We fit
Like the sea and the shore
We ebb and flow into each other
Energy matching synergy until
We explode.

Such beautiful violence.
The kind that makes you wonder how you survived.
How did we make it out alive?
How drained will you be?
I want every last drop
And i know you want to give it to me.
And i know you missed me.
And i know youve been inside me
In your dreams

Pushing and pulling yourself from depths
We have met before.
Darkness drowning you and leaving you stranded.

I know the feeling.
I feel it too.
Because
We fit
Like stars and the night sky.
Shining through that emptiness until
We collapse.

You're upset arent you.
your choices bleed and stain with regret.
because you trusted the wrong words.
believed in a silicone future.
ignored all warnings.

there you are
in the thick of it.
likely remembering our past and missing it.
watching me from afar.
wishing you could shine as bright.

the part that saddens me most
is that you could have had us.
The emotions felt for you were so raw.  
you never actually saw it.
You barely got a taste of Me.

a naughty word whispered in the dark. An embrace so tight that it takes the air out of you.

A collection of my favorite things jumbled into a thousand fantastic memories.

An old song that reminds you of the person you were before all the pain set in. Dedicated to laughter and magical moments.

Quicksand pulling me in a way that keeps me grounded. Filling my lungs with hope before squeezing my throat.

My god, i crave every beginning and ending; every second of you..

I wanted you more than i wanted myself. Forever waiting for your hesitant return.

But you are not a man i know anymore. Who even are you? Where have you gone?

I search for you in lovers eyes, hoping you'll validate my existence. And now waiting is all i know.

He called once to tell me that he was no good for me. He sounded just like you over the phone. My voice cracked out a tear filled request begging, yet another man, to stay where he did not want to.

And nothing ever stops you from leaving. Over and over. Not even love.
How do they know where to find the wound? What beacon are they following?

Or has this **** in my psyche been bleeding this whole time. Alerting these predators that i am not fine. Giving them a map to my weaknesses, showing them exactly where to tear. How to rip me open and spoon me out.

My heart drifts to a place i no longer understand. A place i called home, especially when i held your hand. And when i close my tear stained eyes, I see a terrified seven year old being swallowed up, by a darkness she did not mean to create, screaming at the top of her lungs

"Please save ME!"

You didn't try.
Fear stuck to your veins
buried in the back of cowardice.
A parasite you let in, as if you were prey.

You didn't fight.
Suffering was long winded
And constant. The memories
Inch me closer to destruction,
There's so much more to say.

You left.
Lessons learned in your absence
Cut to the core. Leaving me broken;
Unwanted. It was unwarranted, to this day.

And so,
They continue to leave
because you never showed me
That i deserved someone who
Would stay.

He put his hand
       over her beating heart,
                   their eyes slid closed

Simultaneously.

"This is my home"
     he whispered to her
             and tears filled the corners of her eyes
                         She never thought she'd find love

Unconditionally.

her path is lonely.
She kneels in the dirt and pushes
her fingers deep into the earth
submerging all the points of her into it's pulse.

"let it be me" she whispers into the mist
and the forest groans in response,
breathing in her magic; her, a potion
of sea salt, crystals, and moon dust.

If emotion is nature, then she is their owner.
Caressing vulnerability out of places no one
cared for, inciting wild dreams and grasping on to love,
for those of you who find it far too heavy to carry.