I collapse
Relapse
Back to
What I was before.

It hurts to the core
Don’t think I can take anymore
My heart is sore
Because of what, I’m not sure.

But something is missing
Me and sadness are reminiscing
But without pleasure
Stumbled upon it
Like a bitter angry treasure.

Maybe what’s missing is me.

I crave approval from everyone
Yet I promote individuals,
I want to know I am wanted
But do not want to know I am “cool”.

“Sanity is not statistical”
According to George Orwell
You cannot measure
Human brain-power
Insanity
Or any of the like.

No percents
Or dotted graphs
Can show you if you’re crazy.

You might be the crazy one
Or the world is the one who’s wrong.

You can never be certain
On how’ll it’ll turn out.

All you can do
Is be extremely convinced about how it’ll turn out.

I’m bored so I’m writing a poem
But I’m not in my writing zone
So there’s no hidden meaning
No ranting or screaming
All I’m doing is writing a poem.

A picture is worth a thousand words
According to many people,
They’ll just have to deal with it,
As my drawing skills are so bad
They could be considered evil.

Don’t cry
You’re gonna be ok
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
Or I will too.

Because we’re not ok

She’s sad
She pretends to be glad.

She’s angry at the world
Her inner fists are curled.

One time,
Something sad was happening
Someone told her she was still smiling
She forgot to take of her mask.

You asked what I thought
I told you
You told me that I was wrong
How can an opinion be wrong?

If you didn’t want my thoughts don’t ask for them

I thought you were ok
Guess it was too early to say.

Now you collapse in my arms
Your walls fall down, broken charms.

Your tears soak me to the bone
I feel cold, you feel alone.

You’re not alone.

I cry
These lies
I’m not fine
Can’t we just be kind?

Top 3 types of people who probably need a therapist

1. Poets

Have you seen the poems here?! Most are about pain, cutting, depression, suicide, ex’s, breakups, feeling too much, and so much more. Most of us probably need a visit to the loony bin!

2. Musicians

Again, y’all feel as much as an elephant weighs, which is a lot! This means you feel lots of sadness, fear, and anger. Also, all good songs are about an artists emotional angst. So, yeah.

3. Artists
No one can beautifully paint, sculpt, and draw naked people stabbing  each other and still be sane. And also, what’s bad for the heart, is good for art. Art is filled with sadness, fear, and anger.

So, my point is, we’re all insane. Including me. See you at the wacky shack!

You give me pain you drive me insane but that’s ok because today I produced something magic from all of the pent up sadness you begot

I tried to give up
And it seemed like I was being stubborn
I can’t even give up right!

I love you
But you
Can’t stand me
You see
An annoying pest
That’s best
To ignore

Self-attack
Self-absorbed
Self-aghast
Self-abhorred

Sunshine and butterflies
Don’t live in this world of mine
I never new how to not fail
I think I’ll just stop trying

I’m sorry
I was such a worry
I’m not my sister
You wished her
Niceness would bleed into me
No
My wrists are unscathed
I’m afraid that’ll change

I never knew how to act
I’m sad
I never knew I was this bad
That’s a lie
I just never tried
Making a wall
Within my own mind
Doing without thinking

Would you recoil
Your wonderful touch
If you saw a few of my scars?

Would you walk away
If I told you just
How many times I’ve been marred?

Or would your embrace get tighter
Your love for me stronger?
Would you still be willing
To give me a sky full of stars?

The sunset shines so stunningly
These pretty pinks so ennobling
A colorful chromatic symphony
Ending so freaking quickly
Fading into night.

Falling
            Falling
                        Falling
Falling into space
Not a trace
Of fear on this dazed face
Falling
           Falling
                       Falling
Not even do I feel
The ground, must not be real
But it is, I hear my screams peal
Off the walls of this dark tunnel.

You set me free
Inspire me
Inspire epiphanies
Inspire word and deed.

You never fail to make me cry
Though I could never say goodbye
To you as you also give me highs
Make me feel like I floated up into the sky.

I will never let you go
You will never be my foe
Oh, how I love you so!
For you never give me true woe.

Bet you didn’t know
I was talking ‘bout books, yo!

How dare you call my best friend a thot
What a demon your father begot

Why? ‘Cause she was your ex?
Bruh, that was in SIXTH GRADE!

WHAT THE LIVING HECK?!

Betrayal, lies and fire
All gather and conspire
None of them ever tire
In the game to ruin me.

All is dark where light go dies
Rotting flesh and buzzing flies
Acid rain and burnt-red skies
In the place where evil resides.

A hell all inside a person
Where the adversary would be found spittin’ and cursin’
Several demons mix up a death potion
A sea of red, a burgundy ocean.

Oh, and I mustn’t forget
This is the place your personality is set.

Many of times a day
I feel worn and wearied away.
Until I am reduced
And a pile of me-dust is produced.

If I am fire
You are dirt
Suffocating and snuffing
Me out

A glitch in the system
Who nobody listens
To but they do
She doesn’t know
She’s too busy playing victim.

She doesn’t notice
That others can see
Her turmoil
Her lack of peace.

She feels alone
Cold
A heart weighed by stone.

Help me.

You stand stoic
Unemotional
Uncomplaining
Your face is a rock.

Your eyes bore into
My misty spheres
I wish I knew how
To not feel.

I can’t

I stitch and I craft
I glue and I press
I stretch and I stress

But I’m still unfinished
A messed up masterpiece.

My mayfly
Please don’t fly away
Stay
Please don’t leave me today.

My mayfly
Please do try
To keep in one place
Sorry I’m intense
Because, dang it, I’m a mess

Is this a real fantasy
Lost in my own ecstasy
Convinced this is reality
But really it’s just a dream.

Stuck in the past
On a line that I cast
Afraid to be lost
Afraid of the cost.

This world is plastic
Not fantastic

This world breaks
From all the gosh dang fakes.

If you were an animal
You’d be a horse
Cuz horses are my favorite.

I live for you while you **** me.

You lied.

Where am I?
Where did I go?

Why can’t I find me?

You see grey
Where I see yellow
Sunshine colors
Vibrant orange.

While you are surrounded
By bright blues
And pretty pinks
I am enveloped
By blacks
And dreary browns.

Why can’t we ever see the same?

Pharaoh told us to leave.
As we hurried gathering
What little possessions we had,
Unleavened bread baking in the oven
The smell of bread floating under our noses.

Pharaoh changed his mind
Sent his armies after us,
I can’t believe
We ever thought we were free.

I beg of Moses
DO SOMETHING
But he can’t
All we can do is wait for a miracle.

As the armies marched toward us
I could feel the vibrations of their feet
Then suddenly
Moses parted the seas!

Oh the joy that rushed through me!
We were saved-
Saved by God!
I thanked the Lord for his grace,
For we are saved!

You wonder this.
Well, you are honest and real
And you intensely feel
About your beliefs like I do.

Your not afraid to be weird
And when you failed, you persevered.
Your strong, but you won’t admit it.
Your humble and modest
And you need me.
Also, you love my crazy.

I love yours too.

If you could save me that’d be great
But it doesn’t seem that that’s my fate
Cuz my sadness won’t abate
And my longing will not sate.

I’m not sure
If I’m my own problem
All this time
Blaming others.

Is it my own fault?
Am I why I’m like this?

I can’t even look you in the eye
It hurts too bad
I tear away
My eyes tearing up
Unless of course, I wear sunglasses.

Your magnificence
Cannot be handled
By such as I.

For your light shines so bright
Someone living in darkness (me)
Is blinded by your beauty.

Your dazzling delightfulness
Shocks me into a daze
Cuz dang it, that snow is bright!

You give me life
Yet you **** me
A little every day.

I ask of you
What did I ever do to you?
Except nourish
And raise you
All for you to rule me.

Love, Earth

You seem not to me cold
But beautiful and pure
Your cool, distinct touch,
Taking residence everywhere.

Your grace is unimaginable
Landing softly on the ground
A ballet dancer
Maybe even pointe.

Love, Earth

When I’m being rained on
And the sun finally reveals itself
You are the one wonderful wonder
Showing me the color I had forgotten.

You fill me with amazement
As you arch overhead.
Making me wish
Instead of Earth I could be sky.

Love, Earth

You envelope me
Surround me
Surreally surpassingly sizable.

Your blue majesty
Blankets me
Making my world a bit brighter.

Love, Earth