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Aug 2014 · 505
Ana
Babygirl Aug 2014
Ana
Staring into the night she sees the stars.
All the city lights and the sound of cars.
They comfort her, lull her to sleep..
To bad, this is a peace she won't keep.
The sound of her heart is fading fast.
Time has come and passed..

She lives with a secret storm inside.
One that gives her ideas on what it'd be like if she died.
The disease she lives with has a name, Ana..
She lives by strict rules she can't even eat so much as a banana.
She has always known she has been fat..
The cuts on her wrist were more visible, she would just blame the cat.

This illness, it stole her innocence, depression drained her soul..
Her eyes were black as coal..
She has nothing inside, but a demon wanting to break free.
Hard to believe, that girl was just like me..
I have a secret i keep, hidden with a smile.
To bad, her and i will be just another name in a file..

We aren't human beings once we succumb to depression in all its glory.
We are mutilated human beings who knew only one way to tell our story.
We used a paint brush and a canvas, only the paint brush is a razor and the canvas is our wrist..
But this story hasn't come to it's end, it always has a twist..
You wouldn't believe me if i told you, darkness is bliss.
It hides the pain with a simple kiss..

But im not gonna tell you this stories ending, you decide.
But listen, if you need someone to confide...
Don't end your life, you are a beautiful angel with the power to change you!
Remember, there is always something else you can do.
Stay strong, and believe in a dream..
The only way to end a nightmare is with a scream..

Forget the world and what they tell you..
Because you are the best of the best, the truest of true..
All your imperfections make you perfect in my eyes..
No matter what, don't leave me for the skies..
You have a soul of gold..
And a love that can change depressions mold..
Stay strong lovelies, you are beautiful and i love you! No matter what the world says about you, to me, you are perfect just as you are!
Aug 2014 · 2.5k
Walking in the Rain
Babygirl Aug 2014
She was walking alone in the rain.
All of life was just so full of pain.
She smiles throughout the day.
No one asks, so there is nothing to say.
That's the funny thing, about walking in the rain..
No one can see the tears falling endlessly down your cheeks, no one can see the pain.

She wakes up and she starves herself, trying to be perfect in someones eyes.
No one notices all the pain, or how often she cries.
Depression overtaking her mind.
All she feels is pain, never love; nothing kind.
There is a secret she buries deep within..
And if anyone knew, they would say suicide is a sin..

She is going to let the smile fall, she is going to succumb to the pain.
Nothing more to say as she walks through the rain.
She walks to the place she will say goodbye..
Somewhere beautiful so no one will cry.
She smiles as the blade slides across her wrist.
Darkness has tainted her soul, demons kissed.

She lays down, looking up at the skies.
The most beautiful thing in her eyes.
She starts to close her eyes, the blood flowing free.
She whispers, im coming home, to fly with the angels, can't you see?
Soon her vision fades to black.
She knows, it's to late no going back..

In the rain, she lay there dying.
Everyone thinking she was happy, never seeing her crying..
She hid it well, but you should have seen.
How could you not hear, the nightmare, it made her scream..
You ignored the signs, they were all clearly there..
So, she knew, no one would care.

She took her life, and you sit and wonder why..?
You have no right, because she was begging you every time she would cry.
You ignored her pain, because you were scared..
You showed her, no one cared..
She was a broken heart in a shattered world, she would spend hours in the rain, crying..
When inside, she was already dying..

Famous last words, Im fine, and out came that smile.
When in reality she was begging, look, please save me, go the extra mile..
But you took her word, and that sealed her fate.
She was living in a dying state..
Her eyes could not lie.
So why did you listen, when the tears were always there, about to cry..

You will never know the reasons why.
So don't torture yourself with the questions, because no matter what she was gonna die..
You could have looked and seen, always going for a walk in the rain.
The only time she could clearly express her pain.
She will live in our hearts, a memory..
But what she needed was you to see...

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