I'm afraid that I am possessed by a persistent beast
It crawls in my stomach
and makes my heart beat faster
It feeds on our encounters
and whenever our hands
would suddenly reach one another,
my lungs stop and
my mind would yearn more of it.

I'm afraid that I'm possessed by a very persistent beast
It haunts me day and night
with your image
your phantasm
The memories
that you are with me
and I with you,
both interlocked in the moment
They slither to my thoughts
every night I lay down to sleep
and I when I wake up,
I open my eyes
like I came from
sweet inebriation

I'm afraid that I'm possessed by a very persistent beast
that brings me to a perpetual state of anesthesia
that confuses me to believe
That the world
is a wonderful place
and no man, animal, or object can ever harm me
That the world is beautiful with it's own faults
and that every moment in the dark
is just another moment
to be shed brighter in the light

I'm afraid that I'm possessed by a very persistent beast
and I cower at the thought
that I might hurt myself knowingly
yet I promised you that wouldn't

Please tell me how
to tame this very persistent beast
this beast that everyone calls
"Love*"

Like the Sun
you shined
with every smile
you pulled
and I couldn't
bring myself to
look your way
as I was in a state that
my eyes could only
be for the earth
below
As much as
I wanted to see
the light of your being
my mind and body
did not dare to fathom
what kind of joy
is there in store for me
but
as my eyes grew curious
...
I looked
I looked at the sun
and like everyone
who dared to look
I was blinded
I was blinded too well
I looked past every burn
you gave me
and I just let myself
frolic
under the scalding humid
atmosphere
fooling myself that it was
your love
or something
was it?
was the warmth just
something that
I brought myself
to believe that it was?
Or.. was it real?

There's that sunset
Where you'd
Look
upon
The horizon
and watch the sky
pull a symphony of colors
Where the atmosphere and clouds
simply refract light;
creating an array of complex hues
the sky became emphatic
to show off it's beauty
That was today

There's that sunset
Where you'd
Look
Upon
The horizon
And see the clouds move
slowly and yet hastily
And despite the Coriolis,
the clouds form shapes
And represent
such figures to you
whether human, animal, or object
It reminds you of
memories, places, people
That was today

There's that sunset
Where you'd
Look
Upon
The horizon
And just look at the grandeur of it
Where you cannot tell where
The sky ends and the earth begins
no trace of the sun nor the moon
Like the earth felt God's redamancy
and God felt the Earth's
and our worlds finally became one
That was today

There's that sunset
Where you'd
Look
Upon
The horizon
And the moment you lay your eyes Upon it
all the questions, all the queries
finally become answered to
like quantum theory and "beauty"
ultimately became understood
like you now have an answer
to your most enigmatic problem
That was today

I looked upon that sunset
I have an answer
I finally have an answer
I now have an answer
That was today

Shortly after his departure from the King's palace, the Little Prince arrived at another world.
There were two halves. One; a field of sunflowers and the second; a city full of high rise buildings.

He played around the field. Walking, Jumping, and Smelling the flowers. As he jumped around, he suddenly bumped into a gargantuan object towering over the field.
Thump!. "Ouch!", he said, as he had one hand on, and leaned against it. "Amazing! Why didn't I see it as I went around?". The little prince was astonished at the object, as his head looked up to see the what the object was.
"Hello!? Anyone up there?" He then hears a soft hum and light plucking, and with ecstatic might, he looks around the object for the source of the sounds.
"Hello? Anyone here?" A loud rumbling came, as if an earthquake started. The object started to move. The little prince looked up and saw that it was a man, a giant! The giant had a serious look, and with him, had a basket full of sunflowers..
"What are the Sunflowers for?"
The giant looked straight into the city and seemed to not hear the the little prince's question.
"What are the Sunflowers for!?"
The little prince shouted, because he was unanswered.
The giant then looks at the little prince, smiled and silently gestured him to follow.
Annoyed and curious, the Little Prince follows.

The giant brought the Little Prince to the city, where it's bustling streets were crowded; and despite the noise of footsteps, car horns, and people on their phones, there is this eerie feeling of silence. The giant then stands eagerly on the sidewalk with his basket of sunflowers. He holds a sunflower from the basket and silently tries to hand one to the passing pedestrians. He tries and tries, but not one flower was given. "Why is everyone looking down?", The Little Prince asked, "Is everyone like that?" The giant looks at at The Little Prince, puts his finger over his lips. "shhh" the giant whispered, as he goes back to handing out flowers. The Little Prince slowly gets annoyed and furious at all his unanswered questions. "Why don't you say anything!?" The Little Prince asked.
The giant then looks at the Little Prince, smiled, and leaned over to whisper.
"I might disturb them", the giant said.

The Little Prince was dumbfounded and confused at his response. "Adults are strange beings." he said, as he goes back to his ship and left for another planet.

In my restlessness
I
spiral
down into a deep
slumber
with your name;
the last memory
cast from the waking dream.
It was your name I'd always say
in a silent and solemn prayer
that'd I'd pray day and night
and night and day
til' I've run out of words to say
And even
as I find myself
in this
peculiar,
unfamiliar place,
it
is
Your
name
that I remember.

I spiraled down
deeper and deeper
Into the void
where no other voice
could reach me
and the only thing
to keep me sane
was your name
that I remember
It reminded me of
thunderstorms and
your silhouette dancing in the rain,
of words that love my beloved as they took away her pain.
of your smiles that glowed in rain or sunshine
and of the warm embraces and soft cries that were once mine.
And
in
the
deep dream
I
find
you
waiting
for me
with a warm embrace
and a smile on your face
so tender
its warmth filled
the entire room.
And with your arms
clasped onto me,
in that dream
I finally felt
your redamancy
the "you" I've always aspired
And my eyes open
to the break of dawn creeping slowly upon the windowsill.
with only your name embedded as always

I went out for a jog on a Wednesday night
I thought of taking my mind of some things
and... that's what I did
I jogged like Forrest Gump's lazier half brother
because, I simply can't run because of asthma

After a few rounds around the university,
I decided to go home with a quick trip to the convenience store for dinner
I had the usual.. a rice meal, and two cans of milk

I walked home, taking home a can cause
I cannot stand the stench of the store's second floor anymore
That's when I saw a particular beggar on the street

It was a old woman, probably on her 70s
She had lesions on her legs, so she couldn't walk...
She looked up to the sky like somehow, maybe today she'd breathe her last
I mustered whatever kindness I had in me, and with whatever I had left..
I gave her Php. 8.00 and can of milk

She had this lit up look with her eyes and with utmost fervor, she said "Salamat po" ("Thank you")

Days. Weeks. Months passed by since I've seen that lady again... and at some point that moment seemed like history to me...

Today, I've went out for a jog to take my mind off things.
and what luck did I have.. I did not have enough for my usual..

I decided to go home and with a heavy heart.. Tired and full of stressed out muscles..
On the street, a young girl with a plastic bag approached me.
She was apprehensive; shy even. She gave me the plastic bag and ran off...

And with what surprise I had when I opened the bag... You know what it had?

A rice meal and two cans of milk