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Dear Diary,

I am a ghost. I don't know how long I've been this way, but It's my reality.

I've smiled with people who can't see me. I've laughed and made conversation with shadows. Sometimes you forget that you can't be seen...or heard...or even thought of.

I like to watch people live -- questioning the actions and thoughts they feel. Oh, yeah, I can hear their thoughts. Vile and sweet...mixed into a bowl like candied poison.

Sometimes I get lonely. It can get bad...like...really bad. Have you ever wondered why ghosts get so aggressive?... You probably know them as poltergeists. That's when we get so tired of being alone...something comes over us...

It's not like we see each other...no...ghosts are solemnly solitary, unfortunately.

So...yes, there you have it...something I wanted to get off of my chest -- the nonexistent one.

I am an utterly, unfortunate, miserable, somber, quiet, insane, and hurt Ghost.


You're welcome.

Overthink, thoughts keep on turning
Like the waves we now float upon
Crashing and swelling then calming
False sense of security before it comes again.

Mess with my head
Then take me down
But then are nice
And turn around

But insult me again
Call me fat
Call me ugly
And then that’s that

I do something nice
Suddenly we’re friends
No one see out of the ordinary
When looking in

You know you want to
You know you shouldn’t
You know it’ll make you feel better though

So you do and it helps
So you do and one more can’t hurt
So you do then you stop

Then comes the disappointment
Then comes the self hatred
Then comes back the pain

Because you promised
Because you were fine
Because you don’t know if you can stop again

The engine malfunction is your fault.
The problems are in your head.
The questions are in your mind.
No-one else's, only yours.

Don't use your book to degrade me.
Don't use your book to insult me.
Don't use your book to hate me.

Don't use your book to say wrong things are right
Don't use your book to lie
Don't use your book to back up your twisted lies

Don't use your book to define today
Because your book says *** is wrong
Because your book says you can't eat prawns
Hey you don't hate crime sushi chefs

Honestly? You want honesty?

After everything you've said
After everything you've taken
After everything you've done!

The trust is gone
It won't return
You don't deserve
I shall not oblige.

Honestly? You want honesty?

******* you *****.