This apology is for my mind and soul that was broken once I let you go

I handed you the world on a silver platter, but it was never enough, for you to love me back.

So I sit in despair with tears rolling down my eyes and wonder where I went wrong.

I wonder to myself if you ever loved me, or was I used as a toy for your own amusement.

Unknowingly I damaged myself.

You played me, and for that apologized.

Not to you but to my heart for bringing it pain like no other

It has been a while since my lips uttered words of wisdom.
My mentality changed once you broke me, My words unable to escape my mind with the absence of your soul.
I lived with death on my mind and a heavy heart weighing me down to my inevitable demise.
After my death came I realized that you werent the cause of my downfall, it was my mentality that rushed the destruction of my beautiful heart and words.

So I said goodbye to the poetry spoken before my death and introduced a mentality of solidarity.

Love endangered me, but you were the cause of my extinction.

You blinded me into a trap of self decimation.

I screamed in agony of you leaving me. Thinking I’d be lost without you leading me.

So I pled you not to leave, but you did and now I lay crying your name hoping to turn back time and change my mistakes.

I can cry.
I can scream.
I can feel hell fall upon me without a minute to waste.
I can feel pain absorbed over the years of being condemned to this forsaken world that cares none for me.

I loved, I felt... I tried to love you best I could.
I ended up destroying myself.

who am I to say that I care?
who am I to say I LOVE?

I changed my mind in a second, when I thought of you, I realized I wasn't in love.
I just felt lust
And On command I was done, Done caring, Done loving and needing

                             YOU.