Why is I should be the bigger person?
Why is it I’m crying at 3am?
I greif , I lose , I drink.
But you.
You get to be happy and find peace.
You broke me .

And sometimes I don’t tell anyone my feelings
As there is no language that could describe them.

How does one create so much pressure that doesn’t exist
And still destroy them?

Life itself makes no sense
And yet here we are

Maybe there was never a place in the world
For people like you and me
We just  happen to be here.

I broke my own heart in a way
Staying awake till 3am
Thinking of the memories I barley remember
You are the reason I trust everyone’s words

Joke are funny, you took it to far though
We grew up in two different worlds
Yours where no one speaks about it
Mine, speaks to much

Hypocritical that they are aware of not to joke
About eating disorders
For fear it may be triggering for those around them
But yet mock this situation without guilt

But I do
I carry there’s and my own guilt
for saying stop
I am not too emotional

I am triggered
Yes this generation talks
But I’m worried that one day they do
I do not take lightly of the words

I believe them with all of my soul
You shown me though actions
Who am I to say they won’t to
Why teach me this lesson so young
Burdened my heart with Grief

My head is filled with only memories,
When you took my heart
Wish you took them too.
Rewatching our stories
Like a film on the old screen,
Not letting me rest.
Thought I might have changed your mind,
But you have secrets
We are not meant to know.
Years later still unanswered questions
Years later high off memories we once shared.

She wants to change the unthinkable
Live in a classic
Wake up.
Childhood is over.
Years are fading
Still thinking you have time to smile.
The worlds decided not