I am like an elephant who remembers.
My life so endangered that I tread lightly

When I think of the world I see you
All the bad and the ugly is clouded from view
And I got what I wanted
Even so
A life full of joy to never let go

The thoughts of the past are amiss
I savior these moments and your tender kiss
This love of ours is divine
You stole my heart
A non-punishable crime

Stop and see your beauty
Transcendent and great
You go through me
Protect yourself from the harm
No longer foster pain
Lift your sleeve to clean arms

Enter a state beyond this and see your greatness unfold
Potent bliss

Yours truly I write and I promise it's true
You help me get through the nights and the days I don't rue

Good enough?
Not so.
My mind full of doubt
And my heart full of woe
How to go on?
Reap what you sow

What to do with myself?
An isolated friend
If it's pushed to the end
and it breaks
Can it bend?

Now it's over-with, done
I can't take anymore
And it's no longer fun

Leave me while you can
Was there a reason you stayed around?
Am I just a body to you?
Someone you can feel close to when you're in need?
I'm more than what you make me out to be
More than your silly descriptions of me
I am reborn in a new imagine of my former self
Wiser
All the wiser yet none the more stable
I thought you were my friend
More than my friend
But as things broke down, that came to an end
"We are forever"
Lies
Forever was far shorter than both of us imagined.
Somehow, I stopped caring when you did

"Eat" they say
they don't get it
it's not okay
the weight falls fast like stones
recedes to nothing
skin and bones
fatigue beyond compare
an endless cycle
at the mirror, stare
the scale only lies
air in your lungs
and between your thighs
in pain I lay,
take the hunger away

Some times life stops you
Like a bag of dirt,
Life drops you
There are days when we surrender
Silenced tears and heavy eyelids
and days we can't remember

I'm still me and you're still you
dragging on for too long
there's not much more we can do

Leave if you see fit
But don't expect me to chase you
I won't
Not one bit

Dark and dingy days
With rain clouds collecting
Blocking out the dim and dismal rays
Fatigue and sorrow injecting

I see no way out but the easy one
Why give life that satisfaction?
Why quit and be done?