somethings we never recover.
we still feel it in our bodies and in our minds.
some traumas never leave us.
so how do we live with it ?
We don’t.

To face the storm head on..
Having no choice but to do so
Because life throws pain at you and there is sometimes more often than I should of knew that nobody will come to save me
I learnt It the hard way
Alone and afraid with the storm building up over me

The storm follows me each day
Reminding me of the nightmares i have endured
I pray and pray please take this storm away with little bit of sun or even some rain

The rain is good, at least nobody can see me cry .
Sometimes the storm is my only friend listening to me and my pain
Sometimes it's my enemy never leaving me alone.


The storm is as loud as something I can't say
Echoing in my ear
I have to face it no doubt because I have no other choice.


I hope one day this storm will disappear
And I can finally start living again, breathing again, smiling again.

The list is endless…

something I’ve always feared has turned into something I welcome.
i welcome change in this New Year !

i really wish I died that night in June.
They should have let me die…that night in June
nothing has been more peaceful then that night in June