I love the snow
the wind blows her beautiful  coat around us
She rests in our hair
She lay deep at night
She is but quite
Silently she lays
Ready for kids too play.
She is but deep white and endless
I love the snow x

I proud too say I'm clean today
That should f###king please ya
I proud too say I got out of bed today
That should cause you a sence of relief
As your kids I've taken too school
That should F###king please ya
Oh partner of mine so strong  and fine so perfectly devine . No floors I can find.
That should f###king please ya .

I cleaned my house today like everyday
That should f###king please  ya
I played with the kids i read them story's
I acted a fool we played barbie ball
And Princess's rule. ,
But yet I can never please ya
So now I've decided to leave ya
That will f###ing please ya . Lol lol x
PS.
Love miss not perfick
I hope you f###king find  her.

What happens too the dead that die sad ? do they stay around going mad ?
Do they stay around glad too see there loved ones around? Do they try too contact us for being so bad? for back in the ground they should go or up too heaven looking down to say hello, but no. The sad die lonely all alone for the feelings and things they left unsaid .
I think they become the undead .

The darkness  creeps up too me
I try too fight but it expands , Covers me , suffer cation there is no explanation

Why do you haunt me taunt me follow
Me, you reduce me too a child quickly I have too hide .
Why do you taunt me so?
I see shadows of the night they creep along my floor,I have too hide once more.
If only I could get too the door
I maybe be free of the darkness once more ..!!!!

She was left standing all on her own
All dressed up but no where too go
She  was left heartbroken at 17
All dressed up  but nowhere too go
Yearning for a man 29 much older
All dressed up she was
Just left standing she was
Just got drunk that night
All dressed up she was and nowhere to go.
Mum rocking her too sleep she was
Sobbing like a child.
She was all dressed up and no where too go.
Just  stood  her up again
With no where too go.
Her dad said she  was all dressed up the poor girl and nowhere too go .

I see things differently
That's OK
I can offened with my words
This I don't like
So I started again
Rewind freeze frame
Looked at myself
God that was hard
Sometimes my words breake down
They decay .
My mouth walks before my brain
This is why I write
This is where I can explain
I see things differently.
I'm OK.  
Every human never stops learning
Good or bad
Good for me.
I'm still growing learning everyday
Now I can play with my thoughts
Daydream all day
Fly away with the fairy's
That flood my brain.
Not quite like that
You no what i mean
I can try
Explain
I'm feeling good today
To be honest it's nearly good  
Everyday.
I see some things differently
That's OK.

I'm growing into a person whose handles her
decay.
I'm not displaying
Every ****** day
I'm growing
I'm learning
I'm listening
I'm interested it what you have to say
Be nice
Be kind
Help someone today.
As tomorrow you could be the person
Who just sees  decay.

There was a time you said
Please never leave me

There was a time you said
I just need you
Please never leave me
There was a time you said
Please please keep me
Don't ever leave me
Making love you look at me
You made me believe
We promised neither would leave
A pact made bye too souls
I believed
I said , please never leave me
No reply
You left me
Now I'm frozen in time
Replaying in my mind that night we looked each other straight in each others eyes
Please never leave me,
Our pact.

I lay there silently weeping
He lays there silently sleeping
I lay there silently suffering
He lays there silently sleeping
I try too hold it in, the sobbing deep within i feel I'm going too explode
I sob like a scolded child
I tried to hold it in
I'm so fu##ing hurt like broken skin
So raw and tender
You just gave up
So I surrender
I give up too.

I feel poisoned bye my own thoughts
I've ****** all the light all the soul out of the me, excused myself, set free
I don't care to see
I've been dried out and used and abused some I liked, some I fight
No fight left no light to see
I'm just left empty
I don't want to see
To talk small talk
To talk at all
So bored of people
So bored of me.
I'm just empty
Weaker
Abother version of me.

Whey is it i stray with you
I play with you
Why is it is lay with you so easy
I give my self freely
I shame myself with you
I look a fool
Why do I stray with you
I do.