I stare at the wall, the mustard dye,
Think myself in a room
Where all I can do is try.
To escape the fear, the pain the cries
How do I tell my past self
That it was all a lie.

In my dreams comes she,
She ,who was free
She ,who was kind
She, who loved the world
More than her life.

Her touch was gentle
As she brushed my hair
Saying it's fine
Even if it's not fair.

She seemed she wanted to whisper
It was never a lie
She never watched the world with rose coloured eyes
It was me who never understood the price
Of the people who cared who held me high.
Even if they are not here it doesn't matter
What they gave us will never be a lie.

If you left what would happen
I wouldn't be able to say goodnight captain
The midnight talks the bliss the sadness would end
Maybe it would leave in my heart a dent

The time would stop for me and you
I wouldn't be interested in anything to do
The world will be dark silence echoes
I would dream of white flowers in a  meadow
With you lying down with a crown of flowers
Holding hands , enjoying every hour.

Now you are gone your scent remains
Oh we flew paper cranes what a waste!
The world didn't stop for you like it did for me
Coz you replaced me with a certain he

The weather is the same so are the cars
Then what changed it ain't the stars
Oh I see what you did to me
Made it a habit to share everything I see

I still don't blame you and never will
And don't worry i won't take any pill
I am glad that you were once there
But the pain is still difficult to bare.

Oh a saint in my textbook told me it's worthless
But sorry sir you cant explain it to be a breathless
Person crying all night
In memories of someone with whom they had a fight

Coming back to you the love of my life
I wished that someday I made you my wife
But life is uncertain no one knows what will happen
Sad that I wouldn't be able to say goodnight captain