I wish things never changed between us
I wish we never changed
I wish I could go back and do it all over again but
the question is would it really change anything ?
I wish I still had you
But to be completely honest
you were never mine
to begin with.

Love is a difficult thing to keep
The hill you must climb is very steep
The hardship, the work, the pain, the tears
All for love’s presence near
To take away all mourning
All sadness, but beware there will be no warning
When love decides to leave you alone
Then you will have known
What it feels like to be heartbroken
There are dangers to keeping one’s heart open
Beware of love
For it may be a hopeful dove
Or a crushing hand
That sweeps all fears
Quite near
To where your raw emotions dwell
Where you’re put into a spell
Of everlasting loneliness
Of never ending harmonious
Screeching and biting
Crashing and fighting
Over the last shreds of love
That fly away like doves…

I cannot help but think about you
And how our story ended so abruptly.
Only so many times I can say sorry
I want to say I will change,
But I cannot promise you that.
I can promise that
I am still the girl that cannot make up her mind.
I am still the girl that fights with her thoughts.
I am still the girl that loves too hard.
I am still the girl that loves you
I am still the girl that you loved.
I am also the girl that you left.
I could never be the person you wanted me to be
I could never change myself to be who you wanted.
Who you needed.

you and me,
are in an unfinished story,
that kind which the ending is made cliff-hanging,
but there's usually a sequel coming.

but you and me,
won't make it into the next book,
even after a year of writing.

because you and me,
parted ways for good.

but I am still living in one of those chapters,
Should have make my character dead.

Move along the tiny voice whispered
Not yet she said
It's okay, take your time
But do not become comfortable
For you will remain still as a statue