden desire
    to create a remix to the perfect duet

Him or Me?
    I can’t bother to give you a decision
    at the end of the day
    I see that the love for me is already missing
    So I’d rather leave it alone & let him have you
    I couldn’t fix this love even if I bothered to try to

- Poetic Venom

It brings Sadness
leaves us confused
changing our approach
modifying our point of view

For most, it’s a fantasy
a feeling only present
when our eyes close
to grow old as one & raise a family

Go thru hell & craziness
wasting precious time
being broken
just to get to happiness

That’s what Love is
trails & tribulations
dead ends, lonely nights
live life alone holding grudges

I promise myself I wouldn’t do this again
allow someone who let me down to break me again
but deep inside my heart, I can’t see myself without them
I think we’re meant to be but maybe I’m happier without them
Fooled me more than once but I somehow feel incomplete without them
& although terms ain’t the best, who’s to say my future is brighter without them
I’d be smart to walk away before it gets worst but a fool if I decided one more to try
to see if the wings that control this love will either fall flat on its face or actually built to fly
- Poetic Venom

rose from the country roots

deep within the woods

& fields that stretch over a mile long

from the early morning sounds of roosters

to the late night sounds of crickets

where poverty is expected to take over lives

there resides, a young poet with fire in his eyes

with the hopes of changing the world

or inspiring the spark that further changes it

She has the Presence of an Angel;
personality of a devil
body of a goddess
but what lies within is everything but special

Diamond Eyes;
voice of the heavens
smiles of the favorites
but what lies within threatens

Work of Art;
dig within the surface
discover what’s hidden
you’ll discover this beauty is worthless

You feel lost & confused
been hurt & abused
cheated on & misused
built to win but only seem to lose
You’ve been left & replaced
lack of confidence & drowning in self hate
cried too many tears
still living in fear

You wish to be someone else
you can’t stand to look at yourself
too many times you’ve placed on the shelf
feeling incomplete & always questioning yourself
You’ve never been loved the right way but trust
you were made the way you are for a reason
& you’re unique, you just need to believe it
but all in all, there’s one thing you should know
You Are Enough
- Poetic Venom

If Love Doesn’t Exist
why do I cry when I hear certain songs
that remind me of you, the times I’ll never have again
the home where my heart used to belong
& the love that I may never win again

If Love Doesn’t Exist
why do I go to bed feeling for your presence when it’s missing
hoping to kiss you good night to tell you I love you
instead there’s the music playing with these mental thoughts spinning
feeling lonely knowing that it’s empty on your side of my heart

If Love Doesn’t Exist
why do I smile this way whenever we’re together
thanking God every time I set my eyes on you
falling deeper in love because you make me better
not worried about falling when I can always depend on you to catch my fall & knowing
any other woman can’t make me feel like I don’t need anyone else
or to make me love someone 10x more than I love myself

If Love Doesn’t Exist
why are my nights so sleepless with thoughts of you
thinking of new ways to give you my everything
becoming a new man all because of you
loving the sweet melody that when my heart sings

- Poetic Venom