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erin walts Aug 6
Sometimes I think if I forget about the problem
It’ll just go away
and it does at least for awhile

Sometimes in spring in Texas when the sun is finally shining
and yet to seek vengeance
on unsuspecting passersby

Summer is hot and dry
I wish I was the mud
Sinking in the stench of Lake Tawakoni
A 6 yrs olds knee high

Sometimes I think if I forget about the problem
It’ll just go away
Winter is Newark, New Jersey
cold and misty and grey
Walking Hoboken Harbor
The great big rotten apple enveloped in a dreamy haze

I used to love when the autumn leaves began to fall

and these are absolutely the only things
my father and I
have in common at all
This one is about my father
erin walts Aug 6
They all say I need to act my age
I’m so sad I’m full of rage
Everything just stays the same
They can’t believe my mistakes;
“Find a man who’s name you’ll take
And pray to god every day”
“Start a career or be a star”

They told me I could do anything
But I haven’t gotten very far

No money for college
No beauty for fame
No personality
No brain

I’m almost 30 now
Too old to start again

When will it all fall into place?
Am I praying to god?
Or am I praying to space?
Guess I’m back writing bad poetry again <3
erin walts Jul 2019
Hello?
Are you there?

Did I write this?
Do I care?

My brain is gone
and I don’t know where

My creative spark
My unique flare

Hello?
Are you there?
erin walts Jul 2018
I wish I was sixteen
with an ivory ribbon in my hair

I didn't think I'd get this far

I didn't think that someday, again,
I'd care

...

Now I'm in the future

The crystal ball did not see

I thought I'd be
at the bottom of a lake

somewhere

for the fish to feed

...

Now I think I'm stuck here
in a future unforseen

I wish I could have been a smarter girl

I wish I was sixteen
erin walts Jul 2018
I want to feel your skin graze mine
hot and lazy
in the summer afternoon
light and delicate

as if almost on accident
as if almost on purpose
as if almost in love

I want wet kisses that stain the curve
of my neck from the lingering presence of your lips
The breeze caressing and cooling the marks you've left behind
Trailing goosebumps up my spine

I want to feel your warm tacky fingers sticking to my thighs like you've just messily eaten something sweet
Moving like slow molasses
Melting me in the humid heat

I want to stay right there
with the summer sunlight trickling through the window blinds
With a dull sitcom on TV
The cued audience laughter
muted in my mind

Playing my faux innocence
in that dreadfully pleasurable
moment of yearning for you
forever
erin walts May 2018
I'd rather be the dirt
Nitrogen and worms
And I'd rather be the sky
Water vapor and birds that fly
The setting for the story's scene
It would all take place around me
I wouldn't have to feel
I'd rather be the ocean
Starfish and teal
I'd never love too much
Or worry that I wasn't enough
I'd just exist
Living but more importantly
Not really alive
erin walts Apr 2018
Please don't throw me away
Even though I'm broken beyond repair
I just want to be with you
Even though I'm scared
Please don't throw me away
Because there's only so much
I can take
And these pills don't swallow

I know that I am trash
And I never will be great
I'm subpar
A mediocre girl to be forgotten
In a melancholy world full of hate

I know that I am garbage
Everything I do is wrong
Little things- they overwhelm me
Even as I write this song
And creatively it's better to be low
These landfills fill
But nothing else

I know I am useless
As I sit here writing these words
I know they're not going anywhere
Because I'm not going anywhere
But still I write

I know I am ****
As the crumbled up pieces of my heart surround me
The ink smudging from my tears
I realize they're worthless
Scraps no one will ever see

But I still won't throw them away
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