I wish I had a prescription to your drug
I’d breeze through life like a shoulder shrug
Your love is a drug that id overdose on
When I’m feeling down it’d cheer me up a ton
I’d love to call you nicknames like my baby
Someday we could start a family maybe
You’d be the best doctor the world could offer
Our best times stored in a mental coffer
So baby give me a chance at a prescription
You could be my new favorite addiction
We’d rule the world, love being the novocaine
Your love has already taken most my pain
Been through a lot but with you I want more
Trapped inside your maze without an exit door
Honestly I don’t want to leave it feels amazing
This love is something I’ve been craving
When I’m all alone I take another dose
Baby you’re all I need please hold me close
I don’t want this to end
A helping hand I’ll always lend
To you, the most beautiful sight I’ve ever seen
To you, my gorgeous and mighty queen
I wanna be a part of your daily routine
I wanna be with you even after we’re eighteen
You’re my favorite star in this galaxy
And I think your drug is meant just for me

What’s the point of living my whole life’s a joke
Sit in my shower while I cry away and choke
I’m joking I smile and laugh all day long
I lied I can’t pretend that nothings wrong
I pat my own back and I hold my own hand
Loving me is something you won’t understand
All I want is love, hugs, honesty, and you
Hard to find peace like despicable me I’m Gru
I hate falling in love because it’s never real
It doesn’t help with the emptiness that I feel
But what if I actually found something true
Like a hopeful chance between me and you
Sometimes I wonder who would actually care
Like if you saw my name on the news up there
Depressed teenage kid finally commits suicide
I wonder who would actually care if I died
Everyone says I’m here for you I must be blind
I can never just kick back and unwind
It’s always something new every single day  
So I pretend I’m fine and soak in tears anyway
Thought I found love but it was just a mistake
I think about the pleasure of my life to take
Found happiness in some friends but I’m sad
What if I do something that makes them mad
What If they abandon me like everyone else
Will I be all alone when my heart melts
I got a few friends that I don’t wonder about
The ones I know love me inside and out
We’re all going through things yet I wonder
Can I make everyone happy like I ponder
Im crazy pulling my hair out as a stress reliever
Went from really religious to a non believer
That’s a whole topic that I’d rather just avoid
Can’t tell if they love me so now I’m paranoid
I’ve been broken for a long time yet I’m healing
Try to correct my errors to be more appealing
How can I make all their lives better
I wonder if she wrote me would I read her letter

Everyone has their own kind of therapy
I listen to music when nobody is there for me
People latch on others and become dependent
Absorbing life from someone, leaving a dent
But what happens when you’re that person
Helping others out while your life worsens
All you do is give and never bother to take
Your love is real but you only receive the fake
Grow tired of all the people on the earth
Confidence sinks now we question our worth
I want to get back into therapy again
Talk to Dr.Davis to take away all this pain
Sitting on his couch telling him all my problems
Having him around always seems to solve em
I don’t see him anymore and life changed a lot
Doing drugs alone passing out in a parking lot
Keep telling myself I shouldn’t do suicide
I’m breaking down at random straight horrified
What’s my replacement for therapy now
I want to be okay but I just don’t know how
Ever since it stopped my life’s is a rollercoaster
Going up and down until suddenly it’s all over
How do I stop feeling easily replaceable
How do I stop feeling like I’m incapable
Of feeling love and loving myself
Dr.Davis asked how do you feel about yourself
I stared at him with a blank expression
Thought back and looked at my progression
Trying to find words that share a connection
Think about all the things that need correction
How do I push through this depression
How do I answer Dr.Davis’s question
I think that I can get somewhere in life
I just gotta focus and keep doing what’s right
I just have to get through day and night
I just have to find the some possible way
Without therapy I won’t be okay
So I take drugs cut my wrist and drink nonstop
I’ll cry my eyes out until these thoughts drop
So I can smile and laugh and be loving
When is my next therapy session is coming

I wake up after sleeping the day away
I check to see what you all have to say
A couple of “I miss you”’s in my phone
There’s one that stands out on its own
Well, rather it’s an empty space
I feel the disappointment cover my face
I’m a walking corpse, nothing’s on the inside
Killing off all my feelings like a homicide
I’m breaking down and crying until I’m empty
Crying until there’s no more tears within me
What’s the point of having a trophy case
If you always finish in second place
I never told you but I printed out your pictures
We blended together like a perfect mixture
All our friends loved us being together
I should’ve known it wouldn’t last forever
So I drink in hopes of finally not feeling
But it just pushes my thoughts to the ceiling
Put a fake smile on my face for my mother
Keep a good attitude going for my lil brother
But when I’m on my own behind these walls
I feel the tears drip off my face as they fall
I cry every night like it’s some sort of protocol
I hover over your name whenever I want to call
Feel like laying down on a cooking grenade
Think I know every break up song ever made
People say I’ve changed and they’re right
It’s impossible to keep my eyes closed at night
I never text back and I lose interest quickly
“Forced idleness is a terrible thing” -Stan Lee
I agree with you Stan I just can’t help myself
Loving someone else is just pain in itself
Or just when that person doesn’t feel the same
Every since you left empty is what I’ve became

Up late at night, you slept through the day
Text her first but you don’t know what to say
You ask her dumb things to make conversation
She’s not like the rest of the population
Stuck because she actually showed you love
She gave you the faith in a place up above
All of that’s gone now and it’s just you and I
We’re 0-6 when it comes to attempts to die
But all we need is that lucky number one
Then maybe all of our suffering will be done
I hate the demon that lives inside my brain
The one who feeds me negativity due to pain
Look in a mirror and stare at myself in disgust
I don’t even see a person that I could trust
I don’t even know who I am anymore
Im drinking my life away behind a closed door
I cry at least four times a day and I’m sick
I mentally keep trying but it feels like a trick
So my only escape is through games and ****
Overthinking my life, wishing I wasn’t born
I’ve hurt so many people and I keep on going
Half the time I don’t even know what I’m doing
I have long hair to hide my insecurities
I can’t continue to spread this positivity
Truthfully I’ve given up multiple times
Why do I continue to write these rhymes
They used to help but now I’m just stuck
But I really think I’m running out of luck
I hate you, I hate him, and I hate myself
We’re all the same person, so we hate ourself

I have been through so much
I have had to skip dinner, breakfast and lunch
I have been outside drug dealing
I have been in stores sneaking and stealing
I have hurt a lot of people that I’ve met
I have fought because of a silly lost bet
I have been jumped, robbed, stabbed, and cut
I have had alcohol fill my inner gut
I have been through a lot of heartbreaks
I have made so many dumb mistakes
I wish things would’ve ended differently
I wish every text didn’t end in a rivalry
I wish I could put down all these drugs
I wish I could come see you and get your hugs
I wish I could take back the things I’ve done
I wish that I knew I wasn’t your only one
I wish my bro wasn’t constantly on the run
I wish he didn’t have to always carry that gun
I wish my brother didn’t get shot in the head
I wish it was me and not him who was dead
I wish I didn’t have to be on a wretched earth
I wish people didn’t try to tell me my worth
I wish my mom didn’t have to always stress
I wish I could wish just a little bit less
I will make my mother and brothers proud
I will play games in front of a gigantic crowd
I will make sure my friends and family are okay
I will be the reason that people want to stay
I will spread peace love and positivity
I will help out the world and not be a liability
I will find a beautiful girl to love and marry
I will love this girl and the children she’ll carry
I will start a loving and healthy family
I will be a better father than mine ever will be
I will love learn to forgive but not forget
I will buy my mom her first ever corvette
I will continue to try and help others
I will outgrow and beat all these suckers
I will love everyone including myself
I will repair everything I have left
I will

I live every day and night in constant fear
Not knowing if my death date is coming near
You can die at any given moment
You may not even know your opponent
Cancer, a knife, a bullet, or even a fire truck
You never know when you’re all out of luck
Knowing that anything can happen scares me
Don’t get mad because you and I disagree
We’re allowed to look at things differently
It’s a shame we can’t live coherently
I wish that we’d treat one another equally
Doesn’t matter if you’re gay or lesbian
Religious or atheist, black white or Asian
Race, gender, religion, thoughts and belief
The day we all love each other I can get relief
Im like all those superheroes without powers
Because I’ll try to help you for hours and hours
My problem is I care about things too much
It’s caused me to toss my feelings into a bunch
One second I’m happy then I’m sad or tired
Trying to make the world perfect isn’t required
My days of helping aren’t over I haven’t retired
The point of this is to help get you inspired
Make some new friends, or smile and say hi
A little extra kindness just to help make it by
Check on your old friends ask if they’re okay
Get out there, spread some positivity today
The truth is no one in this world is perfect
But that makes us human last time I checked