Contrast and compare between the busy ones
And the ones that don't care
Until there is no one that you really know
So I drift through these days of appointments and wasted time
They will all end up broken and quickly replaced. With pills and empty promises
I can’t seem to not take
The Weeks are slow, days drag on;
Even love making and parties seem too long
But I find myself on going
I guess there's nothing to do
Oh well......

Each day I live I see your smile
I die each night not in your arms
Of your beauty I take my sips
Like poison wine on ruby lips
Grant me reprieve give me rest
To lay my head upon your chest
In morning dew we lie entwined
Our hearts inside your hand in mine
From your view I’m vibrant and alive
In my eyes i’m contorted & twisted inside
You’re spared from the cruelty inside my mind  
I’m sealed from the reality you think is mine

If you were for me
Would I know it?
Would I feel it?
I hate the guessing
I hate the emptiness and the yearning
I know it’s only my mammal instincts
But it’s hurting
Why let the chemicals in my head control me?
Only ends up feeling lost and empty
I’ll turn it off for you
Because I love you more than I’m supposed to
You drive me mad I belong to you
So Ill **** my human senses to fight you
Your stuck in my head like a virus
But I’ll take the chemo and antibiotics
You’ll never hurt me I’ve blocked you
I’ll break my own heart I love you

I’ve heard she hangs the headless
Upside down to drain
Nothing’s real it’s all a game
Am I Alice or the Red Queen
Do you suffer? Do you scream?
Are you mixed up inside like me?
Eat me, drink me
I’m so far away from home
I chase the rabbit further down the hole
Eat me, drink me
This will hurt you more than me
From a muffle to a scream
Wonderland isn’t scared of me

I am the mad hatter
I am the red queen
Im scared sobbing Alice
And everything in between
The smoking caterpillar blinds my way with haze And the Cheshire Cat has dissipated to an upsides down grin that slips away and Is nothing more than a sliver of a dim lit crescent moon
Now Surrounded by darkness
And flowers that bite at my ankles
will the jabberwocky destroy me?

It’s been a while since I could remember
every detail of you’re face, little lines once so familiar. Dips and gleams. The way you looked at me. Multiple Shades of blue, the things that made you, you. You’re smell, smile, laugh, you’re jokes and quarks. I feared when you left I’d never know love again and I’ve lived that to be true. In the casket of my heart I always drag you. Waiting for the day I close my eyes for the final time to know love and be loved again.

Leave behind you’re happiness
And Run with me into the night
Live your darkest dreams and be free
Take my hand & dive with me
into the lightless of nights
In my arms, I’ll tell you the sweetest of lies
Well for what are you waiting?
Lay into the casket of my heart
Don’t fall for the promise  of a life with a purpose Because you’ll see that’s impossible anyhow.
Let me hold you And dream of a life
We belong to another world now