The emotions that she felt,
words could not contain
you'll find them in between the lines
driving me insane.

I wanted to kick start the apocalypse

watch as the smoke blocked out the sun

and drink in the dark

i wanted the fireworks in the sky

to mark the end of time

not just another chapter

But I do know, that if memories had handles, this one, I would never let go of.

Cupid is my homie
He likes to keep me high
Filling me with arrows
Every day
And every night
You might just call me foolish
Im inclined to think the same
But i saw her at a bus stop
I dont even know her name
We locked eyes for a moment
And her smile seemed to say
Ill love you til tomorrow
And then ill fade away

oh, how i wanted
to fill the void
between us
with your hair
and skin
and smell
and warmth
how badly i wished
the cold would leave
for good this time

Ive spent my whole life waiting for that moment
The moment where the shell breaks around my ego
And forces exposure to the world
The moment in the movies and books where the shy protagonist finally realizes just who he is
That defining moment where the fire inside stops burning him and lights the world on fire.

I am that desperate kid

At the end of the bar

who falls in love

    a little too easy,
a little too often,

                                   and a little too hard.