I miss him.
He seemed to complete my days
And give me a reason.
I miss him.
With every part of me.
My soul aches for him.
I miss him.
Who could make me smile
Even when i was trying so hard to be mad.
I miss him
Who my heart belongs to
Nothing can sever the bond.
I miss him.
That makes my heart sing
And my thoughts float on a cloud.
I miss him.
Who i want to spend my days with
And whom i ache to kiss.
I miss him
That puts order to my chaos
And a lid on my pain.
I would give anything to get back
Everything we had.
Oh how i miss him.

Here I stand again
At the beginning of everything
Not sure which way to go
Whether to step forward
Or retrace my steps to the end
I did not finish what I started
Had no idea what I wanted
it was all black and blue
Maybe I needed white.

I am suspended in limbo
Between where I should be
And where I wanna be
Thinking it over day by day
What I want out of this.
Maybe in the end it will be
Worth everything to me
To just see you
Hold you
Love you.

Today I tried to leave you
I mean actually go away
I packed all my things
Walked out the door.
Got myself another place
Cleaned it out and unpacked.

but then I began to long
For the sound of your voice
Yearn to be in your arms.
Am hopeless without you
You are everything I need
To fill my days with laughter
to drive me mad with anger
At the end of the day
It's you I need.

Could it be the feeling I get
that starts with butterflies
That I feel when you hold me.
Or the look in your eyes
that am perfect the way I am.
In your arms I lose time
Nothing else matters.
Cause I belong with you
Just as you belong with me.
I could lose myself in you
Cause with you I feel alive .
You make me see myself
In a different light
Or maybe am just in love
it's what you do to me.

I want to believe this badly
That you are meant for me
But each time I see you
You seem more out of my league
A charming prince in a castle
To my isolated tower
Am a little girl in deep waters
Waiting for you to help me out
One day I might get you
And then it will be alright.

What are we, if not together?
I am not your friend, you're far too aloof for that
Calling me only when you're bored.
you do not crave me in your space
Or long to talk to me all day.
Neither are we lovers,
The intimacy of a shared bond is mere wishful thinking.
A heated coupling can not hope to join our souls.
You only call after dusk.
I am not your partner,
For you never need my help, nor offer yours.
I have lost myself trying to find you
I have hurt my soul trying to bind it to someone that doesn't need a mate.
In trying to define us,
I only formed regrets.

I watch you fade away
Like a wish on a shining star.
Everything I hope for
Nothing within my means.

If I could just hold you
Everything would be alright.
But you keep fading
Faster than a setting sun.

This Time around show me
That it can be more than tonight
Cause all we have are moments
all wrapped in a dream.

Make wanton love to me
With your fingers and lips
Drive me insane like only you can
I want you to take me on the tables
And the walls
In the tub and under the shower
Can't you see I want you
To turn me into an animal
A raging feeling beast
that ravages and wants to be
Taken everywhere and everyway

does the pain ever stop?
when you lose your heart
do the memories fade
when it all ends
or are we forever haunted
by the ghosts of the past
echoing our every move
your my pain and joy.

I sit by myself at the road
looking in all directions
Hoping for a sign.
No idea what I'll find.
A man passes by
'What are you waiting for? '
He asks.
'Am not sure, ' I reply.
He shakes his head and goes.
I watch the sun travel round
marking it's territory
finding it's comfort zone.
The sun sets and still I wait
My gaze set on the fading blaze
Twilight dances into moonlight
And then you come by
Walking your dog.
A light comes on in my head
I run into your arms and hug you
'Do I know you? ' you ask.
I smile delightedly and replied,
'You will.'
You hold my hand and we walk
Through the night to the dawn
No wasted words or chatter
As the sun rises we realize
This is exactly what we need
It's everything meant to be.

Good things come to an end
Not to those who wait.
You can't freeze moments
However much you treasure them
The best you can do is savor
Everything while it lasts.
I had you and loved you
Did everything to make you smile
wasn't enough and you left
Grew weary of my company
I guess I was stupid
I expected forever from this.

You're a murderer
That's what you are
Took what little life I had
And squeezed it out
Cut my heart out with broken glass
I hate you, I hate you.

I hope that you fall down the stairs
and don't die!
That way you can feel the pain
of what you did to me.

I loved you more than life
I needed you more than air
You just wanted a crutch
To help you walk easy.
You didn't care for me
That I lived to please you
Guess it wasn't enough.

You killed me in cold blood
Watched my life source go out
Made no move to help
Just walked away
I hope I haunt you
Every single day you live
The girl you killed
oh I hate you.

I wonder if it's time
To let you go.
Cause you don't want to stay
You keep leaving me all alone.
I wait for you by the stairs
Hoping you will come home tonight
I wither and droop
And still you're not here.
It's like you walked away already
and just keep looking back.
Cause even when you're here
Feels like you're miles away.

He makes me smile
with the little things he does.
The thoughtful gestures
and compromises for me
In trying to make me happy.

I know he is the one
Cause my heart flutters
when he says he loves me.
I long for his embrace
His heated hands on my flesh
I want to be branded by him
And become one.

I want to wake up next to you
Snuggled in your arms
listening to your heartbeat.
Hold you close and inhale
your sweet musky scent.
Know it will always be
a fairy-tale made by the best
feels so right and great.

I don't want to have to leave,
part ways knowing we can't be
Together one more day
one whole night, a moment.
Time would be so kind
to freeze and give us eternity
Cause I would need forever
to tire of you.

Cold and alone in my bed
hoping to see you come by
Warm and loving as always
***** to be alone.
You know I don't like to
Be alone at all.
My thoughts crashing in on me
Suffocating me, strangling me
Creeping in on me
Like Jack the reaper
When am alone is when I see
an empty vessel with nothing.

I sent my little boy into the world,
It made the light go out of his eyes.
He was scared of his own shadow
Jumping at the slightest sound.
The world was watching with slit eyes
Stalking and toying with your courage.

I thought he was gone,
When the pale ghost of a smile disappeared.
He must be in the afterlife,
With shadows and darkness.
I tried to search, but I couldn't go beyond the tombs.

He is lost to us now,
Living in a realm we cannot reach.
The veil prevents us,
From seeing beyond the surface.
He lives in my home,
Even has the same voice.
He isn't my son.
The world buried his life force.

Dear Future Me,

Someday you will be, the sun moon and stars.
To one lucky man.
And he will know, that he found a treasure.
You will be just right, and your needs will be his priority.
You will find love, and it will be everything you wanted.
I know it doesnt feel like it right now.
But someone will look at you, and see you for who you are.
And he will deserve your pure heart
And know what a gift it is when you give it to him.
Until then, don't give up on love.

When you call my name
It's an echo of longing
You want me closer
you need to feel me.
Maybe it gets better,or not
I just want to feel needed
In the throes of your passion.
lose your mind with me.

I can make you beg
For more of this
You know you want it
It will always be
Stronger than before
you want to breathe me
I intoxicate your senses
just inhale and am yours.

If only you could be
That guy I see in some places
Who wears his heart on his sleeve
Not afraid to tell me
He loves me more than anything
Someone that will hold me
In the middle of the street.
kiss me when his friends are watching_
hold my hand as we sit in a restaurant
And be all over me.

Am tempted to ask why?
why bad things happen.
Sometimes more than
We could ever imagine.
How to cope with loss?
What to do when you can't go on
Curse?  Rave?  Rant?
Blame fate or God?
Breakup with God?
truth is I don't have answers.

You used to love me once
When the magic was just born
Given to everyone of our land
You had powers to do good
Instead you plundered
A heart that was willing
To serve you in every way.

The magic moved away
As people stopped caring
You see it was fueled
By a fire of eternal love.

Now we are mortals
Sworn to protect our hearts
for without eternal love
There is a wealth of hurt
Betrayal and confusion.
We lost the magic and reason.

All I wanted was one night
Oops, didn't mean to let that slip
But instead I ended up here
A series of days and months
getting our lives entwined
it was too fast and too soon
Never had a chance to discover
Exactly what I wanted
Something that was missing.
I didn't get a chance to live
Without your shadow hovering
and now am all thinking
Maybe you're not the one
What if I got the signs wrong?

You lay me down and then I fall for you
Staring into your liquid eyes
Drawing me in like a thread through a needle's eye.
You hold me fast
Like snug cloth over skin.
Hugging me close.
With every passing moment
I am drawn more to you.
Sharing my days with you
whiling the hours away
I want to spend my nights with you.

cant you see my tears
or don't you care?
that i am hurting,aching
begging for a chance
jus a day,a moment.
i need to see you
i need to feel you
hoping you can let me be
your love,hopes and dreams

If only I could say goodbye
And totally let go
It would save me damages
In heartbreaks and pain.
Instead I say my farewell
Hoping you will stop me
And say that you need me.
If only life were a landscape
You would be the mural
I paint on the wall.

When you kiss me
Time stops for a while
For I am drawn to you
Like a moth to the flame
The passion builds in us
You hold me tighter
And take fewer breaths.
Hands wandering over me
Inhaling the scent of me
Lost in the spell
Only you and I can Weave
I want you in that moment
To hold me closer than before
have as much of me as you like
I want to give myself to you.

Everything you touch
Turns to dust
Golden dust
Cause it all starts from ashes
And develops into beauty.
Touch me
that I may become your muse

I love you now.
You don't think it will last
I might move on tomorrow.
Love someone else
Forget everything we had.

My love,
Even if I loved again
I would still remember
Everything about you.
Would dream of your kisses
And crave your touch.
You were my first
you imprinted on me.
I will never forget you.

Even when I lie in our bed
With someone else
I will hold you close
You loved me first.
I will think about you
Before I sleep.
And wonder if you think about me
In your bed where you took me
Over and over again
And made me yours.

Even as I kiss him
I imagine your face
Your lips
How you look into my eyes
As you take me.
How you hold me close after.
in your bed and mine
We made a vow.
To always love.

Listen
to the voice inside
Telling you that it's not impossible
to love again.
You have seen pain
But if you gave it another day
There could be more than that.
It's not supposed to hurt
As much as it does.
It will fade to a dull ache
and be less than a pinch.
Wasn't built to last
This thing called pain.
It springs from within
and needs to be driven.
It will come to pass
In the dawn of a new day.
Things done in secret
to stem the flow of energy
bubbling over and pushing
For an outlet.
It started out as an accident
and now it's here to stay.
you were hurt badly before
and now you don't want
To let go and love again.

Your voice is what I need.
I long to hear you whisper
good morning in my ear.
I long to hear your moans when we touch.
To hear you beg for more when we make love.
Its your touch I need at night.
Your arms around me.
Your body pressed against mine.
The fire that burns when you and I touch.
Our need inflamed with each kiss.
Our certainty that we are loved and desired in turn.
I want all your tomorrows.
Every kiss under the night sky.
Every dance that needs to a night of insatiable passion.
I want every memory.
I want you.

When it hurts you cry
and make those promises
Not to let it hurt again
The next time it happens
You wonder why you didn't
stand up to yourself more
Be strong and say no.
The little girl wants it all
The big girl knows there is a price
One paid in tears and pain
Most of all you learn
life isn't fair in anyway.

I used to be that girl,
With a spring in my step.
And not a hair out of place.
She danced with flames and fire
yet somehow kept her cool.

I am that strong branch,
That sways with the wind and yet remains unchanged.
I bow and bend without breaking.
Becoming one with the world that's shaking,
I am everything and nothing.

Once again I asked the question
the one I have been hanging on to
Hoping the answer is right
So it can all be worth it.
I worded it round a ring
In spirals and mazes
You won't get it before you get me
That way I can be sure
This is it.

Pushing shards of hurt
Deeper into my heart.
Spreading searing pain
through every scar that remains.
It's not supposed to hurt
like there is no end to this
will you ever stop?
I still love you
Need you to hold me.
Won't you be my partner,
Lover and friend?
Am not ready to lose you
See you make it all better
won't you look in your heart
Find a place for you and I.

You knew me best
I didn't have to talk
Somehow you knew
all that I needed.
You put me first
Rearranged your life for me
And that was great
I felt special.
Why did you have to walk away?
turn your back on me
Even when you saw my tears
Streaming down my face.
I still breathe with you.
I see you at the corner
And rush to find it's not you.
You elude me like a wisp of smoke
I can't touch.
I want you back
would pay whatever was asked
I dunno where to find you
Even as I continue to hope
I wasn't just dreaming.

No matter the pain
You get up

No matter the sorrow
You get better

nothing lasts forever
And you will be okay.

You walked away
Tore my heart to pieces
Made me lose my will
To live, to watch,to learn.

Gave me up
when all I wanted was you
To hold me and tell me
You would always be there
To fix me and make the pain
go away.

You were all I wanted
and yet deep down I knew
Couldn't have you
Never would.
I have to move on now
Pick up the pieces and fix
All that I am.