I don't want to hear that I will.

I want to see me doing it

I don't want to hear that I'll get through this

I just want it to be over

I don't want to be in the dark

I may as well go into the light

My mind is like a minefield

Certain things are like explosions, setting me off

Others are calm and peaceful, laughable and joyous


Watch where you step

If I could go back, I'd change a lot of things


I'd make sure I passed all my classes

I'd make sure I don't get distracted by all of the little things

I'd get better at my routines

I'd prevent the mistake that ruined many aspects

I'd take a stab in drab, the darkness is my guide through this blinding light of life, I can't see ahead, I try yet I can't even get.


Instead of going back, Why not go forward, forgetting everything

I stand at the throne of my kingdom

Thousands count upon me for many things, I only count upon you

I have no heir, I have no wife, for it is the jester that has the knife

Carving a way into the light that only I could see, perhaps that simple pauper is actually me

If love was a currency, I'd be in the top one percent

If loneliness was a currency, I'd be an ever changing stock market broker, constantly fluctuating between being at the bottom and the top


If my feelings were a currency, only one person would be rich because they seem to have control over them all

I wish my feelings weren't just toys in your child's playset

I'm honestly dedicated to this goal, but your goals may not match mine

I'm worried this feeling might be allowed to grow,

Will I make to your next show?