It's not the problems;
it's the responsibilities you're not ready for that will defeat you.

First and foremost
Fat and ugly
Prominent as the brow
And unappealing as the naps
You wouldn't call me tall
And certainly not back
I'm mean an ******* and disappointing
And it seems I've lost the anointing
I speak life and dream of death
Just a shell of emptiness with a glimmer of hope in the tear that falls
Into the ocean like it was never here at all.

9:30
When the night is open but
We can't seem to get in
Conversations start to get ***** but
That's not how they end
Sometimes I swear you get flirty but
That's against my religion
Hate to interrupt you and him but
A future with you would be reminiscent
Of  a time when I was happy but
To your lies i would be ignorant.

Don't make me hate myself
I can't bear it anymore.

Breaching the breaking point
Preaching and making points
Though they be less
You keep peaking

Stalking is the day I stop speaking
Apalling thoughts too wrought

For this page

Is not written
It is commanded
So deep is the need to be outspoken
Try not to bleed when I open up
Scribbled scrolls that sneer
"Abandon Hope" and
I learn that quiet hearts have no

To give it all up.

The love, the faith;
The hope, the grace;
Yours or my face;

That has faded?

Fantastic
Where we don't need our pasts

And our feet don't touch the ground

Because she makes me happy.

I ask myself how I feel
□□ □□□□□ □□□□ □□□□□  I could fill
Up a book and yet I still
Could not rearrange enough letters
To find the right words instead rather
I get lost in your melodies
Stare blindly as you're telling me

I ask myself why it is so
□□ □□□□□ □□□□ □□□□□ it is all that I know
Simply let go and hope for better
And maybe this time when she says her
Heart belongs to someone else
I'll still be here to help my self

As I pick up the pieces
□□ □□□□□ □□□□ □□□□□ I paint a better picture
One full of emotion as I let go
A chance to be happy
Sharing colorful thoughts too ghastly
For any canvas or any page, Past me


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is where you found me

But when you were around me

I was a fool.

No icing please
A figment of taste
As light as day
As I bite I say,

"Lil bits o' frayed meat,
You are all the sweet I need.'

Nor she with me
But if we work together
We can both be free

Can I take you out to eat?

I hate it
The way your hair burns into my image of beauty
Like the stream of lava down the mountain
I will die and old fool before I cease

I hate it
The way you're pretty in a blur
Behind glass is no place for majesty
For my eyes only, I plee on mine knees

I hate it
I shouldn't but I do
I say that I hate it
Because I don't want to love you

Pick and weave the baskets we heave
Bare as trees when summer leaves
Passing out in dark matter means
Bitter sweet patter in my slum

Please

...in a perfect world with logical people, yes.

But people aren't perfect and the world is illogical...

is where you found me

when you were around me

I was a fool

White wine while the Bent smoke
Tight rhymes like big poke
Why whine when your heart's broke
White lines as the herb smoke
White lies as the tears choke
I'm okay but it's hard to control your thoughts when they're remote
How many times did you read that post
How many times was it re-wrote
Please don't let what he did erase what we wrote
It's too loud in the back all the ******* reposts

Remind me to be different, if I don't tell you

But,

Let's assume
Time like wine
Aged fine best when rotten
After dying

I'd be lying if
I said I didn't think about trying
Cause I'm tired of crying
And climbing grapevines

This is no poem that I scribe
Just my life
Ina vibe
That's it
And probably why

H iding
A las has gotten quite lonely
P assing in a world I no longer know
P erhaps I can't fall in love but
I like the idea
N ow the thought of happiness for my soul
E ases me
S inging at crossroads where Ill meet Lucy
S atisfying the cost to
~
Find

If I could give you stars in your room
Life on the moon
Life in your womb
Heal your scars but not too soon

Stardust and radiation, Catch me while I'm swooning
Its noon in Houston and we've lost all communication
Racing to be finished with no stipulations
But you lick your lips and I precrede my reputation
Pick up six. You won't miss. Shoot your shot. Stay on get.
Plant that kiss don't drop a drip when you paint this wall,
Your astro-canvas. I would.

If I could give you stars in your room
Life on the moon
Life in your womb
Heal your scars but not too soon

Feeding in the void I'm consumed
Bleeding in tune with fumes

Though,

Due to expanse we're doomed.

But Dear

Black Sunflower Lily
Looking kind of funny
Pretty ugly really
Especially when it's sunny

Golden hours never dull
A sight to behold because you can't be held
Captured souls you can tell
Will water your roots in hell

As a matter of fact
The fact of the matter is just
That

Pink Balloon
Don't think too soon
Or drink to swoon
Burn to consume
Moon rocks with no stop
Bare bedrock
Mocks
    Your
      Thought
         And    
            Hope
In a chance to confuse
What the earth does not supply
What it's worth to reapply
My self to you

Sweet Sunflower Lily
You look better in the night
Best to see your light
At midnight, the sun

Raging in the mirror
Crying, For. No. Sage

Could hear her

O'Blacked

These ****** flowers
Petals kissed by death
Scars licking her stem
A twist in her pistil  
She doesn't dodge this missile
Petal tips touch lips in unkind embrace
Walking lines so fine like lace
Misguide your grace in stones
Work and chisel to bone
Ripping skins you've outgrown

Unfamiliar with in where I stead
Something's
Non peculiar when things are dead
Surroundings
Rot revealing our date to lie ahead
Blooming so red

Maggots

put a bullet in your fvcking head you're not even worth the fvcking lead or jump off a fvcking building and hit the pavement the concrete could care even fvcking less

The Faithful walk on water.
The Wicked hide in trees.
A sea of blue;


A sea of green.
With nothing in-between..

It's been a minute
Since my heart was in it
Maybe I'm just busy
Or I wish it isnt me
Scary thought to lose it all
Before I could say it all
But I never know what to say at all
I should just stop before I get involved.

Bred to believe
God to be
More than we conceive
In scripture is seed
To grow and feed
On love and bleed
But first! Concede
To YOUR OWN misdeeds
And hit your knees
To find the lead
To salvations greed
Gathered souls heed
We have all you need!
Turn, from drugs and ****!
Let God intercede!
DO NOT let Satan impede
Your will to read
In-between the lines
Hear truth in the lies
It is God who did not love I.

******* I want to die
Sick and doped up
Can't even cry
Though I'm choked up
Gave hope up to a new name
Seen her face in a few dames
But it's still the same old same old
Pains

I miss her.
It's not poetic.
But it's true.

Pick me up and spin me around.
    Throw me through the window
        to the wall. Do you hear that
           sound? A warning to all.
             You're the sky and
          I'm the ground
     Connected
     by wind
        and
            gall

I'm losing grip
My finger slipped
Up
In the sky
Where I fly
Back to earth
Back to birth
With no recollection
Of losing direction

Motivation
To get out of bed
Motivation
To clean your body
Motivation
To love your family
Motivation
To end it all
Motivation
Is not here

It's not metaphorical; that's how the mind works.
It's really plain as day--


But like a sign in reverse.

My blood will NOT be on your hands..

Though I bleed because of you.

The air, cool and brisk
The first step is always a risk
But on my journey kept
A lonely go at this

The pier, long and dark
The first light does not arc
Engulfed in The Night
Just a rough start

The shops, full and lively
The last cent was spent wisely
All you buy you rent
Life ends concisely

The water, push and pulls
The last fog hinders an eyeful
Will the end cinder
Or does it icicle

“It wasn't just accident.  
  Nothing's just happenstance.

“Like stars emit brilliance for billions of
  miles in all directions.

“I saw your reflection. A dazzling collection!
  Of blazing spherical domes.
  Adorned upon home

“So when I'm alone The Night reminds me…

            “Of all Ive ever known,
                  
                            Of all I'll never know.”

Time heals all wounds..

Except when time is holding the knife.