Have you ever go through a night where everything feel so **** even Know everything is going fine. Where you feel so broken inside and just want to scream it out loud yet you can’t. Each tears that drop from your eyes is a pure pain from inside of you where you been holding it in. Right now I feel so useless and pointless I feel like I can never be good enough for anyone. I feel like I don’t belong to this world. My head spinning like my world is going to end. My heart is shaking like is going to stop beating anytime soon, my brain is hurting like thousands of people trying to step on it. I have always been positive with life yet still I have my down moment where I feel like no one could ever understand me. Maybe it’s just my loneliness feelings where I feel like I need a tight hug and someone to tell me everything going to be ok. I feel like no one actually care about my feelings people always come in and take benefits of me. I always wonder what if feel like to be love by the right one. I don’t think I ever been loved by anyone people just come in and go never stay no matter how hard I try to save them. Maybe because they think I’m too soft they can just do whatever they want to me and I will forgive them. My smile always hide my feelings I wonder what is like when someone look at me into my eyes and say I know your not ok and hug me tight.

Love is like planting a tree. It needs a lot of good taking care of before it even start growing. If you don't water it enough it slowly start to die, but on the other hand if you want it to grow beautifully then you have to put a lot of effort into it example; you have to make sure it get enough to water, you have to make sure it get enough sunshine also give it a bit of fertiliser. It might seem like a really hard jobs but just remember when a tree are fully grow it takes a lot for them to die even if it doesn't get enough water then, it still will grow because of all the care and effort you been putting in from the beginning will help it stay alive. But of course you can buy the one that it's already half grown.. but those ones seem to die much quicker... why? Because you don't know how its been looked after before.