You were my companion in my loneliness...
You were my friend and teacher...
You silently woke me up from my depression...

You taught me about life...
I m what I m because of you...
You taught me to forgive and forget...
You walked with me in silence...
You never judged me...
You took me to journeys of happiness, love, revenge, acceptance...
You taught me motherhood is wonderful...

Do you remember our days...
I’ll always have you with me...
I slept holding you...
You broke the silence and loneliness of night...
You waited with me for the Sleep to embrace me...
You made me dream again...
To smile again...
To love myself...

How I used to immersed in you... forgetting everything...
I loved to sit with you in dim candle light...
The sounds of crickets and gentle breeze become the rhythm...
And how I will turn ur pages one by one...
And the way I held you to my heart after finishing it...

And then one day I had to leave you...
Not because I wanted to...
But I had company....
And years passed by...
I see you waiting for me to touch you...
To run my fingers through you...
To smell you...
To open up you...
But my friend I forgot how to do so...
My passion for you died away...
You don’t know how many times I reached out for you...
To start again...

I know you will never complain...
But one day I’ll come back to you...
To resume  the journey we begun...
Till then wait for me...
My dear Books

How I wished I can sleep tight...
But you never come to me easily...
You don’t know how many hours I waited for you to come...
Staring into darkness...
Pondering over things I like to forget...
You made me revisit all bad memories...
You made me cry all over again..
With nobody beside me...
I curled up and comforted myself...
And waited for you to come and claim me...
How I wished to fall into a dreamless sleep...
And not waking up at all...

But when days and years passed....
I embraced the sleepless night...
Where I stared to dream...
I made friends with books and music…
Now you couldn’t touch me…
As it’s me who choose when to sleep…

I know that I shouldn’t ask you...
And that you’ll never let me...
You don’t even like to hear me out...
You were not affected by my problems...
You watched me struggle with everything...
You watched me cry...
You watched me getting angry...
You watched me how I get moody...
Still never once you comforted me...
There were times when a little smile from you....
Would have been enough...
A pat on my shoulder...
Or a little squeeze at my hand...
But you never did it....
But now I beg you....
Can’t you hold me once...
So that I can cry...
Let my tears wash away the sorrows...
For once I don’t want to be strong...
For once I don’t want to be bold...
For once let me hold you....

Missing my love...
I went to the meadow...
Strolling in bare foot...

You came so suddenly...
That I was not prepared...
But I welcomed you
With my wide arms...

When the first drop met my skin...
I was awaken..
I grinned...
l looked around...
I took my bike...
To have a ride of my own...

I loosen my hair...
And embraced the rain drops...
You soaked me...
But I was grinning madly...

Riding through the rain...
I missed your warmth my love...
I wish you are behind me...
Your arms around me...
Your head burrowed in my shoulder...
Kissing my nape...
That I will suddenly melt...

I returned home...
With a heavy heart...
And there you were...
Waiting for me...
With open arms...

Lucky are those who cry...

As I envy you...

As i have dried up my tears...

Not by crying...

But by stopping when i felt through....

For me tears were weakness...

But now I know its strength

As it wash away your sorrows...

It brighten your hearts....

It makes you light...

And it makes your smile bright...

I wish there was someone to tell me

"IT'S OK TO CRY".....
And someone to hold me when I cry....
 




— Jonna Adam