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Ekzentrique Jan 2020
Petrifying yellow agony that I concealed inside my mind
Made untouchable even from my brown bare hands
Escape like a prisoner but the end is dark and nowhere to find
Untimely, these scarlet embers burning in the sands

Succumbed into a swirling abyss of agonizing questions
A bizarre episode of losing in a game we all call Life
Only cascading tears are present in effortful actions
Merciless, stabbing me relentlessly with a stainless knife

These thoughts have been in my weary heart for the longest time
Hidden under the deepest chambers preventing anyone to discover
Hindering myself to soar with blissfulness, it’s the most violent crime
Lest, I’ll be ****** and impossible to recover

Mixed thoughts of melancholy and sorrow, these are all fleeting
Although these were the ones that left a massive and painful scar
Shrouded by the blanket of smiles behind an unbearable sting
I cannot wake up from this nightmare yet because it’s dawning afar
Ekzentrique Jan 2020
Growing older
Made me feel less
Certain occasions
Turned worst from best

Birthdays used to be special
And Christmas Holidays, too
I was feeling ecstatic
Now I just feel blue

New Years
Don't excite me anymore
Opportunities knocking
I will just close the door

Is this what growing old means?
Bringing home stress
Everyday I just feel
Believing a little less
I'm tired of growing older
Ekzentrique Dec 2019
I gotta keep myself wide awake
But sleep is knocking in my eyes
A weariness still lies within my gaze
And despair painted upon my face

Fighting silently within my crying soul
Are the invisble monsters that I created
Terrifying me even on my sweetest daydreams
Unleashing the petrifying pain

Engulfing me with the illusion
That the sunrise will be near
Unveiling the mask that I built
To feign the cascading tear

But I gotta make a straight face
And smile as though nothing bad is happening
Cause none will care
If I'm the one who needed saving
Ekzentrique Dec 2019
"What is this life?"
I deeply wonder every night
Confusion bombards my thoughts
Lacking of dazzling light

"What is this life?"
That's not the only mystery at hand
Deserting my lonely soul
Embers burning in the sand

"What is this life?"
I still don't know the answer
Destiny playing a fool
I have the power to alter

I threw the question off
That has haunted me a lot of times
Life is totally uncertain
Not flowing smoothly, it never rhymes
Uncertain of my purpose in life, I guess?

— The End —